The Door is Flung Wide: Journey of Freedom – Day 23

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Everything is energy. Everything is energy connecting everything! A shift in energy in one place shifts energy other places. We lift our energy to the vibration of Love and Light, to God, to all that is Divine. We are responsible for our energy; we choose to free it by releasing the Divine Love within us.

Sharing

With these Journeys, every day we shift energy toward Love, toward God, toward the Divine. These small daily shifts have a cumulative effect. Our thoughts are directing the energy toward where we want it, toward where we want to experience it. The energy moves us as we move the energy, a constant interplay of inner energy with outer energy (experience).

The mind is the doorway, the gateway, the floodgate. The mind can close the door, open it slowly, leave it cracked…or it can open wide to possibility. My mind seems to do all of these things at various times.

Divine Love is huge. Sometimes it’s too much for my little mind. Sometimes it is so overwhelming that I want to slam the door closed and stay in the comfort of my limitations. Sometimes I open it just a little, peek through, look around, slowly back up and leave the door cracked. That’s all; that’s enough. I just wanted to see what I was getting myself into. Sometimes, usually over a period of time through the daily practices, I stand at the door opening it slowly…slowly…slowly…I can handle this. There are some days the door is flung open wide and I see. Most often when that happens, the door closes again to some degree but always remains open further than it was previously.

Much of the time, these Journeys are combinations of all of these, just a continuous slow opening, even if that means a partial closing from time to time. Even when there is retreat, something is opening—working to remove an obstacle that prevents the door from opening is helping it open. Periodically, the door opens wide with little effort, it seems.

I have not been able to figure out what it is that determines how I approach the door on any given day. Will I open it slowly today? Will it fling wide open with little effort? Will I get scared and run?

As I’ve mentioned many times, it’s all about the small drops or trickles. Every drop matters;” Slowly is Holy”, as Maha Avatar Babaji says. Each day, each effort is a small drop. On a daily basis it is difficult to see the cumulation of drops; when a bucket is filling by drops, it takes a long time and is almost imperceptible. The bucket is akin to my door opening and closing by differing increments… one day, there is an unexpected opening, recognition of the fulfillment of the effort, the door is flung open wide!

Do I open the door, or does the door open me?

I Need to Carry Rock Salt in My Mental Trunk: Journey of Freedom – Day 22

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

We freely release patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit our Freedom! We allow our thoughts and feelings to transform through remembrance of Freedom through Love. We were born with everything we need to be free in Love. We allow Love to lead us. We trust Love and surrender to its wisdom.

Sharing

Keep it moving. That is what came to me today when I was stuck on this Guiding Thought—literally, it came to me in an email. A friend of mine, who I’ve been working with on a project, said those exact words to me, “What’s important is to keep it moving.”   Of course, he didn’t know he was talking to me about the Guiding Thought; the email was about a project we have been working on. But isn’t it interesting that I got exactly what I needed to hear in a totally different context? Thumbs up that I was able to recognize it!

Patterns, habits, and thoughts are ways that people get stuck. Getting stuck sucks! It does, I know. With a humorous irony I have not missed, I was stuck with the Guiding Thought about releasing patterns and habits, the epitome of “stuckness”.

Keep it moving…small steps…baby steps….just a little drop. Oh yes.

Sometimes I forget this; sometimes I forget that just moving forward matters, staying with it, keeping on. I want to be there now! I cut myself no slack if I don’t get it; I should get it. I should know more, be more, offer more, do more! What pressure I put on myself! All of that is just a pattern, just a mental habit of pushing myself, having an expectation; not seeing or listening to what is going on now, always thinking about the future, the striving, the work. Can you hear how exasperating that can be?

And you see…all of that pushing myself just keeps me spinning rather than keeping me moving forward. I think the pushing is supposed to help, but it’s exhausting, yet there I go.  The pushing itself is a pattern!

Awareness of patterns gives some slack, some freedom, if you will. When I am aware of patterns, I can be spinning, spinning, spinning, and notice it. I may not know how to get out of it, but I can know that it’s ok to be there; humor helps. I can give myself permission to want to change it, which can help me to observe the pattern more closely, which changes my experience: as observer, I do not have to be completely involved in it; from the observer viewpoint, I can interact with it, rather than let it obsess or control me.

Awareness of patterns gives options. Options keep it moving.