A Journey of Worth: Afterword

I want what I want, in Truth.

I will what I want, in Truth

I present what I want and will to True Authority

for guidance, in the service of Divine Love.

For the past few days I have been ruminating on the overall “achievement” or “accomplishment” of the Journey of Worth, because I knew eventually, I would be writing a post script. (Of course, “achievement” and “accomplishment” aren’t really the right words… more like—“afterthoughts” or “what did I learns”). The phrases above are what continued to enter my mind as I contemplated what the post script would be about. I didn’t really know at first what to make of those lines, but they continued to enter my mind, as I thought about this post script.

Here is how my thoughts progressed, with the sentences above at the center:

This is supported by day 05, “there is only One Will”:

“I want what I want in Truth.” My will only wants the Truth; it wants what my Self wants, and that is Truth. In other words, I agree with my Self. My Self Knows the Truth, and wills the Truth; that is what I want too (despite my self-sabotage, obstructions, or barriers; despite obscuring the Truth from myself; despite having to pluck SO many weeds to understand)… all I want, all that is worthy in my life and affairs is the Truth. This is what I want; this is what my Self wants for me.

So, if I want it, then, I can (and do) Will it, because it is who and what I am: Love. Peace.

“I Will what I want, in Truth”. All of this is about worthiness, because what exists in Truth is really all that exists, and (conveniently!) all I care to have in my experience. Since there is only one Will, and “we” “both” want the same thing, then, I am Willing what I want in Truth. This was powerful at first— I have the Power to Will Truth into being.

But then I thought, but wait a minute

If There is only one Will and…

If We are One, and…

If my Self is established in and by Love (Guiding Thought 07) and if I extend the Love that I am (being aware, understanding, and Knowing my will as Love, Guiding Thought 09), then… I AM what I want in Truth.

And if this is correct, then, my Will wills only what I want, which is what I AM in Truth, so the second line becomes, “I Will what I AM, In Truth”; and the saying becomes transformed:

I AM what I want in Truth.

I Will what I AM, In Truth

And since I am what I want, there is no reason to want.

Since I am what I will, there is no reason to will. So the first two lines become simply: I AM.

Throughout these thoughts, and this process, I continued to “feel” the truth of the progression. This is why “I AM” makes sense, in the “I AM that I AM” way. There is nothing to want; there is nothing to will. There is only the beingness of Self.

I am not saying that I continue to “get it”. But in the moment, as I was coming to understand the progression, I understood. I Am.

Throughout the progression, I was repeating the three lines, as they appear at the top (until they transformed, as outlined); the third line,  “I present what I want and will to True Authority for guidance, in the service of Divine Love“ is what (I think) carried me through to a new understanding. Wants and Wills and desires and attachments and this job or that car or this house or that relationship carry us away from our Self; carry us away from True Authority. It’s easy to think about wanting or willing—especially when it comes to worth—in a worldly sense. It is for me, anyway; I am still not certain of what Worth is (I will be doing this Journey again!). But, as I offer (present, give as a present) my wants and wills to a True Authority for guidance, and do so with the intent to serve Divine Love… then, well… True Authority guides me.

And may Divine Love use this to benefit all.

A Journey of Worth: Day 40

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This journey concludes today, October 20, 2013, with this article. A postscript to this Journey will be posted on Thursday, October 24.

The next journey, “A Journey of Healing, will begin Monday November 4, 2013.

Guiding Thought

If I am to be my Self in the world, I must be for others as well as myself. There is no other.

I am willing to be receptive to the Infinite Love of All. I am willing to understand how I must rise above the struggles and pains of the world. I am willing to rise again and again with each call for help, each outstretched hand. I am willing to be the one to choose to change. I offer my pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation, into the light of Love that I may see and give only the light of Love always.


“There is no other”. In the Guiding Thought, this statement takes on two meanings. It  means both that there is no other Self –the Self that I am is the Self that you are, is the Self that resides in All—and (precisely because of the first meaning) there is no other—All is One.

So, “I am to be my Self in the world” means that I must have an attitude of acceptance of All as One, as my Self. Everyone is equal, All are equal to me; I am equal to All, for we are all One.

And we know that this All One is only Love.  Thus, I am one with Love, equal to Love; you are one with Love, equal to Love.

In Love there is not struggle or pain; if I feel struggle or pain, I have forgotten that I am Love. When I remember Love in order to rise above struggle and pain, my effort opens the space for you to rise above struggle and pain (though, in Love there is really no “you” or “I”).

This is why I am willing to rise again and again, why I am willing to answer calls for help, why I am willing to choose to change: because we are equal in Love, any effort I give to “you” is being given to “me”.

This is why I offer my pain and suffering, guilt and blame, up for transformation: because “my” transformation is “your” transformation.

…Until we Know ourselves united in Love.

A Journey of Worth: Day 39

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Guiding Thought

I extend the Love that I am, for that is all I truly am. As I learn to be aware, to understand and to Know my own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, my life experiences become worthy of me. Expressing my Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings me satisfaction, the only choice that allows me to experience my Self—the Love that I am. My-your-our- freedom depends on my right choices, depends on my choosing what is worthy and what is not.


This guiding thought encapsulates several central concepts that are foundational to moving beyond worldly thought, expectation, and experience.

First, the Guiding Thought states that” I am Love and only Love”. This has been a theme throughout this journey, as well as it was in “A Journey of Purpose”. Here, it is stated as an accepted premise, it is not asking you to believe that you are love; it presumes that you already know it.

Second, the Guiding thought states that it’s not just that “I am Love”, but that “I will Love”. Willing can be either a decree (“This will be done”) or an acceptance (“I am willing to do this”). We must first accept ourselves (the second sense of the word) as Love before we can “will Love” (the first sense of the word) as our Selves.

These are pretty intense concepts, and may be a lot to handle for a consciousness that is not already attuned to these ideas (or if there are blocks, obstructions, or disturbances in the way). So, the Guiding Thought takes this into account and basically says, “No worries… you may not be ready to embrace your Self as Love, and will as Love just yet. That’s ok, because this is just about allowing your-self to learn to do so. You don’t need to Know, you are learning to Know, and you are doing that first through awareness and understanding. Just take one easy step at a time.”

Third, expressing myself as Love, as the will of Love, allows me to experience myself as Love. It’s not just internal, it’s not imagination, it’s in my experience; I can feel it and know it because I experience it.

All I have to do is choose. But choosing can be overwhelming too. So, it says I don’t even have to Know how to choose; I am learning that too! Learning to choose comes after or with, but not prior to, learning myself as Love (and being willing to do so), and thus willing Love.

My Self as Love is very gentle and patient with me. It understands seeing Love that is infinite and eternal can be confusing, intimidating, and overwhelming for the “me” who is in this limiting body and world. Goethe said, “If you would know infinity, take a step in every direction”. My Self as Love helps me do just that, slowly…one step at a time. It asks me to start just by being willing, and as I remain willing, my Self as Love leads me, because I am accepting it as my will. With little steps, I walk toward freedom!

A Journey of Worth: Day 38

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Guiding Thought

I am worth the effort it requires to move my mind to Love. I am worth the time of waiting, in patience, for Knowing to arrive. Every moment, every second that I open to simply being willing for Love to enter is a moment offered to Eternity; a moment offered to healing, a moment offered to Unity.

Love does not announce itself with trumpets and cymbals. It simply settles slowly, quietly, gently, beyond sense-perception. So I must wait in patience and take the effort to move my mind to join the quiet stillness of Love. Here I rest. Here is Peace. Here is all I want and need.


Every thought of Love from any one is for All. With/in Love, the words “all for one and one for all” really apply. Every thought of Love ripples infinitely and eternally, through all existence.

When we have all cleared the dross, plucked the weeds, blown off the chaff, so only Love remains in every moment, we enter eternity together; we live in the infinite presence of Love.

There—in infinite eternity—Love already exists as the only reality, as infinite ripples of itself in and through all.

There—in infinite eternity—Love waits for us as we plow through time. With each thought of Love, we join Love where it is.

That’s worth this effort. I am worth that effort. You are worth that effort.

A Journey of Worth: Day 37

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Guiding Thought

I claim who I am, the essence of my Self, established in and by Love. My Self shines with the strength, beauty, and power of its essence, Love. As I open to my Self, accept my Self, and Love my Self, the Life of Unity infuses all my activity and transforms my consciousness. Life as my Self renews my Joy and restores my trust in it.


I’m finally, after 36 days, beginning to feel the Guiding Thought on a deeper level. Finally, I was able to feel myself claiming my Self, feeling the enormity of my Self hovering, waiting, ready to be accepted into my consciousness.

Finally, I was able to visualize my Self shining through me with Beauty and Power. I was a bystander as I simply watched it shine, knowing my Self was coming through me.

Finally I saw, that when Unity pervades life’s activities, Unity reflects an understanding of Oneness and how Unity transforms consciousness, while joyful activity feeds the understanding of Unity. It becomes a perpetuating cycle—Unity feeds consciousness which feeds Joyful activity…which feeds consciousness…which feeds Unity.

Day 37…and the Journey has just begun.

A Journey of Worth: Day 36

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Guiding Thought

We are ALL One. I am not alone. Alone becomes All One in Unity and Healing. I am that you are that we become together. There is no separation—we mend the pieces: At One, there are no limits, at One, there are no boundaries. At One I am free—with you.


Oneness is one of the harder concepts for me to wrap my head around. Well, they all are, really. What do I know of Love, of Peace, of Purpose? I have momentary realizations, fleeting experiences, moments of deep understanding…but most of the time, I contemplate and strive—or fumble, as it feels. I like to think that my effort results in the realizations, experiences, and moments that I do have, and I can confirm that I have those moments much more often than I did five, ten, or twenty years ago. I feel much more settled than I was five, ten, or twenty years ago and I can pull myself out of emotional distress or disturbance more easily (and the moments of distress and disturbance are fewer than years before).

With all of these concepts, especially Oneness, it’s like I know somewhere deep inside that these words (Peace, Love, Joy, Purpose, Oneness, etc.) mean something I have yet to really understand in a full, consistent way. I can’t understand these concepts like I understand the concept of “breakfast”. Even when the concept of breakfast changes (“Oh, we’re having fish for breakfast! That’s odd, but ok.), the change can still fit and make sense within what I already understand. But with words like Peace, Love, Joy, Purpose, Oneness, I don’t even have a baseline for understanding, for “fitting” things in to. Even though I have had experiences that feel like these concepts, they don’t linger (neither the experience nor the feeling). I want immersion, consistency, fullness of these experiences, so I can really understand.

The knowing and understanding is right there, so close…but still hidden, or maybe just on the very top shelf, just out of reach.

That’s why I am doing these Journeys—to remove what is hiding my understanding, to build a step stool to reach it.

What does it mean to be at One? If I look at myself, then look at you, all of my sense-data says you are you and I am me. We are two, not one. So what is Oneness?

Buddhists talk about “one mind”, Christians talk about the “Christ mind” (“May the mind that was in Christ Jesus be also in you”).

So, Oneness has to do with our minds (?). Our minds are united (is unity different from Oneness?). There is one mind, a “Christ mind”, which permeates all of us, all of existence (?).

Experience counters this, though. That’s another reason these concepts are difficult to wrap one’s head around. When people look outward, they see people and objects… not one anything. People can say “that is not me”, “I am different from them”, or “we are separate”. These thoughts are the only conclusion the human brain can come to with the sense-data that it perceives and receives.


If there is One mind, that mind must be able to perceive itself and to know itself. Wouldn’t you think?


If that One mind is in me, then I can perceive/know it.

How do I do that? How do I counter the sense-data and how do I perceive/experience Oneness?

This is what I’ve come to in response to these questions:

  1. Willingness: I must be willing to see the One mind with the One mind within me.
  2. Openness: The One mind within me wants me to Know it (this is an assumption, but I am accepting this as a premise). I must be open to receiving information/data that pertains to the One mind within me. I must be open to this information/data coming from somewhere other than my five senses.
  3. Practice. If we are of One mind, then at the deepest level, we share goals and interests. If I bring that attitude to all my interactions, that is a step toward experiencing the One mind within me in my daily activities. When I see our interests as mutual, and act in a way that supports your interests and goals (at the deepest level), as equal to my own (at the deepest level), then I am practicing the attitude (or mind) of Oneness.

With every day of the Journey, with every round of the Journey, the concept teaches itself. When I am willing to be open to the teaching and confirm my sincerity through practice I gain understanding, bit by bit. These concepts are Infinite…my journey is infinite.

A Journey of Worth: Day 35

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Guiding Thought

There is only one Will. That Will is Love. That Will is my Love, your Love, our Love, together. Only when I will in Love is the outcome assured in Love. Only when I will in Love do I know the results are truly beneficial to all, including myself. Only when I will with Love am I Free and I affirm with certainty “All is as it should be”.


There is a lot of uncertainty in the United States right now. The government shutdown has left millions of people without an income, whether they are government employees or recipients of government assistance. When today’s economy is this threatened, it gets right to people’s survival instincts: how will I eat? Where will I live? How will I take care of people I love? Whether or not a person is directly affected by the government, these feelings/concerns/fears are at the heart of people’s lives; everyone is striving to do the best they can to feed, clothe, care for, and comfort themselves and probably loved ones. These are questions we all ask at some level.

Without answers, there is great concern rippling through the country. How will this affect me?

While it may not affect everyone now, it will eventually. The tide is rising.

This is why it’s so important NOW to practice Love and Unity. This is why thoughts of Peace, Comfort, and Good Will are important to hold, to be, to practice, to share. Your Love, our Unity holds back the tide and transforms fear and uncertainty. We counter-balance the fear in our commitment to Love and to each other.

Practice at home and at work. Practice with those you love and those you don’t know. Practice daily in small situations; practice when you are so angry you see red, when you are moved by the kindness of a stranger, when you are so impatient that you can barely count to 10, when someone bothers you or disturbs your peace. Practice! Practice Love. Be Love. Be Kindness. Now. Always! It’s that important. Just think it.

Just think it. When you are disturbed, think, “I love you” or “I forgive you” or “We are One”. You don’t have to believe it in the moment. You don’t have to feel that you do love this person or that you do forgive that person. You don’t have to have your heart set on love, you don’t have to feel what it is you think, just think it.

This is not about you making big changes. This is about one tiny drop that you contribute against the tide. “I love you”.

Who thinks your thoughts? Can you think these things? Can you control what you think? If you can’t, who can? “I forgive you”.

Use these words consciously in your brain often and repeatedly; over and over. In small situations, in big situations, in no situation; think them as you drive or as you stand in line or watch your shows. “We are One”.

Think, “I love you”, when that person steps over a line at work.

Think, “I forgive you”, when this person rudely cuts you off in traffic.

Think, “We are One”, when a family member tries your patience.

Think these thoughts over and over, repeatedly, constantly, like a chant or a mantra or a tune you can’t get out of your head.

The little people, the masses, “We, the people” are not in control of the government (…until the next election) or the economy. But we are in control of our minds and our thoughts.

People today need your help, need your love. They are feeling pinched.

Be the solution. Start with yourself, in your own life. It helps ALL, because we are One.

I love you.

I forgive you.

We are One.

A Journey of Worth: Day 34

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Guiding Thought

My worth is inestimable, beyond compare! As I give, I learn, allowing Joy and Peace to lead and to guide me. I follow willingly for I know: Where there is Joy and Peace, there is Love; where there is Love, I am; where I am, I am giving my inestimable worth.


My worth is inestimable, beyond compare! How can anyone put a value on Wholeness and Joy? As I give I learn, because in giving, my Self merges in my consciousness with myself. My self comes to know my Self as Joy and Peace. I am always giving my inestimable worth, whether I know it or not. The Love that I am is always coming through me. When Joy and Peace lead me that is when it’s easy to recognize the expression of my Self. But my Self is always expressing… always expressing Love and Peace. It’s just that I don’t always experience it that way. But I want to. I want Love, Joy, and Peace to be my experience. I want to follow Love, Joy, and Peace because that is what I want in my experience. But how can I place a value on Love, Joy, and Peace? It’s not about me placing a value on them; it is that Love, Joy, and Peace are simply inestimably valuable! Beyond compare! I learn that as I give too.

A Journey of Worth: Day 33

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Guiding thought

I know my Self when I share my Self. As I give my Self, I see my Source returned to me. All that is Whole, all that is Beauty, all that is Holy, reflects back to me in the Joy of Being, in the brilliance of Life, in the Unity of Self. I choose to share only the Self of Beauty, Wholeness, and Joy, that I may Know my Self as Beauty, Wholeness, and Joy.


Today I started thinking about the progression of the Guiding Thoughts. It is day 33, only the third day of the fourth round, here is what I have come up with so far. The summary:

  1. I’ve forgotten my Self–I choose to remember.
  2. Something in my (True) Self does remember.
  3. When I share, the part of me that has forgotten somehow remembers, or merges with the part of me that remembers.

One of my hang ups with this is that I don’t really know what it means to “share my Self” (“As I give my Self…”). How do I do this? Am I supposed to visualize some higher-self that I am “giving” or “sharing”? Am I supposed to think about light-love-kindness-compassion, and thereby know I am sharing my Self?


Ah. It goes back to that “I was established in Love” thing. If I am Love, I don’t have to do anything to be it. In fact, if I do something to be it (or prove it), I am not being it. Being Love requires no action, no decision, and no effort. If I am making an effort to demonstrate that which I am naturally, then I am not being my Self naturally, am I?

OK… So I don’t have to do anything special?


But…see…here’s the catch… How the hell does Love get through me?  I mean… I’m grumpy sometimes, sad sometimes, recently just pissy… how does love get through that? How is that “sharing” love?

Love is Love is Love is Love.

That’s not very helpful.

Oh… here’s another clue: “I choose to share only the Self of Beauty, Wholeness, and Joy”…It’s that “only” thing I’m not doing. I am sharing my Self of Love, but I’ve got this other crap mixed in with it.

Now you are catching on. Remember Rumi.

What do I do with myself, when I don’t share only my Self?

This has already been answered through this whole Journey:

  • Be patient and kind with yourself
  • Be willing to share your Self
  • Continue to find and pluck the weeds, burn the dross
  • Know and trust the part of you that Knows
  • Keep going

How do I know when I am sharing only my Self?

“…reflects back to me in the Joy of Being, the brilliance of Life, the Unity of Self.”  The rain still falls, the sun still shines, but you see them with new eyes, the eyes of Joy-Brilliance-Unity. 

A Journey of Worth: Day 32

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Guiding Thought

I love myself for the Truth within me. The Truth within me Knows me for who I am—Pure Love, Only Love, beyond all valuing of the world. In Love all are equal, for we are One. This is how Truth Knows me—Pure, One, and Free. This is my Truth; this is our Truth; this is the Self I love.


Reading the Guiding Thought today was much like reading a checklist. It was very matter of fact.

“I love myself for the Truth within me.” __

Yes, I can agree with that. I may not feel much; I may not know what I am doing but I can agree I do love myself, if for no other reason than for the Truth within me. There may not be much to love other than the Truth within me, but I can say for certain that I love myself for the Truth within me.

“The Truth within me Knows me for who I am–Pure Love, Only Love beyond all valuing of the world.”  __

Yes, I can agree with that too. I may not know me for who I am but I can agree that the Truth within me does. That is why it is the Truth within me–it knows me for the Truth of my Self. Again, I may not know me for who I am, but It does. It even Knows what “beyond all valuing of the world” means…because I sure don’t.

“In Love all are equal, for we are One”.  Hmmmmm… _/_ (that’s a half-check)

There is a little bit of a leap of logic on this one. It presumes I accept the premise Love=One(ness). I don’t like the fact of the presumption, but I don’t mind agreeing with the premise. So, since I agree with the premise that Love=One(ness), then I can also agree with the conclusion that all are equal in Love. Because if there is only One, then there are no comparisons of better/worse, so of course, all is equal. One equals one equals one. Check. 

“This is how Truth Knows me–Pure, One, and Free”. No check.

Why? I can neither confirm nor deny the fact or truth of this. I cannot say how Truth Knows me for certain. At this point it would be conjecture. I’m willing to think it probably is true but I honestly do not know, and reason/logic cannot ascertain its truth merely from this statement. The same goes for the final sentence. I cannot confirm or deny this is my truth, your truth, or our truth.


I did confirm that I love myself for the Truth within me, and it knows me in a way I don’t know myself. Therefore, I am willing to accept Love knows me as Pure, One, and Free even if I do not know myself in these ways.