Skeptic Schmeptic: Journey of Freedom – Day 10

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for

Guiding Thought

I focus my mind and thoughts on my Inner Divine Self—my Self of Peace, my Self of Joy, my Self of Infinite Being and Wisdom. I need do nothing but be aware of my Self. When I am aware of my Inner Divine Self, I radiate these qualities, expressing the freedom of Being in Life!


Freedom: it’s right here, so close! I can feel it. I feel so hopeful, so optimistic. No skeptic today! I am excited about this Journey. There is something here I can’t quite put my finger on, but it’s new and different from other Journeys. It’s like a part of me is actually remembering, like a part of me does, really, Know. I see freedom. I feel freedom.

But it’s not a picture or a word. It’s not a situation or encounter. It’s not an experience in the way we think of experiences. It’s an experience all its own—it’s a feeling, a flow, an energy, a vibrancy, a Knowing…all of these, yet none of these.

There is a process I refer to often on these Journeys; it’s a mental process I use to lead me forward on the Ultimate Journey: Awareness. Understanding. Knowing. Awareness is always the first step. This Journey is both about becoming aware of things to let go and things to attain. Awareness segues into understanding. When I am willing to see patterns and connections, I begin to understand how my thoughts work with my outer world of experience, and how the experiential world is affected by my thoughts and actions. This then leads to knowing. Once I understand cause-effect, patterns, and my involvement in them, there comes a point at which I understand so well, I know what is happening, as it’s happening,  or before.

The thing is, understanding works on many layers, and there are a lot of factors involved in it, which means Knowing is dependent on the understanding of all those factors and layers. Just because I understand this, here, now, does not mean that I will understand it the same way tomorrow, which means that knowing is also fleeting, until we reach the Ultimate Knowing. What I know today, based on this, here, now understanding, may change tomorrow when some of the factors or input change.

Subtle factors can change the understanding. That is why life is so amazing. It throws all these factors at us and asks, “What are you going to do with this?” Then you get it, and you’re solid, and life says, “Ok, I’ve shifted the equation, what are you going to do now to keep it in balance?” The thing is, when you become aware of the basic equations: how thoughts affect behaviors, how certain things make you feel, or how they shift your energy, thoughts, or expectations, you can begin to play with things all on your own—you can consciously change the inputs, the factors, just to see what results you get. Life becomes a conscious experiment!

Today’s Guiding Thought is first about awareness. It opens up your consciousness to the Truth of your Self, of what to attain (keeping in mind that attainment is another word for just Being, because you are that which you seek). Today, it really put me in that space of being totally aware, and got the energy flowing. I felt a lot of flow today. When I feel the flow, with awareness, there is a subtle understanding. Today it was very subtle. So I stayed in the flow of awareness for a while and let the understanding be whatever it was going to be. This led somehow to an almost knowing. It’s right here, so close! I can feel it. I feel so hopeful, so optimistic.



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