Life on the Grand Scale: Journey of Freedom – Day 29

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Trusting life allows the flow of Divine energy to come in and through us to bless All. We step gracefully into expansive, unlimited, harmonious, Divine being. We praise and thank Life for supporting us, and we relax in its process.

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Trusting life…when I think about Life, I try to think about the whole of it. I look at trees and birds, movement and stillness, buildings and technology, people, animals; I think of as much as I can, and I think, “This is life.  I think back to the beginning of time and imagine all of the life from that point forward; I think about before the beginning of time and try to imagine life before time. I think about the universe, the stars, the ether, the vacuum, my cells, my DNA, my molecules, and atoms; all of this is Life.

On this grand scale, trusting Life feels both easy and very difficult. On the one hand, it’s easy, because Life just lives. It goes on, and has gone on longer and further than I can imagine. On the other hand, it’s difficult because, well, where do I fit in? I am so small in comparison. How can I trust things I don’t know and processes I don’t understand to take care of me? (There it is again…that “I” – “me” thing. Who am “I”? What is this “me”?)

Yet that is exactly what this Guiding Thought is prodding us to do: Trust Life, trust the unknown and unknowable, trust the process.

This requires expanding what we think life is. And it requires expanding what we think the “I” or the “me” is, as well.

Life is not just this body, these activities, these thoughts; those are just how we experience life. Life is something else. But because we experience life through the beats of our hearts, the eating of food, snuggling with a loved one, it’s easy to limit Life to those things—the actions of our bodies.

This is also why it’s hard to grasp the concept of Life. In order to do so, we must see our smallness, see our bodies’ insignificance and feel something more than just our immediate experiences.

Which raises the question again: Who am “I”…without this body? What is this “me”…beyond these thoughts?

It’s kind of an identity crisis. We must swap out one idea of our “self” for another, to let go of one identity and accept a new one, to become more than we imagine our “self” being.

I think about people who have been in accidents or gotten sick and lost a part of their body, or lost the use of limbs or minds. An athlete or soldier who loses their legs and must use a wheelchair must come to terms with who they are now. A brilliant musician who becomes disabled and can no longer play…what does that person do when that one big part of who they are is taken away? There is a movie about Alzheimer’s called “Still Alice” which tells the story of a brilliant professor who loses the mind she gave her life to. These people haven’t stopped living, but they are no longer who they were in the same way. What do people do when what they have identified with is ripped away?

In these types of situations, people who experience this may let go of an old identity, what made them “who they are”. There can be a lot of depression around this, fear of loss, fear of not being enough…until they figure out a new identity, a new way of being. But it’s a process of becoming—of letting go and attaining.

If I think about understanding a new concept of Life, I can see it being a bit like this. If I identify with this body and mind, as a “me” who inhabits it, and that’s all I know, my whole identity, then it could be devastating to let that go. It feels like death. Even if what I am working toward is bigger than I am, even if it’s more all-encompassing, it still feels like part of me is dying. If I have a choice (that is, if I don’t lose limbs or get sick or get into a situation where finding a new identity is thrust upon me), why would I choose something that feels like death?

There’s a great line from Jesus Christ Superstar that Jesus says just before Judas Iscariot leaves to betray him, “To conquer death you only have to die.”

What if “death” refers to letting go of this identity of “me” in this body? And conquering death means transforming to a new idea about Life? Jesus said he was the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Do you think he meant the life of this little body…I don’t think so; he meant something different. He knew something we don’t know.

I say, “Let’s figure it out.”

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