I know my Self when I share my Self. As I give my Self, I see my Source returned to me. All that is Whole, all that is Beauty, all that is Holy, reflects back to me in the Joy of Being, in the brilliance of Life, in the Unity of Self. I choose to share only the Self of Beauty, Wholeness, and Joy, that I may Know my Self as Beauty, Wholeness, and Joy.
The word “know” in the first sentence means something more akin to “become familiar with” or “recognize” or “see” than to know in the sense of “understanding perfectly as a fact or truth”. There are many ways to use the word know, ya know? I know that song…do you know him? …do you know the directions? …I know I can do it! Etc…
As I write these “Guiding Thoughts” and “Share” my own, sometimes I capitalize the word Know, as I do in the final sentence. This is my way of representing the Knowing that is all-pervasive, unquestioning, absolutely certain, absolutely clear. The Knowing that is beyond sense perception, beyond dualism, that resides in Oneness and Unity. It’s not too often that I actually experience that Knowing…but it’s what I strive for. Sometimes I get glimpses and moments of it, but then time moves and so does it; but it has touched me and I am changed.
Much of this Journey of Worth is both about becoming familiar with my Self (the Self of Infinite Love, Unity and Wholeness), and about Knowing it/me with certainty.
As I learn about that Self, there is comparing and contrasting going on in my head, in my heart, and in my experience. I look at what I feel, what I think, and what I do and ask, “Which self is that?”
The ideal is given to me in the Guiding Thoughts; the ideal is what I hold my thoughts, feelings and actions up against for comparison: is this a thought of Unity? Is that action one of beauty? Is this emotion loving, kind, caring? I compare/contrast what I actually did/do with what I say I want to do.
These sorts of comparisons are a natural outcome of what I mentioned a few days ago, when this journey shifted to encouraging constancy. When you tell yourself/Self that you want to be consistent and constant you are also telling yourself to weed out the inconsistencies.
Be patient, kind, and gentle with yourself as you move through the rest of this journey (the rest of life!).
Everything you experience now is on this journey with you, supporting you, and encouraging you, even the weeds. Especially the weeds!
The weeds come out because you have given them permission to. You have asked your Self to be present and to express through you (consistently!). In order for that to happen, the weeds must be cleared; in order for the weeds to be cleared…you have to see them.
Sometimes weeds can be difficult to deal with. On the one hand, you are saying to yourself, “I choose to share only my Self of Love and Unity” and on the other hand you give off the weeds of frustration, annoyance, feeling bothered, trapped, or helpless—or any other emotion or circumstance that is less than loving, kind, and peaceful.
These are the comparisons. This is the experience held up against the ideal. These are the points seeking transformation.
It’s ok if you are not experiencing the ideal. Stick with it. Keep that ideal alive, keep moving toward it.
You are transforming. Slowly and surely more and more of your Self will be in your experience. Just let it touch you and be changed.