Decide for your Self. Journey of Healing: Day 18

Copyright Tam Black 2013 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2013
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

I decide today to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self working within me, expressing through me. As I move through the affairs of my life, with an open mind and empty hands, I look first to my Whole and Holy Self for guidance. My only decision today is to be aware of my Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with my Self.

The root of the word decide is the same root as words like incisive, incision, incisor, from Latin “dēcīdere” to cut off, equivalent to “de + cīdere” a form of “caedere” to cut (see dictionary.com). In making a decision, we are in a sense cutting off other options. What we decide is cut away from anything else, so that it stands solidly on its own.

In the case of this Guiding Thought, I am cutting out anything that is not Whole and Holy working within or through me.

I picture it like a spyglass. In the cinema, a spyglass “sight” is represented by a round “hole” that focuses on a ship or a section of land. The rest of the screen is black except for what the spyglass is “seeing”. My spyglass today is looking for only that which is Whole and Holy within me.

As my spyglass sweeps my internal horizon, anything that does not look Whole or Holy should simply be left alone, in a sense, ignored, so that it merely “exists” in the black part of the screen. I don’t need to do anything with the things I notice that are not Whole or Holy; I can just let them be, while I continue scanning for what I want to see.

I simply continue to sweep the horizon. I may not even know what I am looking for, after all, what do Whole and Holy look like? How do they appear? This is why my mind and hands must be empty. I cannot decide in advance what I think Whole or Holy look like. If they are not what I think they should be, I have cut off the possibility of seeing them. I have to be open with my approach and let them show me what they are.

This is the meaning of awareness for today—scanning your inner horizon for the activity of your Whole and Holy Self, and keeping disturbances behind the dark part of the screen. You need not understand what you are looking for—understanding comes later. You just need to look. As you move through your life and affairs, scan them. Scan your relationships, scan your attitudes, scan your emotions. Look for your Holiness; your Holiness will find you.

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