We are ALL One. I am not alone. Alone becomes All One in Unity and Healing. I am that you are that we become together. There is no separation—we mend the pieces: At One there are no limits, at One there are no boundaries. At One I am free—with you.
During the contemplation today, I realized that the underlying feeling that I have had most of this Journey is a feeling of defeated. Defeated, deflated, and distracted. I have known something was going on this whole journey—normally, most of the time I can “get into” the guiding thought: study it, think about it, and analyze its facets, perspectives, and applications. Not today. I did it, I followed the rules, but my heart was not in it, my mind was not in it. I was distracted and wanted to be elsewhere (which is interesting because the elsewhere that I took myself was actually an unpleasant place).
So, my thoughts about this:
First, as I have been saying so much throughout this journey, there is/are dross/chaff/weeds that are coming up and asking to be released or transformed. This is in that line of stuff.
Second, I’d like to acknowledge that my feelings (“I feel defeated, deflated, distracted”) are not who I am. With this understanding, I am safe in acknowledging the feeling, without being concerned that it will remain as part of my identity. My feelings pass through me; they are not me.
Third, I want to continue to make sure that these particular feelings continue to pass through me, that they do not make a home here; they feel like they want to make themselves comfortable in my body, like those green mucus blobs (ick!). Fortunately, I have tools. The tools that I have ensure that I continue the movement of the feelings…the movement right on out. My tools are things like cosmic dance (yes, really…I’ll tell you about it sometime); fasting, breathing, “defusions”, exercise. For the remainder of this Journey, I will be adding a little extra sumthin sumthin as a practice, just to make sure that these emotions keep moving on out. I add things like this when I feel like I might be getting stuck (sometimes these things are the fundamental practice); and since this whole chaff/weeds thing has been pretty prominent on this Journey, I think it is in my best interest to use every resource I have to continue to get to the pure/real stuff.