What?! No Rebuttal From the Skeptic? : Journey of Freedom – Day 09

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Life is the flow of Divine Energy that comes through me to bless All. I step gracefully into expansive, unlimited, harmonious, Divine Being. I praise and thank Life for supporting me, and I relax in its process.

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Ok. I just had an interesting shift. I did not do my normal morning practice of soaking in the tub this morning prior to getting on with my day, and I felt it. I thought, “I buzz differently when I don’t take my bath.” And that’s kind of what it was, a low rumble in my mind and energy that is not usually there. I felt oddly, vaguely annoyed and impatient, where I normally am not.

I pulled up the Guiding Thought and started reading, but the buzzing was getting in the way. I thought the Guiding Thought would help me get centered. The original words in the first sentence were: “Trusting life allows the flow of Divine Energy to come in and through me to bless All.” As I read, these words irritated me. I had written this Guiding Thought several days ago; they go through a bit of internal editing on several levels before they are published. This morning I found myself editing.

At first I thought,” Is it only trusting Life that allows the flow of Divine EnergyThis makes it sound like trusting life is the only way to allow the flow of Divine Energy, and that is not the case…there are A LOT of ways to become aware of Divine Energy, to be connected with it, to be aware of its flow.” I realized that Life is the flow. There is no “allowing”… it is. And it comes through me. Period.  So I changed the Guiding Thought to what you see above.

The buzzing energy had not yet stopped or shifted. Even with this new thought I still was not quite centered. And technically, I hadn’t even begun the Journey, because I was in editing mode. What to do?

Chanting often helps me focus and concentrate. I knew exactly the chant I wanted: The Ushnisha Vijaya Dharani, a Buddhist mantra, known as a mantra to “Purify All Evil Paths” and is said to be able to eliminate all evil karmic hindrances and eradicate the suffering of all evil paths. While I don’t know about all the beliefs associated with different mantras, I always approach them with respect—there’s something there I do not understand (which is so often the case with SO much!).  Sometimes all I know is that I like the rhythm, the percussion, and the depth of voice, as is the case here, in this particular version.

I put my earbuds in and just listened for a few minutes. I let myself get drawn into the rhythm and syllables. My energy started moving in a different way, more freely. I opened my eyes and started the Journey.

As my energy moved, the Guiding Thought came alive. I came alive. I was feeling Life flowing through me. My energy lifted. I felt a bubble of energy surrounding me; the entire bubble shifted from a center at my solar plexus to a center at my heart.  It was sort of like what happened often during a Journey of the Heart. The words disappeared and the feeling engulfed me.

This then was an experience of stepping “gracefully” into a new space…I really hadn’t understood that prior to this experience, and the skeptic in me (you know the one, just read yesterday’s Journey), was, well…skeptical…about the possibility of me being graceful about anything. But there it was…and the skeptic had no rebuttal.

It was easy then to feel sincerely thankful, and to praise life for supporting me.

 

 

 

 

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