That Knock at the Door is NOT a Proselytizer: Journey of Freedom – Day 04

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for
Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Divine energy nourishes me, heals me, and brings God into my mind and body. Enlightenment moves me, awakens my Soul, and firmly grounds me in all I do. My energy creates my life experiences; my being is only love and light.


This is now my third consecutive Journey. I did several Journeys between 2013-2014, but it has only been now, in 2015, that I have committed to doing the Journeys continuously, every 52 days. I don’t know if it was the decision, the commitment, or the practice (or a combination of factors), but things have just been moving, shifting. Wow! Yet it’s all very subtle. Nothing too much…nothing I can’t handle…nothing that scares me, just gentle glimpses and experiences that show me my life is aligning with my thoughts of Love.

I began exploring the idea of alignment during the last Journey (Day 23 is a good reference). It was around that time that I started experiencing things that seemed to be a direct reflection of stuff I was thinking/contemplating in the Journey. When I talked to a similarly minded friend of mine, he reminded me that as we do the work of allowing this energy to express through us, we begin to experience the effects faster and faster—the outer experience reflects our intention more immediately.

From the very first day of this Journey, I have had these small reflections in big ways:

  • The first few days prior to the Journey, I was prompting myself (and you!) to think about what freedom means to you. During that time, there were about a dozen conversations, memes, and writings that I “just happened to come across” which were all about freedom, and how people thought of it. Notably, it was immediately prior to the beginning of this Journey that the Supreme Court voted in favor of marriage equality. The relationship between freedom and equality was clear in several of the things I came upon.
  • Yesterday, after thinking/writing about how energy here is used there or anywhere for the good of all, a stranger knocks on my door asking me if I would like to get rid of some landscaping timber I had in my yard (Yes!). While I was helping him load it into his truck, he basically said to me, “It’s all about helping people…I just help people as best I can and I know that it goes where it’s supposed to.” In his terms, he said to me exactly what I had written earlier that day. That blew me away. Not to mention that he knocked on my door and helped me with a problem I had been trying to solve for over 4 months!
  • This morning I had an email out of the blue from someone I barely know, but did a small project for and haven’t heard from in months, introducing me to another person who was interested in working with me. Cool! Granted, this is still only a potential connection… but still…Cool!

These experiences were swirling about my head as I began today’s Journey, so as I was reading the Guiding Thought, I felt this really unfocused, non-specific joy and appreciation. At first I thought I should control, focus—like I talked about just two days ago. But all I wanted to do was to go deeper into this non-specific, unfocused feeling, so I let go of wanting to control and focus, and let myself feel joy and appreciation.

Today is not so much about today’s Guiding Thought as it is about the continuous flow of energy and the momentum that energy seems to be bringing into my life and body, about how these Journeys are connected, how the themes from one Journey influence and carry over into future Journeys—there are elements of a Journey of Purpose, a Journey of the Heart, a Journey of Worth that I am recognizing today.

Finally, I mentioned early on (Why a Journey of Freedom part II) that I would be working on some things over and above Freedom, so I’d like to give an update on that regarding pride and surrender.

Perhaps you’ve noticed that I use a variety of religious and philosophical texts and practices in order to go deeper. There is not one that is “better” for me; they kind of rotate in cycles, depending on what I am working on and what seems to speak to me, to move me forward and higher. For me, it’s not about one tradition, one ideology; it’s about what works, what has worked for aspirants in all traditions of Highest Divine Love.

Right now, it seems that I am influenced by Daniel and Azariah, from the Christian Old Testament as well as several prayers from the Orthodox Christian tradition.

There are no prayers I am aware of that are specifically associated with Daniel (if you know of one, please let me know!), so I have been thinking about Daniel and how he served God as a slave to the king, and how he might have felt and thought to be so committed.

There is a wonderful prayer, the Prayer of Azariah, which is all about the glorification of God, and the repentance of sin offered to God for His glorification. This prayer speaks to me of the transformation of pride, through surrender. I have been keeping in my thoughts some simple lines of this prayer, “Blessed art thou, O Lord God of our fathers: and to be praised and exalted above all forever.” or, even more simply, “All to the glory of God.” As I move through my daily tasks, I have been doing my best to think this, offering everything to the glory of God. (full text of this prayer here) Azariah and his friends were in a fiery furnace praising God. There’s something there.

Similarly, in the Orthodox tradition, the Great Doxology begins in this way:

Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace, good will among men.
We praise Thee, we bless Thee,
we worship Thee, we glorify Thee,
we give thanks to Thee for Thy great glory

I am such a nerd about this stuff, that I have the music/words of this hymn in my head. If I’m going to have a song stuck in my head, I choose this one (for now!).

Or, even more simply, the cultural version of this is from Godspell. It’s easier and the tune is catchier. “Oh bless the Lord, Oh bless the Lord my Soul!”

In the same way that I don’t understand how all these Journeys work together, or how the thoughts combine to shift and move me up the path, I don’t really know how these prayers are helping me to release pride and to surrender–I just know that I experience something as I use them. I change; they change me. All glory to God.





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