Our consciousness is the gateway through which Divine Love flows, materializing our infinite supply. We are now conscious of our own Inner Divine Presence—Infinite Love—expressing through us, providing us with the means to be aware, to understand, and to Know It as our Self– more and more!
Three words keep coming to mind today: Practice. Integrate. Be.
It started because I have been working on embodying Divine Love more and more, “to understand It as my Self”, to use the words of the Guiding thought. So, I keep thinking, “Just be it…what would it be like to just be it; get to that point where there is absolute certainty in consciousness about what it is to be It, and you are.”
I have moments, glimpses, of getting it; but, it occurs to me: how can I “see” it, know that It is something, know that It is something I am not yet experiencing, but that I can get there? How am I aware of this thing that (I think) I am not, so I am striving to be It? There must be a part of me that Knows.
The paradox of enlightenment comes to mind: we are always both being and becoming. I am right now all that is holy, all that is love, all that is everything, established in and by Love:
Om Puurnnam-Adah Puurnnam-Idam Puurnnaat-Purnnam-Udacyate
Om, That is Full, This also is Full, From Fullness comes that Fullness,
Puurnnashya Puurnnam-Aadaaya Puurnnam-Eva-Avashissyate
Taking Fullness from Fullness, Fullness Indeed Remains.
Om Shaantih Shaantih Shaantih
Om Peace, Peace, Peace.
Yet…I’m also striving toward it.
What you are searching for you are searching with.
I have been working with the ideas in these Journeys for over 25 years. Looking back, I can see my evolution, see the trajectory, know that I am now different than I was five or ten years ago. It’s only in looking back that I recognize my progress: I can see where I was and think, “Yeah… I don’t do that anymore.” or “I don’t react that way, like I used to.” or “These things don’t bother me like they have in the past.” But, more than this, I can see how my ideas have evolved, become more nuanced, more complex; ideas from that time have solidified and grown naturally into daily thought process, ideas from 20 years ago that were new and a little strange, now simply a part of the foundation of everything I do.
This is integration: when becoming becomes being. And it’s always happening—the integration of becoming into being. And both are always happening simultaneously, so I am always both being and becoming.
It kind of sounds like I am just making word-play, doesn’t it? But isn’t that the nature of trying to talk about the unfathomable mystery of being?
Being is eternal-identity, the I AM; becoming is the recognition, the awareness, the awakening—which happens as we put intention into thought to become aware and to recognize our eternal identity. This intention is a practice, the more it’s done, the more the mind-will-body are directed toward the intention of awareness and recognition, the more being we integrate.
“Let it be subtle…” Sometimes the being-becoming-awareness happens so slowly, over so much time, it is only through a hind-sight perspective, as I mention above, that the progression can be recognized. That seems to be how I roll. Slowly…slowly…slowly.
I used to want trumpets and cymbals; I used to want angels or light-beings to speak to me; I used to think, “Why am I not getting anywhere? What am I doing wrong?” Now, I am ok with slowly, slowly, slowly. Because I know the path I am on; I know my past 25 year progression; I am happy with that progression setting my trajectory for the next 25 years.
I know that—for me—integration can take a long time: this stuff is deep and complex, and there are so many ways to understand myself through these ideas. It’s ok to take my time, to chew on them, sit with them, look at them. As I do this, in the length of time that I take to really integrate what I learn through the subtle progression of consciousness, through the subtle shifts of energy, the things I learn become more solid, more natural. They become who I am.