Rejoice in Retaliation: Journey of Gratitude – Day 31

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for
Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Welcome to Round 4! We are in the last 10 days of the Journey!

See an explanation for how the Guiding Thoughts change for this round here.

Guiding Thought

I remember my Self and recognize the Love within me, the Love I Am. I see this Love as all I am and all there is, the reality of me, the reality of you, and the reality that is the Life of All. I honor this Love and this Life, and offer my gratitude for Its Being. What Joy there is in Being!


This Journey is now my eighth Journey in the past 2 years. I am learning so much! On individual days I can be really hard on myself, “I’m not doing enough…” “I’m not getting it fast enough…” “I’m not doing everything I can…” But when I look back over the past two years, I can’t help but acknowledge my progress, my growth.

This is one of the values of these Journeys: I am unable to deceive myself into believing “I’m not doing enough”. Every day, despite my self-condemnations, I am working to grow out of them. I have the proof…every day.

My mind and my ego would keep me in the chains of fear, doubt, confusion, and uncertainty by trying to convince me I am inadequate, weak, or blind. But every day of taking the time to focus on and to feel the Truth of Being, the ego’s hold weakens. For that I am thankful.

This Journey of Gratitude was an outgrowth of the Journey of Freedom: When I am aware of the Truth of Being, I am Free, and all I can feel is the joy and gratitude of Being in that Truth; gratitude for Being raises my awareness of Truth of Being, which brings about gratitude for Being.

Likewise, the next Journey, a Journey of Courage will be an outgrowth of this Journey of Gratitude. It does not take courage to Be the Love we Are—that is natural and easy. It does take courage to overcome the fear, confusion, uncertainty, and doubt of a mind trying to convince us we are not the Love we Are.  “Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it” -Rumi

Each day we spend time remembering our True Self and being grateful for it…and then feeling an obstacle—distractions, doubts, faithlessness—we must take courage! We must deny those fears any power over us!

“Ignore those things that make you fearful and sad, that degrade you back towards disease and death.” -Rumi

“Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” Frank Herbert, Dune

This is one reason I encourage small steps, just a drop each day. With every step forward, with each drop of Truth realized in our consciousness, the ego, the mind’s fear, will likely retaliate to draw us back into itself.

It will rattle its chains to keep its hold; it will try to convince you of your worthlessness without it; it will remind you of failures and doubts. The larger the steps or the bigger the drops, the greater the retaliation; rejoice in its retaliation, for that means you are letting it go! But, you must gauge each step forward to keep the retaliation manageable. Too much fear and you may hide from the Truth, thinking the Truth is what is causing the pain.

Undo the ego slowly through love, kindness, and teaching it true Joy. Even small steps take courage.

After many small steps come leaps. After small steps, the ego becomes acclimated to the progress; it no longer feels threatened with a new understanding of Being, and it no longer retaliates. At those moments, there is an opening and an awakening, a cool breeze, a noticeable quiet, stillness, peace, and joy that assure you of your growth.

After you have advanced, there is a new level to which you must acclimate the ego; the small steps begin again. We may go through this “advance-retaliate-take courage!-LEAP!” cycle many, many times before the final undoing. Take courage.

Let every undoing be an advancement that opens your mind and heart to the Truth of Being…and be grateful you are serving Love’s purpose.