A ‘Journey of Abundance’ Beginning Soon

These journeys are all consciousness journeys. I do these journeys for myself, designing/creating each one to expand my consciousness toward greater personal fulfillment and aliveness, in an upward spiral toward enlightenment. These are spiritual journeys in the sense that my primary aim is to increase my awareness and understanding of Divine Love and to achieve my own personal Divine Individuality.

Awareness of Divine Love occurs in the mind and heart, internally—in each person’s individual consciousness.  And, Divine Love expresses through people, externally, in the material world. These journeys are one of the ways I work with my Divine Self to achieve Its perfect expression in the world, uniting spiritual and material.

I share my journeys here, and invite others to join me, that we all may proceed joyfully forward to experience our own unique Divine Individuality in the world!

In a ‘Journey of Abundance’, I will be exploring my connection with Divine Source (Love), and its expression as form—money, work, business, service, etc. I will be discovering how my spiritual-self works in and through me to create an abundant, fulfilling life —and encouraging it to do so! (More will be posted on this on May 7.)

I invite you to join me—for one day, three days, a round of 10 days, or for the entire 40-day Journey. All are welcome.

A ‘Journey of Abundance’ begins on May 7, 2015 with the preliminaries and introductions. You can view the entire schedule below.

Here’s how it works: Each day, I provide a Guiding Thought (feel free to find/discover/create your own!). I spend a minimum of 15 minutes in meditative contemplation, allowing the Guiding Thought to “speak” to me, and then write whatever comes to me. You may join me in your own time and space, contemplating and writing. I share here whatever comes to me (oh boy!). There will be 10 meditation statements, repeated in 4 cycles (with slight changes in the wording), for a total of 40 days.  After the 40 days, I sit back and let it all sink in, and write a few reflections, which I share as well.

For some, these thoughts will be new concepts, new ways to think about yourself and your relationship to the world. For others, the concepts may be familiar, but the time and intensity involved in an entire journey may be new. Both of these can hinder progress—but I encourage you to keep on! The goal is to complete 40 days with no interruption. If you falter, or need to take a break, do so. But then come back! I’ll be here for you and with you.

I hope to see you here again on May 7! 🙂

Susanwithpearls

 

Susanwithpearls.com Summer 2015 schedule

Journey of the Heart – Day 40

We are on round 4! These last ten days, the Guiding Thoughts return to using me and I for the pronouns. See how your perspective of your self has changed through using you or we the past twenty days. See if your sense of self is bigger; if you can include a broader vision of “you”.

You may also choose to continue to take a moment before the Journey to listen to this quickly—it is a thought for others, so that the effects of this Journey ripple out!

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Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 40 Guiding Thought

My heart-love establishes my inner-peace.

Solidly grounded in my own inner-peace, I approach all of life with love, compassion, and wisdom.

I live as my Self, shining with the beauty of the Love I AM.

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you :).   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

Journey of the Heart - Day 40 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 40
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Wow, today is the last day of this Journey. We are done (for now)! Congratulations on the work you have done toward establishing a relationship with your heart! Your heart appreciates it, as do I.

Sometimes taking in the entire Guiding Thought can be too much. Perhaps you have noticed that in some of my recent reflections, my mind seems to focus on one word, or one part of the Guiding Thought. If this has happened for you, it’s okay, I assure you. You are just deepening your understanding of one aspect of the entire idea.

In a way, this is how these journeys work. Each word intentionally builds to create an idea, the idea expands throughout each sentence of the Guiding Thought, and each Guiding Thought expands the ones before and after it. Your consciousness evolves through each little step—each word—of every journey. In turn, every journey contributes another step to the Ultimate Journey; to your ultimate evolution towards personal aliveness and enlightenment.

The word for me today was “establishes”. What a solid word that is. It makes me think of being deeply rooted, firm, concrete, unmovable, or unshakable. The squares in the picture reflect this. Squares have mass; they are sturdy and substantial, secure and fixed.

Think about what it means to be established in inner peace through Love. Wow!

That’s where my mind was when I was drawing—allowing my feeling-nature to be immersed in an all-encompassing Love, which grounds and protects me.

When I am solidly grounded in Love, how can I do anything but approach the world with Love, compassion, and wisdom?

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Be sure to check back tomorrow, Monday, April 27, for information concerning the next 40-day Consciousness Journey! 🙂

Journey of the Heart – Day 39

We are on round 4! These last ten days, the Guiding Thoughts return to using me and I for the pronouns. See how your perspective of your self has changed through using you or we the past twenty days. See if your sense of self is bigger; if you can include a broader vision of “you”.

You may also choose to continue to take a moment before the Journey to listen to this quickly—it is a thought for others, so that the effects of this Journey ripple out!

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Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 39 Guiding Thought

Gratitude strikes my heart like a bell, resounding love through my being.

Gratitude opens my heart to Love’s purity, my very own essence!

I experience such deep gratitude for my heart, my essence, my ALL of Life!

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you :).   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

Journey of the Heart - Day 39 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 39
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

The center of this picture is a pearl. The word “essence” was very powerful today, and as soon as I started listening to the Guiding Thought, the word essence immediately brought to mind a picture of a pearl—my essence—in my mind!  It was really neat to connect with my Susanwithpearls essence through this Guiding Thought. I really felt it. In fact, this was one of the deeper-feeling days that I’ve had.

As it seems to go at those times when feelings are predominant, I’m a bit at a loss for words to describe the effect.

However, I will say that as I was drawing, I was wishing for you to feel a similar connection with your essence, with your “pearl”, whatever that is for you. I felt so satisfied, calm, assured, happy, and loved; I want you to know that part of yourself…the part that brings you these kinds of feelings. I want you to know peace within yourself.

Gratitude came naturally from this connection to my essence, too.  I was so thankful for the love that I was feeling, love I wanted to share, and I know is possible for everyone.

When I feel like this, I know this is the right path. Oh, what the world would be like, if everyone knew themselves as the beautiful pearl-essence that they are! Connection with others would be heartfelt and sincere. People would want to do things in such a way that would unlock other’s ability to unearth their (sometimes deeply) buried worth and beauty. People would aspire to co-operation, helping each other, sharing; in short, to being kind… it’s a beautiful thing to imagine.

May you know peace in your essence today…and always.

 

Journey of the Heart – Day 38

We are on round 4! These last ten days, the Guiding Thoughts return to using me and I for the pronouns. See how your perspective of your self has changed through using you or we the past twenty days. See if your sense of self is bigger; if you can include a broader vision of “you”.

You may also choose to continue to take a moment before the Journey to listen to this quickly—it is a thought for others, so that the effects of this Journey ripple out!

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Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 38 Guiding Thought

Love-as-light streams from my heart to your heart!

We are connected by Love; we are One in Love.

I imagine this stream of love-as-light connecting with everyone in time and space.

I imagine receiving this stream of love-as-light as it returns to me from everyone in time and space.

This is enough. We are One.

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you :).   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

Journey of the Heart - Day 38 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 38
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

 

It seems that lately, the pictures have very little to do with the words of the Guiding Thought. I knew that as I was drawing this, but I kept coming back to the words, “this is enough”—and I knew that it applied to the moment of the drawing, as well as any further implications.

This is something I have had to remind myself over and over on this Journey: the drawing is not just about drawing; it’s about spending time being tuned in with my heart, my creativity, my imagination. In this sense, none of the drawings matter. The drawings only truly represent the time that I have spent with my inner self. If the drawings communicate something, if I see something new because of the drawings, if something becomes more clear to me as a result of the drawing…which are great by-products…but it’s those other “things” that are the essential thing. The thing is…opening to my heart, being with my heart, making time and space for my heart. Yes!

It just so happens, this picture is about opening, like a flower. This geometric, somewhat off-kilter flower speaks to me of unfolding and expansion. When I enfold my heart (within), I unfold and expand (without). When I accept myself, (“this is enough”) everything becomes acceptable. This is the foundation of easily and naturally connecting with others through light and love, being One in Love.

No love is possible without first Self-Love.

Journey of the Heart – Day 37

We are on round 4! These last ten days, the Guiding Thoughts return to using me and I for the pronouns. See how your perspective of your self has changed through using you or we the past twenty days. See if your sense of self is bigger; if you can include a broader vision of “you”.

You may also choose to continue to take a moment before the Journey to listen to this quickly—it is a thought for others, so that the effects of this Journey ripple out!

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Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 37 Guiding Thought

I focus my heart-love in the service of others.

As I serve others through my deepest heart-love, my own love expands and becomes amplified.

There is always more love to share, to give, to experience!

Such joy and gratitude fill me, when I open to my heart’s love!

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you :).   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

Journey of the Heart - Day 37 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 37
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Now that I look at this, without being involved in making it…I find it a bit humorous. It looks like an unlikely angel…or one of the brooms the apprentice had doing his chores in ‘Fantasia’…or beehives. I know that when I was drawing it, it was all about the spirals.

Spirals have been a “thing” for me lately, it seems. I woke up this morning picturing spirals like this, so it is no wonder I drew them today. They are vortices of energy. I feel like each one carries energy both directions. There is energy going both up and down, in and out. So the top spiral carries energy down to the center, transferring the energy to the bottom vortex, which sends it further down, while the lower spiral pulls energy up and carries it to the center, transferring it to the top vortex, which sends the energy further upward. There is this perpetual pulling and pushing characteristic to each of them. The two blue vortexes on the sides are doing the same—each one pulling energy in and pushing energy out.

There is something about transformation in these energy conductors. Everything is energy, thought, and form. Energy transforms to thought, thought transforms to form, form transforms back to energy, the spirals carry the energy; thought impresses shape upon the energy to become form. I’m not sure how this picture is saying this, it’s just an impression I am getting from it.

Something that was implicit for me, while I was drawing that is not visible, is that the spirals are overlaid onto me. They outline me, without me being in the picture.

 

Journey of the Heart – Day 36

We are on round 4! These last ten days, the Guiding Thoughts return to using me and I for the pronouns. See how your perspective of your self has changed through using you or we the past twenty days. See if your sense of self is bigger; if you can include a broader vision of “you”.

You may also choose to continue to take a moment before the Journey to listen to this quickly—it is a thought for others, so that the effects of this Journey ripple out!

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Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 36 Guiding Thought

I listen to my heart and with my heart.

My heart pays attention to others, listening to their inner voice, their unspoken words.

I care, and attend with love to their deeper, silent needs, asking their heart, “How may I strengthen you and raise your energy?”

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you :).   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

Journey of the Heart - Day 36 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 36
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

I had a bit of a “duh” moment when beginning today’s drawing. I was listening to the Guiding Thought before putting crayon to paper when I realized something: so far on this Journey, I’ve focused this Guiding Thought on other people’s hearts…but not on my own. Despite the first line saying, “I listen to my heart,” I have only been focused on listening with my heart on this day of each round. My heart was telling me it wanted to be heard.

On the one hand, I thought this was a bit ironic, since this whole Journey is about kindling a relationship with, and expressing, my heart. Yet…there it was…my heart, telling me it was feeling overlooked. On the other hand, when I tuned in to this, I really did feel that I was missing something important.

Now, after the past bit of time struggling on this Journey (see yesterday’s post!), today’s feeling and drawing are very helpful and comforting. This drawing is all about the gentle, compassionate enfolding of my own heart; soothing myself, being gentle with myself, having patience with myself, accepting myself.

>Breathing easy now<

Journey of the Heart – Day 35

We are on round 4! These last ten days, the Guiding Thoughts return to using me and I for the pronouns. See how your perspective of your self has changed through using you or we the past twenty days. See if your sense of self is bigger; if you can include a broader vision of “you”.

You may also choose to continue to take a moment before the Journey to listen to this quickly—it is a thought for others, so that the effects of this Journey ripple out!

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Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 35 Guiding Thought

I bring my awareness to my heart and resonate with its love.

Naturally and easily my heart-love radiates through me.

Love is present now—rippling in to the future, releasing the past.

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you :).   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

Journey of the Heart - Day 35 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 35
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

This journey is definitely having an effect on me. I am changing. It’s not very comfortable. I have been so out of my element for this journey. All this heart over mind stuff…all this right-brained creativity…I am not used to being so immersed in these things.

You see, since I have been doing ‘Journey of the Heart’, I have really been working on not thinking. That means, not planning, not making lists (and when I did, life had other plans), not thinking things through, not assessing, not figuring out the “best” way to do or approach something…which means that I never really know what I am doing, or why. I’m just doing… or being. [Is this what people mean by “just be”???]

My comfort zone has been expanding and I have been feeling the stress of re-structuring. I’ve been forgetful, confused, spontaneous (sometimes forced spontaneity), and unsettled in general…even anxious.

I believe all of these uncharacteristic traits I am experiencing are a direct result of exercising a part of myself that does not generally get this much exercise. I am not ready to be characteristically forgetful or confused. I think these things are the result of my brain re-wiring and settling in to a new normal…or at least I hope so.

I was feeling this when I did today’s drawing. My mind was really resisting. “Drawing! Again!? NOOOOOOOOOO! I’m soooo tired of this!” But I pushed through… and did it. I can’t say that I like the drawing, but I did it. The picture represents energy that comes out and cycles back. Everything cycles. Maybe all this that I am feeling is coming out to be filtered and cycled back—purified… let’s hope.

I’ll finish the Journey; I am willing to continue to grow and expand! (Especially since there are only a few more days left!) But, boy, I am not enjoying this right now.

Are there any right-brained people who are in more familiar territory with this Journey who can talk me through this? Is it easier for you? Do people who are more naturally “emotional” or “creative” have a less unsettling experience with this? What kinds of things are natural or more characteristic to you? Is this just me?

Yet, I feel oddly settled by simply writing about how unsettled I feel.