Journey of the Heart – Day 17

We are on Round 2 of our Journey! For those of you new to this, there are 10 Guiding Thoughts, which we repeat in four rounds, for a total of 40 days. With this round, instead of hearing the guiding thoughts in the first person, the subject of the Guiding Thought will be “you”. For example, instead of saying, “My heart knows how to love”, we will be saying, “Your heart knows how to love.”  (For further explanation see Journey of the Heart – Day 11)

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Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 17 Guiding Thought

Focus your heart-love in the service of others.

As you serve others through your deepest heart-love, your own love expands and becomes amplified.

There is always more love to share, to give, to experience!

Joy and gratitude fill you, when you open to your heart’s love!

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you 🙂   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

 

Journey of the Heart - Day 17 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 17
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Today’s guiding thought was so spot-on today! It continued a theme that I had been thinking about for a few days. My thinking about it began with what could be called a negative emotion: Currently, there is someone in my life who has that kind of abrasive “I am better than you and I’m going to let you know it” attitude. It has been very difficult for me, feeling so annoyed and disliking this person, while also working on opening my heart to more love. It’s the thing that shuts my heart down but also makes me work harder at keeping my heart open. The negativity won’t win!

But…the negativity was winning for a day or so. I did more mantra. The negativity ebbed. Then I had a gift that pushed me through almost completely (I am still working on “completely”).

Here is what happened: At the beginning of every Journey, I write my intention (and encourage you to, as well). I then dedicate any good of the Journey and my intention to… someone, or some people, or to everyone…but at least to one person. The reason I do this is because there is so much positive power in giving (dedicating) the good of actions to others. At the most basic level, it completely dissipates any selfishness, but it also amplifies self-less-ness.

Think about it this way: If I want to do something—anything, but I feel like it would be selfish if I did it, and then I feel guilty for wanting to do it because I don’t want to be selfish (so now we have guilt on top of perceived selfishness), then because I feel guilty, I feel resentful because I can’t have what I want, and when I feel resentful I get really angry because I can’t have what I want…do you see how it spirals? All because I wanted something…and thought it would be selfish if I actually thought I deserved to have something I wanted. This has the potential to become an incredibly self-defeating cycle. Dedicating any good that comes from any action, any thought, anything, to the benefit of others dispels that original feeling of selfishness, preventing the spiraling emotions.

When you can truly “Focus your heart-love in the service of others”, you are doing this dedication more naturally—without thought; the intent of service to others infuses all your actions, words, thoughts. Until you can do this completely naturally and until you can live easily in that space of service to others, things like this Guiding Thought help to condition, or train, your mind/heart to this way of being.

The more I practice this Guiding Thought, the more I realize that it is true. Every time I practice focusing my heart-love in the service of others, I feel more love, more open, less burdened… always. I realize that giving to others truly is the key to expanding my own love, to experiencing more love, to growing in gratitude and joy. This Guiding Thought has been an amazing teacher.

As I was preparing for my day this morning, I worked on dedicating good to “everyone”. And, you remember that person at the beginning of this story who provoked those negative emotions? I specifically added that person’s name to my dedication. It went like this…

First time: “I dedicate any good that comes from this time, this meditation, this journey to the benefit and enlightenment of ALL…even >name of person<” …Cringe, SMH, roll my eyes “Ugh, I really don’t LIKE that person.”

Second time: “I dedicate any good that comes from this time, this meditation, this journey to the benefit and enlightenment of ALL…even >name of person<” Deep sigh, slight cringe, slight shake of the head, then… “OK, even >name of person<”

Third time: “I dedicate any good that comes from this time, this meditation, this journey to the benefit and enlightenment of ALL…even >name of person<”… “OK, yes. Even >name of person<”

I said it two more times and by the fifth time, I was much better with wishing that person benefit and enlightenment.

It also helped to recognize that what I was doing was a very positive thing for myself. I do these Journeys for me, for nothing but my own Divine evolution….and that could seem kind of selfish; I don’t meditate or do this for anyone else. Yet, any benefit that I receive, any good that comes from my own progress, or from sharing it, I dedicate to everyone, to you, and somehow it’s not quite selfish anymore.

 

 

 

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