Journey of the Heart – Day 19

We are on Round 2 of our Journey! For those of you new to this, there are 10 Guiding Thoughts, which we repeat in four rounds, for a total of 40 days. With this round, instead of hearing the guiding thoughts in the first person, the subject of the Guiding Thought will be “you”. For example, instead of saying, “My heart knows how to love”, we will be saying, “Your heart knows how to love.”  (For further explanation see Journey of the Heart – Day 11)

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Spend about 15-20 minutes with the guiding thought, and then let your heart speak through words, pictures, colors, shapes, whatever feels right. I’ve supplied a link below to an audio of me doing the guiding thought–use it if you like to create, while listening to it play on a loop (that’s what I do). Scroll to the bottom for my sharing…

Day 19 Guiding Thought

Gratitude strikes your heart like a bell, resounding love through your being.

Gratitude opens your heart to Love’s purity, your very own essence!

Experience such deep gratitude for your heart, your essence, your ALL of Life!

Click here to access the audio file.

You can download this and play it in a loop while you allow your heart to speak to you 🙂   I suggest Windows Media Player (I have not tested other players).

 

Journey of the Heart - Day 19 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 19
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

I’ve mentioned several times that one of the big things I am working through this Journey is surrender…which has to do with both satisfaction and acceptance. Today’s Guiding Thought is about the second biggie on this Journey—gratitude (the third biggie, by the way, is Love—of course!).

The point of these Journeys is to expand my consciousness. There are a lot of layers to what this means, but for now, in this context, it means working with my mind and heart to replace less-loving thoughts with more-loving thoughts.

It’s like a glass of muddy water (the accumulation of years of habitual thinking) having a  steady stream of clear, pure water poured into it (the Guiding Thoughts). The muddy water gets stirred up, the mud swirls around, and the contents of the glass seem to become even muddier… until the glass begins to overflow, and the mud is eventually replaced by clear, pure water.

During the first couple of weeks of each new Journey, I am stirring up the mud. The problem is that when that happens, it almost feels like mud is all there is. It’s what I see, what I am confronted with. Everything is just mud!

Thank goodness at this point I’m aware of the process and can recognize that what I am experiencing is a result of clear, pure thoughts and not because there is really that much mud in my life.  But even knowing this, I am still sometimes caught up in the appearance of the mud.

Today, with this guiding thought, I felt caught up in the appearance of mud. I mentioned the other day that surrender has to do with acceptance and satisfaction. Well, gratitude is the next step in that progression. When I can accept and be satisfied with how things are, who I am, how my life is going, then I can be truly grateful for it. Being caught up in the appearance of mud today, I had a really hard time connecting to my gratitude. I didn’t feel it.

I reassured myself that the guiding thought and the time drawing with my heart was the point—that the Journey is the work, and just because I am not feeling what I think I am supposed to be feeling right now, does not decrease the effectiveness of the Journey. The clear, pure water is still being poured into my muddy thoughts.

And the neat thing is that I have actually been experiencing some “clearing” lately. I have been in general more accepting of “where I’m at”, I have been feeling more loving in general, and I have been feeling more thankful in general. What can I say? The Journeys work :).

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