Welcome to the final round of this Journey of Healing. This Journey has been a struggle for me. “Things” (emotional crap) have been coming up; I have gained some insights about myself that have not been so easy to see; I have been working through a lot of my unworthy/inadequate/not-good-enough thoughts, as well as working at understanding congruence between the momentary experience and the universal (or Infinite) reality. I hope you have been having as much fun as me!
There is one thought about this Journey that seemed important for me to remember now during the final round, and to share:
When I was initiated with Reiki attunements, I was young—only 20. One of the first things I was taught is that “Reiki works on all levels of being—mind, body, emotions, spirit—it goes wherever it is needed most, for the healing.” What that means is that what you think is your priority for healing may not always be the priority for deepest healing. Think of it this way: if we, as multi-faceted, infinite beings, are represented by a turn of the 20th century old house, which we are renovating…we have to explore the nooks and crannies of walls, pipes, foundation and make sure they are sound and solid before we can change the cosmetics of the place. Our minds, spirits, and emotions are full of nooks and crannies. We have to get out the flashlight, go into the crawlspaces, and repair the places that are hard to see from the driveway. But here’s the kicker: we don’t always know; sometimes we don’t want to look (crawlspaces can be scary); even if we find a crack, we don’t know how far it goes (where it originates), and we don’t know how to fix it.
By seeking healing, as we do in the first three days of each round on this Journey, we are looking in those nooks and crannies for cracks in the foundation; we are proclaiming our commitment to truly wanting to find those cracks, so we can fix them to make our foundation stronger. At the same time, we are admitting we are not the experts—that we don’t know just what all the cracks mean, and which we should repair first.
On days 4, 5, and 6, we acknowledge and claim the end result—wholeness (or a fully renovated house). These days solidify our commitment to seeking out the nooks and crannies, because without fixing them first, our house is unstable. These three days we are giving ourselves permission to crawl in the dark spaces with the flashlight—because we know there is an expert who can fix what we find.
Days 7 and 8 are days we give to the experts. All we need to do on days 7 and 8 is to allow the experts to do their job—but we have to allow it. We must let them do what they know how to do, we must let our Whole and Holy Self work through us, as us.
Days 9 and 10 are rest and repair days. Your body heals the most when at rest, when you sleep. These two days are “sleep” days. Just relax. You’ve done a lot of work on days 1-8. Let your mind-body-soul rest and repair. It knows what to do, and can do it in your sleep, in your unconscious, in your subconscious…and you have given it all it needs to do so. Let it.
I clear my mind of all past notions of what I think healing is. All memories and stories I erase from my thoughts, leaving only a clean slate. I turn my attention to my Inner Divine Mind and I ask, “What is healing”? And I wait and listen. In silence, I take my attention deeper into the vastness of Divine Mind and ask again, “What is healing?” and “What is wholeness?” and “What is holy?” And I wait and I listen. Feeling stillness, I simply pause in the quiet and await my answer.
I feel more ready for this now than I have the first three rounds of this Journey. It seems that because I understand a little better what’s going on (see above), I can let go a bit more; I can relax and let the Journey do what it needs to do with my mind/emotions in order to get at whatever the priority healing is for me to achieve wholeness. I can approach without expectation and let it teach me what healing is. I am ready. Let’s do this.