Healing as you remove all the barriers you have built against it. Journey of Healing: Day 12

Copyright Tam Black 2013 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2013
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

I go deep within my inner stillness, and feel Divine Mind’s presence within me. I hold out my empty hands, symbolic of leaving preconceptions behind; symbolic of seeking True answers, and I ask, “What is the essence of healing?” These words resonate within me, as though in a vast cavern.  The word essence reverberates with these thoughts, “For what do I care most deeply?” “What is my own essence? What is my Truth?” “Where is my deepest hurt, where is my pain, where is my sorrow (that I may be healed)?”

The second day of each round of this Journey (today included) hearkens back to day 29 of A Journey of Worth, in which I mention the Rumi quote, “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” In a similar way, the task of healing is not to seek for healing, but to seek, find and remove all barriers that you have built against it.

Remember, we started this Journey noting the paradox of being on a Journey to Enlightenment (http://wp.me/p2saEd-rA): we already are the Whole Being of Love that we are striving to achieve. This paradox lies at the center of the Rumi quote, and also at the center of healing. This paradox is why we don’t have to strive to attain anything—we are already everything we want—Love, Peace, Happiness, Fulfillment, etc…  But we do need to strive to clear away all that prevents us from Knowing it. Knowing=experiencing the having and being of All that we are. This clearing away is the work.

There are many people (some of whom are gurus/teachers) who speak love speak, tap into love energy, light the world, are positive, lift people up, and cultivate their essence of Love and do the really fun love-work. After all, it is really cool and nice and warm and fuzzy and…. well…. Just LOVING to be FULL OF LOVE. I get it.

And sometimes it sucks to go through the crap of clearing away. I get that too. Believe me.

But if all a person does is the fun-love work, without the clearing-away-the-crap hard work… the crap is still there. And it’s the crap that needs healing the most.

“But,” you say, “if I can cultivate Love and feel that feeling without clearing away the crap, why do I need to clear away the crap!?”

Good question!

There are two immediate reasons that I can think of:

  1. True Love (the Divine kind, not the Once Upon a Time kind) requires no effort. If love-positivity-healing-lifting people up-tapping into a love vibration requires an effort to achieve-maintain-sustain it is not True Love. True Love requires no thought, no action, no effort. When you exist as True Love, you do not need to gaze at yourself in the mirror and repeat 20 times, “you are love”…you do not need to pump yourself up; you do not need to think about how to inspire others. You just be. This is an irony of True Love: it is so natural to you, you may not even notice it; Divine Love is so ordinary that it is unremarkable. In short: “cultivating love” is an oxymoron.
  2. If you don’t clear away the crap, no matter how much you speak the love speak, the crap will still “flavor” your words. It’s like this: You are a clear, pure glass of water. This is your natural state—clear and pure. BUT…things like emotional stress, physical stress, ignorance, burdens, feeling overwhelmed, etc., add “crap” to your beautiful pure, clear water. Your personal mix of pure water to crap is what interacts with the world (but remember, the crap is NOT who you are; the pure water is…).

2.1.    Some people just walk around letting that crap be agitated all the time. Their interaction with the world in always in a constant state of crap getting in the way. They experience life and relating to others in a way that just always feels crappy—and sometimes they let you know: “My life sucks”; “Shit happens”; “Misery loves company”.

2.2.    Some people work at having the crap settle to the bottom, so that most of the time, the clear pure water is interacting with the world as though unadulterated (refer to answer #1, above, but in this instance, the effort is not just about “cultivating” love, but also suppressing the crap). But the crap is still there, and every once in a while the water gets agitated. Then, the crap comes out! From (sometimes, seemingly) out of nowhere, there is just a moment of hostility, cruelty, or antagonism. Sometimes it’s more than a moment.

2.3.    Some people use filters to strain away the crap from the water. The crap is there, sometimes agitated, sometimes settled, but there is a proactive attitude to reduce the amount of crap in the water. There are tools that assist in crap-reduction. Some tools “work” when the crap is stirred up, when stress is high, or emotions are heightened; some tools “work” to release crap before it has a chance to make any big external impact.

2.3.1.  Tools that “work” when crap is stirred up: I have several go-to tools that I use, when I feel crap getting stirred up, or when I find myself in a swirl of overwhelming crap that descended upon me from out of nowhere and blindsided me.              Every thought, a prayer for release and healing: I will say/think (for example), “[Father] heal my mind”; “Forgive me, for I don’t know what I am doing”; “Karuna Karo, Karuna Karo (have compassion, have compassion)”. With each thought, I maintain the intention of an attitude of release and submission: If I am in a state of turmoil, I have forgotten who I am. The intended recipient of my prayer—the person/thing/God—to whom I offer the thoughts ultimately is the Divine Love/Oneness that knows me as my Self, that I know as my Self (but have forgotten).              Single point focus on the highest thought I can have at-the-moment: This means the repetition of one thought, trying to focus on it (not on the situation), as best I can. Sometimes the highest thought I can have (because something just feels that bad) is, “this too shall pass.” Sometimes, it’s “I forgive you” (directed at both myself and someone else). Sometimes it’s “I love you”. Sometimes it’s “Om Namaha Shivaiya.” I keep several of these types of phrases “ready” so that if something comes up, my mind is already prepared to pull them out (although even then, sometimes I am not ready!).              Reiki: I am second-level attuned, so I will “draw” Reiki symbols on/around a person, myself, or a situation. In a way, using Reiki is a combination of 1 & 2 above because, since Reiki is a healing art, it automatically invokes a thought or prayer for transformation (#1 above), and since it requires pointed-concentration, it is like #2 above.              Breathing. Some examples are: Twenty connected breaths; simple long, deep breaths; breathe in for a count of 7, hold for a count of 7, breath out for a count of 7; JUST BREATHE.              Going through a mental process of acknowledging the emotion/stress, recognizing that it is not who I am, but something that is passing through me, accepting it, but asking it to pass; watching it pass; filling its path with the light of Truth of who I am. This is how this process goes, basically: “I feel really angry…I feel really angry…I feel really angry…DAMMIT do I feel angry… ok, breathe… this feeling is a feeling; it is ok for me to feel angry, because it is not who I am; it is simply something that I am feeling right now. I am not my feelings, my feelings are not me. I can feel this feeling without being attached to it; I can watch it move within me. Breathe some more while beginning to watch it, accept it, ask it to pass…watch it some more as it passes (even visualize it ascending into the ether), watch it be gone…I am not my feelings, I am willing now to be receptive to my True Self: I am Oneness. I am Wholeness.” The thing about this option is that (I find) I really need to have my wits about me to be able to go through this process. When the crap hits, I don’t always sufficiently have my wits about me, but just acknowledging the feeling and recognizing “it is not me” often is enough to move me through the situation, and I can come back to the rest later.              Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT): I am mentioning this, because I have friends who speak highly of it—I have never utilized this technique. The technique is basically tapping on the energy meridians of the body while saying affirmations. Since I admittedly know little about this, I am supplying a link below.              Lots of other things! This is a short list. These are things I am familiar with. Find your own tools, share more in the comments.

Now comes the point of all this.

In the Guiding Thought for today, you ask your heart, “where is my deepest hurt”? You also asked this 10 days ago, if you have been on this journey with me from the start. The question is asked in order to “release and transform it”. If you have had any sincerity in your questioning, you have probably experienced your answer. I have. For me, my answer came in the form of one of my deepest hurts: feeling overlooked, ignored, unimportant. These feelings lead to despair “What does it matter; what do I matter?” And I just want to go away. Leave. Vanish. In harshest terms, this is my death urge: “why not just die?” I have worked on this particular hurt for many years (even just being aware of it, being able to identify it and to name it many years ago was a huge breakthrough), so, when I started feeling these feelings, oh, about 10 days ago (when the question was first asked)…I started paying attention.

When you ask sincerely for healing, it comes. But sometimes it comes in the form of CRAP that needs to be filtered, so that when it’s gone, you can experience your purity.

If you have been feeling something you haven’t felt in years…

If your feelings don’t “make sense” in their current context…

If crap hits you from out of the blue…

If you have physical-body odd things going on…

If you have unaccounted for stress around a particular person or situation…

Congratulations! You are getting what you have asked for!

Now, we can transform it (“we” because we only heal together, we heal only together).

This article today is for your preparation to transform your crap, to heal.

  1. Now you are aware of a higher purpose to your experiences.
  2. With awareness, you can understand why you are having these experiences and move your thoughts intentionally to filter away the crap.
  3. You have tools to use for transformation. Look back at the tools I offer; or pull out your own (share them, below as you like). Do something. Each and every time crap comes up, commit to doing something, anything. Start small, with just one thought, but do something that moves you in the direction of transformation.
  4. Apply your tools from now until the end of this journey to every emotion, every person, every situation, anomaly, stress, interaction…everything disturbing, anything disruptive. Nothing is too small or too large to apply a tool for transformation.
  5. You may find yourself in situations that “look like every other time,” “every other situation” that has wounded you. THIS time, choose to transform it, for it has come to you now at this time with your bidding. You can handle it. You can transform it. Let your mind be different toward it. Approach with a new attitude of acceptance; let it be healing.

You are Whole and Holy. Let yourself be these things by releasing what inhibits them.

EFT link: http://eft.mercola.com/

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