Willing to be receptive. Journey of Healing: Day 17

Copyright Tam Black 2013 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2013
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Love is Wholeness. The essence of Love is Peace. The essence of Wholeness is Unity. My essence is Love, therefore, my essence is Peace; my essence is Unity. Since my essence is Unity, I share Love and Peace with you wholly. Knowing the Unity of Whole Love and Peace with All is the essence of holiness. I choose to be aware, to understand and to Know my whole and holy self, which is Love. 

The first time I read through the guiding thought today, my reaction was: That’s really cool! I was taken with the progression. I thought about “I share Love and Peace with you wholly” as having two meanings. First, a possible meaning is that I give fully all the Love and Peace that I am with you; a second possible meaning is that we all have equal portions of Infinite Love—that we share All the Love there is equally…and I thought having those two possible meanings was kind of cool.

Then I thought about the essence of Holiness as this sharing of infinite Love and Knowing it…and I could see how sharing and knowing is a working definition of Holiness: someone who is in a state of Holiness Knows Love with All, and Knows that ALL share that love equally.

Then I read through the Guiding Thought a second time. Totally did not get it. It was like my brain had turned off, shutdown. “Am I resisting?” I thought.

So I read it a third time. Words. Just words. No understanding, no insight, no light, no ah-ha.

And I read it a fourth time; really trying to get it again, trying to turn my brain back on. Nothing.

“Why would I be resisting this after starting so strong?”

I kept reading for several minutes, pausing on certain words, letting phrases linger in my mind, trying to will myself to understand, to feel, to see. But no. I never did recapture the wonder of the first read-through.

I don’t know if this is resistance, or withholding, or something I just don’t understand right now. I don’t know why I would resist or withhold from myself these ideas I so desire, everything I say I want.

But just in case, let me re-commit, taking a small step backward:

I am willing to be receptive to All Love, All Peace, All Unity. I am willing to accept Love, Peace, and Unity in my mind, in my heart, in my actions, and in my affairs. I am willing to be attuned to Love, Peace, and Unity in my Self, and everywhere. I am willing to learn of my Holy Self.

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