Riding the Movement of the Ocean: Journey of Freedom – Day 32

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Guiding Thought

I freely release patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit Freedom. My thoughts and feelings transform through remembrance of Freedom through Love. I was born with everything I need to be free in Love. I allow Love to lead me. I trust Love and surrender to its wisdom.

Sharing

I wrote several days ago about the movement of the ocean and the near-imperceptibility of that movement when immersed in it. That’s how I’m feeling today, yet my perception of the movement is more acute. My perception is faint, but I am feeling movement all around me in the ocean of life. It’s awareness.

Most of the time when I write about awareness, it’s about being aware of things that are obstructions—things that cause those little twitches of frustration, annoyance, or even hostility. Most often, these are patterns, habits, or thoughts I think about; what I need to let go. Today it’s a different type of awareness.

As with most initial awareness, I have only a subtle feeling. It’s not something I have yet brought to understanding, so it remains vague. I can feel pieces of it and see slightly how they are working together. The pieces are both about how these Guiding Thoughts build upon each other, and how activities in my life are working together. More than this, it’s about how the Guiding Thoughts are working with and through the activities in life. So there is movement in the mental arena, in the physical arena, and between the mental and physical.

In the mental arena, I feel continuity between several days of the Guiding Thoughts; I can see how they support and enhance each other, and how that builds up mental mass which has inertia, moving my consciousness.

For example, from two days ago (Day 30) , I feel the momentum of the words, “freedom of Being in Life!” Because I am noticing how I am beginning to understand about being Free in Life. Freedom is not just a concept I wonder about, I am getting it through experience.

I became more aware of that small understanding as I moved through yesterday into today, with “I am now aware of myself as Infinite Love, unbounded and Free” and “I was born with everything I need to be free in Love.” Love is the key to being free in Life. I, as Love, can recognize my freedom in life. Being Love and my being in life are not different…when I get this, I am free in life. Myself, connected to Love, connects me to freedom in life. I know this is getting a bit repetitive, but it’s how my mind is getting it—with repetition, with understanding, with different sequences and inflections. The subtleties of words are playing on my consciousness, evoking subtleties of understanding.

This has all connected over the days, in my consciousness. And I can feel it. I can feel that my consciousness is responding to the consistency. This then has led to a projection into tomorrow! Tomorrow’s Guiding Thought is about the energy shifting. In seeing the connections between the Guiding Thoughts over the past few days, I can now also see how the energy shifts in one place, shifting energy in another place.

I began looking at my life activities. I have been working on several projects for over a year now, with much the same approach as I take these Journeys: small steps, everything matters, just take the steps. And I started feeling how the mental energy was influencing, shifting, the energy of those projects. Some things are growing, others are fading, some work is set before me in a new way that will be a next bigger step. It’s all interconnected—everything…the mental, the physical…everything. I am seeing how little we can understand, how little we can know.

That makes it essential to be in love as much as possible. The more steadfast I can be in love, the more I can trust the outcome, the more I can let go. If I don’t trust life, it’s because I haven’t acted or thought with love. Love can always be trusted, and we must trust it, because life is so much bigger than we are; getting to a point of trusting life means getting to a point of living in love, giving love, being love. When we work with love, trust and peace follow as the freedom of being in life.

Ok, let me be clear: my “seeing this” is very small. Like I said, this is an initial awareness, and I do not have it. But it’s cool that I am seeing something!

 

Pettiness Gets Kicked in the Can: Journey of Freedom – Day 31

Welcome to Round 4!

We return now to “I” as the subject of the Guiding Thought. Hopefully after going through the rounds of “you” and “we”, you will have a different understanding of “I” that takes into account what you have learned through “you” and “we”.

 

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Guiding Thought

Love is my natural state; In Love I remember who I truly am; I remember my holiness, my innocence, and my infinity.  Love enlightens my mind and lifts my heart. I feel buoyant and expansive! I am now aware of my Self as Infinite Love, unbounded and free.

Sharing

So much of inner work is simply remembering what you already know. Remembering and remembering and remembering until the Knowing is so solid that you never forget again. Sometimes, when a lesson is repeated, it becomes easy. As you practice patience, you find more patience…but then…life puts you in a situation that challenges the patience you have already learned. That’s getting you to a deeper level of remembering. All of life is like that—it’s designed to take us deeper into our remembering one little experience at a time. The more we master, the more we get; it begins small. When we embrace those small challenges, we prove we are committed and willing to move through to more.

Protect your Love. Strive against smallness. You are not mediocre, but mediocrity will challenge you— it will call to you in your weariness, in your impatience, in your doubts.

Be vigilant!

When you are tired, breathe deeply, remember yourself, and continue. When you are impatient, close your eyes, see your perfection, and speak.

When you doubt, investigate options, find solutions you can be confident in and move forward. This responsibility you owe to yourself. Every moment reflects who and what you think you are: are you great? Or are you small?

Decide.

Live each moment in your greatness.

Choose smallness and dissatisfaction will haunt you.

Strive for greatness—be diligent, especially in those moments when the pettiness of the world holds its hand out to you, pleading with you to join it.

Turn your back. Deny pettiness satisfaction and you will be satisfied.

Do not sacrifice your greatness for the smallness in others—what worth is there in it?

Instead, offer up your smallness by overcoming it. Demonstrate to others the true worth of their greatness through your own. Your own greatness will, in turn, reward you with peace, dignity, joy, integrity, restful sleep, and a fulfilled life.

 

 

Life on the Grand Scale: Journey of Freedom – Day 29

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Guiding Thought

Trusting life allows the flow of Divine energy to come in and through us to bless All. We step gracefully into expansive, unlimited, harmonious, Divine being. We praise and thank Life for supporting us, and we relax in its process.

Sharing

Trusting life…when I think about Life, I try to think about the whole of it. I look at trees and birds, movement and stillness, buildings and technology, people, animals; I think of as much as I can, and I think, “This is life.  I think back to the beginning of time and imagine all of the life from that point forward; I think about before the beginning of time and try to imagine life before time. I think about the universe, the stars, the ether, the vacuum, my cells, my DNA, my molecules, and atoms; all of this is Life.

On this grand scale, trusting Life feels both easy and very difficult. On the one hand, it’s easy, because Life just lives. It goes on, and has gone on longer and further than I can imagine. On the other hand, it’s difficult because, well, where do I fit in? I am so small in comparison. How can I trust things I don’t know and processes I don’t understand to take care of me? (There it is again…that “I” – “me” thing. Who am “I”? What is this “me”?)

Yet that is exactly what this Guiding Thought is prodding us to do: Trust Life, trust the unknown and unknowable, trust the process.

This requires expanding what we think life is. And it requires expanding what we think the “I” or the “me” is, as well.

Life is not just this body, these activities, these thoughts; those are just how we experience life. Life is something else. But because we experience life through the beats of our hearts, the eating of food, snuggling with a loved one, it’s easy to limit Life to those things—the actions of our bodies.

This is also why it’s hard to grasp the concept of Life. In order to do so, we must see our smallness, see our bodies’ insignificance and feel something more than just our immediate experiences.

Which raises the question again: Who am “I”…without this body? What is this “me”…beyond these thoughts?

It’s kind of an identity crisis. We must swap out one idea of our “self” for another, to let go of one identity and accept a new one, to become more than we imagine our “self” being.

I think about people who have been in accidents or gotten sick and lost a part of their body, or lost the use of limbs or minds. An athlete or soldier who loses their legs and must use a wheelchair must come to terms with who they are now. A brilliant musician who becomes disabled and can no longer play…what does that person do when that one big part of who they are is taken away? There is a movie about Alzheimer’s called “Still Alice” which tells the story of a brilliant professor who loses the mind she gave her life to. These people haven’t stopped living, but they are no longer who they were in the same way. What do people do when what they have identified with is ripped away?

In these types of situations, people who experience this may let go of an old identity, what made them “who they are”. There can be a lot of depression around this, fear of loss, fear of not being enough…until they figure out a new identity, a new way of being. But it’s a process of becoming—of letting go and attaining.

If I think about understanding a new concept of Life, I can see it being a bit like this. If I identify with this body and mind, as a “me” who inhabits it, and that’s all I know, my whole identity, then it could be devastating to let that go. It feels like death. Even if what I am working toward is bigger than I am, even if it’s more all-encompassing, it still feels like part of me is dying. If I have a choice (that is, if I don’t lose limbs or get sick or get into a situation where finding a new identity is thrust upon me), why would I choose something that feels like death?

There’s a great line from Jesus Christ Superstar that Jesus says just before Judas Iscariot leaves to betray him, “To conquer death you only have to die.”

What if “death” refers to letting go of this identity of “me” in this body? And conquering death means transforming to a new idea about Life? Jesus said he was the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Do you think he meant the life of this little body…I don’t think so; he meant something different. He knew something we don’t know.

I say, “Let’s figure it out.”

Love Can Not Withhold Itself: Journey of Freedom – Day 28

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Guiding Thought

Our connection with the Infinite Source of Love is and always has been enough. Love loves us always, everywhere. Assured in love, we are perfectly lovable and perfectly loving with all people in all situations.

Sharing

One purpose of this practice is to get to at least a momentary acknowledgement and acceptance of the Truth within the Guiding Thoughts.

Each one holds a seed we are planting in our consciousness. The practice (the commitment, the focus, the dedication) acts as fertilizer to nurture the seed and help it grow so we can watch the Truth take root and begin to affect us through our bodies and actions.

Action follows thought. Right action follows from right thought.

Sometimes (like today), I can accept the Truth of some of the Guiding Thought, but not all of it. When that happens I push myself, because I know there is an obstruction, some belief or thought that is getting in the way of accepting the whole thing.

When I started, the first two sentences were easy; they felt good. Isn’t it nice to be assured that Love is all there is, and that we are loved infinitely, beyond all our imaginings?

But then…

“Wait, you mean, I have to be loving and lovable with all people in all situations???” My brain came to a screeching halt with, “Huh? What??”

In that moment I thought about a person/situation where it is very difficult right now for me to want or be willing to give love. In fact, I feel like I want to withhold it.

The Truth is Love. It cannot withhold itself.

Therein lies a clue. Like yesterday, I made it about “me”—about “I”.  If I think about me doing the loving, it is difficult in some situations. I know I need to set “myself” aside.

There is another element to this for me today…Courage. I’ve been thinking a lot about courage lately. What is it, and what does it mean to have it?

In this case, maybe it’s as simple as stepping aside, allowing Love to be…and letting it do the loving for me.

A Crack in the Ice: Journey of Freedom – Day 27

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Guiding Thought

We allow our physical body to experience itself fully as Light and Love. Our physical bodies embody Light; we are an expanded body of Light and Sound. We move as Light, perceive as Light, behave as Light. We are everywhere—permeating, expanding, unifying, and healing. All things are possible.

Sharing

A couple of days ago I was struggling with the concept of “All is as it should be.” Today, I am accepting “All things are possible,” and feeling that reallyAll is as it should be”. I feel calm, at peace, confident, and assured.

But it’s funny how the mind works.

Shortly after I began accepting both of those statements on a deeper level while reading the Guiding Thought, recognizing I was calm, I thought, but what if it’s not? What if it’s not as it should be? What if what I want to be possible isn’t? And I felt panic rise; it was just a small twitch, but it was an immediate response to that doubt.

I realized I had projected that doubt into the future and had begun thinking about what I want. And as soon as I did, I began thinking about what I don’t want.

I have to remember that “All is as it should be” and “All things are possible” are so much bigger than me. As soon as I made it about me, the peace and calm gave way to panic and dissolved the assurance of now.

I can still feel it, still feel the smallness of wanting to make it about me.

This is a really good realization on this Consciousness Journey. How do I hold myself back? How do I limit myself? How I sabotage the progress? I go through struggles, fumbles, days of intense self-examination, and I get to (finally!) a place of peace and acceptance…and what do I do? I throw a wrench in the gears.

The wrench came from a different place than my struggles, though. When I am struggling, by golly, I know it. And when I know it, I take it head-on. “Bring it! Let me work this out. Let me get through this. Let me transform this.” And I work on it until it’s passed.

Then here I am; passed it, I am feeling good…and then something I wasn’t seeing comes up to get in my way.

At least I noticed. It was like a small crack that begins as you’re walking over an icy pond. You hear it first and just stop. “Is that what I thought it was?” You look down and see the tendrils of a crack. “Yup. I better not take that step.” But even backing up or retracing steps becomes precarious…present danger averted, but now you need to get back to where you know you’re safe; who knows how that small crack compromised the structure of the ice?

Maybe I misspoke (mistyped?) when I called this self-sabotage or holding myself back. Maybe this is really keeping me safe. Maybe the panic is a small, clear warning sign. I alerted myself to the danger of going down the path of doubt and making “it” about me.

Returning to a place of peace and assurance simply means removing the cause of the interruption, thoughts about me and I.

We. Us. Ours. Together. All. IS. Yes.

Thanks for keeping me safe.

 

Commemoration: Journey of Freedom – Day 26

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Guiding Thought

Through our physical body, we bring Divine Light and Love to the physical universe. We heal unresolved issues through loving thoughts, words, and emotions, and become lighter and brighter. We bring light to all we have denied and we heal our past-present-future NOW. Every day we are lighter and lighter!

Sharing

Be thoughtful. Be kind. Help others. Do good.

Do whatever is before you with Love.

Find God in your heart. Share.

Be bold. Be courageous. Remain in your Infinite Self in the face of another’s smallness.

Surpass your expectations. Keep going; go as far as you can, then go even further.

Remember who you are, who you were born to be. You have a purpose. Find it. Cherish it. Be it!

Today is a day for praise and gratitude; open to the Love that is everywhere!

Behind your doubt there is reassurance; God is with you always. There is no need for doubt!

Unite with Love. That is Truth. Love is all that matters, every moment, every breath, every thought, and every interaction…Love.

Only Truth is True, nothing else is True. Live in Truth, let everything else pass away.

Let go of everything that is unlike Love. Simplify. Love is Simple… just let everything else go.

Life in this world is a thing of beauty and glory. You have a beautiful existence, not everyone is as lucky as you, use this life well; don’t grow complacent, don’t grow lazy; there is much work to do!

The world is here for your benefit. You are here to experience your highest possibility, choose it; choose it again and again!

Choosing your highest possibility means choosing Love, for that is all you are. Anything else is a denial of your Self and your Divine potential. Why deny yourself?

Every moment that you choose Love you have dissolved a thread that connects you to a future frustration. Your frustrations now are threads from your past. Love cuts the thread from the past and eliminates it from the future.

[July 25, 2015, in commemoration of Maha Avatar Babaji, who on this day appeared to Paramahansa Yogananda at his Garpar Road home in Kolkata, responding to his prayer for blessing and assurance for his mission in the West.

Babaji told Yogananda: “You are the one I have chosen to spread the message of Kriya Yoga in the West. Long ago I met your guru Shri Yukteswar at a Kumbha Mela; I told him then I would send you to him for training.”]