Like a Rollin’ Stone: Journey of Courage – Day 20

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Guiding Thought

Be aware, allow, accept What Is. Go within to your silent Self which Knows and follow your Inner Wisdom to Truth. Practice Divine Balance in thought, word, and action. You Are! You Are your Self! You Are your Self of Love!

Sharing

I mentioned in my opening remarks in Why a Journey of Courage that I thought I would be changing during this Journey, that there would be a shift.

I think I was right. It’s notable I haven’t had any real freak-outs, that the skeptic has been extremely low-key, barely showing herself, and that I have remarked a couple of times about feeling lead or guided. These are all “firsts” throughout the entirety of my Journeys so far.

These Journeys bring momentum to the energy in the consciousness. The thoughts during the contemplation and reflection direct that energy and give it momentum. When the energy has enough momentum—that is, when enough of the thoughts are aligned in the direction of the momentum, so that the ball rolls on its own with no resistance—that’s when there is a felt “shift in consciousness”. The energy is sufficiently directed the way it is intended, the way you want it to go, and the internal friction and resistance is minimized (or nullified). At that point, the energy moves ahead with no effort. This is the feeling of being guided or lead.

I can feel this happening. At first, it was as though I was pushing a boulder. (“Pushing” in this metaphor means both attainment and letting go. The paragraph on Buddhism here is relevant). The boulder didn’t move, but I grew stronger. As I grew stronger, the boulder moved the slightest amount, barely a quiver. I pushed more and grew stronger, the boulder moved a bit more; I pushed more, grew stronger, the boulder started rolling s-l-o-w-l-y, barely perceptible, but I kept pushing. It picked up speed slowly as I kept pushing and pushing…and it started rolling more easily; the pushing became easier, but I was still pushing…then, it started rolling without me.

My job now is to allow it and maintain it, to be aware of any small frictions that may come up and slow it down again or hinder its progress. It’s always easier to keep the boulder rolling than to have to start it rolling by pushing again.

The boulder represents the energy—that energy that is the manifest, the un-manifest, the All behind the all. “Me pushing” represents impressing “my” thoughts upon this energy, which because it is the All, is also my thoughts. The energy of All impresses itself upon itself with itself. [I have an image of Ouroboros (the snake eating its own tail) in my head.]

This is where today’s Guiding Thought comes in. This is the “Be aware” in today’s Guiding Thought. Be aware of the All, of What Is.

On a material, conscious level, it is very difficult to maintain awareness of all the activity of manifest and unmanifest energy (don’t you think?). That’s why it’s necessary to go within to the silent Self which Knows, even for just a moment, to feel the energy of All around you, through you, as you.

The Divine Balance is bringing the knowledge and experience of the silent Self which Knows into the physical. This is the building of momentum of Oneness. We bring more awareness of Oneness into consciousness every time we visit the silent Self which Knows Itself as Oneness.

As we bring the knowledge of the energy of All with All as us into our conscious lives, we push the boulder. We keep pushing until the boulder no longer has resistance and has a momentum all its own—Oneness.

WeBeWebs: Journey of Courage – Day 19

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Guiding Thought

Accept your light and my lightness! Feel your Self expand! As you perceive change around you, remain anchored in your Being of Light. Allow yourself to sit peacefully in the still place of nothingness as life moves quickly around you.

Sharing

We all must learn to be anchored in light, to be anchored for light, and to be anchored for others in light.

We are doing this with and for each other right now. Each time we join together in thought-mind, heart-feeling in the acceptance of light, we help each other. More than this, we help those who are not yet, or only slightly, aware of the light. We lighten their burden; we light their path.

In one of the enlightenment paradoxes: we light another’s path by walking our own; we lighten others’ burdens by lifting our own. The more we expand, the more space we create for others to expand.

“Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.”

This is as true for “energy leadership” as it is for verbal or physical leadership. Do you think that people don’t notice when you are sitting peacefully in your nothingness as the world moves quickly around you? They see something, perceive something. They may not know what it is exactly, but they know there is something different about you and how you approach the world. You are leading them through being, showing an option, demonstrating something different, an alternative. Perhaps it is something they have never seen or encountered before, and they don’t understand or perhaps they misperceive. Stay the course! Be true to Truth! Be your Light of Truth! Remain in your peaceful anchor!

Each of you are connected with each other through thoughts of light. We are together as a web of light; we help each other just by being here, doing the work. Each time you give light to anyone—and they accept it—and give it away—the web strengthens and grows.

We heal.

We are light.

We light and en-lighten.

We be.

Thank you for being.

Props to the Stage Crew: Journey of Courage – Day 18

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Guiding Thought

Allow yourself to connect with your pure Inner Divine Heart of Oneness. Be aware of the expression of the Divine Heart through you, as you. Connect with your heart, and be aware of embodying its pure Love intention for All.  Be filled with Joy as I embrace my heart’s Love.

Sharing

Life’s a stage (to paraphrase Shakespeare) and all the men and women merely players with their entrances, exits, and many parts; this leads me to liken the subtle energies of the Divine Heart of Oneness to the stage crew of the production.

In most of the stage productions I’ve seen, the stage crew changes scenes with the lights out or the curtain down. The audience never sees the activity; they just see there is a new set on the stage. This is, perhaps, how many people experience the subtle energies in their life. The energies are at work behind the scenes; the stage setup changes without them really seeing it happen.

Not all set changes happen with the curtains down and the lights off, though. I remember the first play I saw where the stage crew was an integral part of the production itself. Each crew member was dressed completely in black and always on the stage. They moved like ghosts, slowly picking up props to move them, gliding slowly about the stage as they shifted scenes behind, as scenes continued to play out in the fore. When the changes were done the figures would become immobile and fade into the scenery itself, standing against a tree or crouching next to a chair. The stage hands were not meant to be invisible, but they were meant to be unobtrusive—so subtle that only if someone were paying attention to the figures in black would they be noticed, never detracting from the main characters.

I find this a good metaphor for the subtle energies of the heart, for the inner movements, for becoming aware of the stillness. Instead of things appearing from behind a curtain, when I notice I can watch the slow gliding activity of these subtle energies. They can go undetected, but with attention I can acclimate myself to when and how they move. I have to pay attention while they are moving, otherwise they will blend back into the background.

This is how I feel about “Be aware of the expression of the Divine Heart through you, as you.” Divine Love is always expressing itself through me, as me, but unless I notice it, and watch what it is doing as me, I only see the scene change after the curtain is raised. It’s easy to overlook, to not notice—the main characters on the stage of my life too often have my full attention.

In order to pay attention to Love’s expression through me, as me, to its activity outside of me, I must first become acquainted with Love—I can only do that within myself. The love within me teaches me to recognize itself outside of me. That’s why stillness and a quiet mind are important. This is where love resides, and where I learn of it within myself. As I see it and recognize it within, I can see it in the background, always, on the stage of life.

That’s the Signpost Up Ahead: Journey of Courage – Day 17

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Guiding Thought

Love is strong! Powerful! Embrace Love and wield it through your awareness of Oneness. Oneness destroys the illusions of the mind, of the past, and of the material world. Move forward courageously with Peace in the Truth of Love and Oneness.

Sharing

I have great spiritual goals. I am not ambitious in a material sense—I do not strive for climbing any work-related ladders, keeping up with the Joneses, having the next new electronic device or app, etc. To people who do strive in those ways, I may appear complacent, lazy, and perhaps even apathetic. The striving and ambition are within and out of sight (except, obviously, when I write about them here!).

Before I started the Journey this morning, I was doing some research for one of my spiritual goals—the creation of a spiritual healing center in the tradition of the Sanatan Dharma, the Eternal Religion, the principles taught in the Vedas. It was as though I was seeing new pieces of the puzzle and trying to see how they fit. There was so much! So much I need to learn, to do, to understand. I felt overwhelmed. I am at the very beginning of whatever is next.

I’ve been through this process before. Starting…learning…doing stuff…achieving something. At the beginning it’s always scary. The road ahead is uncertain, I don’t know what steps to take; I’m not even sure where I’m going or how I’m getting there…I just know “this is the right direction”. I spent much of the morning in this state of uncertainty, mixed with excitement of knowing there is a direction and I’m headed somewhere.

Then I started the Journey. “Move forward courageously with Peace in the Truth of Love and Oneness.”

It seems again to me that this Journey is here to encourage me. In fact, when I decided to do this Journey, before I had even started the previous Journey, I had no clue why I had the thought of doing a Journey of Courage, but—like many steps on my spiritual journey—I simply knew it was the right step in the right direction.

What are your spiritual goals? How do you approach them? What is your process? Do you think about “attaining” in a spiritual sense? How do you balance the spiritual with the material? How do you know what steps to take? If you are reading this, I bet you have answers to these questions, or at least have considered the questions.

I don’t think having spiritual goals is so dissimilar to having material goals. The difference is with a material goal, there are often more clear-cut, straightforward steps one can complete and say, “I’ve accomplished something”.

Ending my research about spiritual goals with the Journey feels like I’ve accomplished something. It’s not something tangible—far from it, and it has only given me many more steps to take, but somehow the Journey is a signpost saying, “This way, keep going”.

 

 

 

 

Staring Down the Inner Child: Journey of Courage – Day 16

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Guiding Thought

Be responsible! Be able to respond with and through conscious awareness of your inner-centered, silent knowingness. Practice Knowingness moment by moment. Anchored in your inner-harmony, have the courage to face your own thoughts and actions.

Sharing

Day 16 and I’ve hit my roadblock! I feel kind of irritated because my roadblock is exactly what the Guiding Thought asks me to look at. Dammit. At least I am gaining more of a sense of humor when the blocks come up.

Here’s the energy of the block:

Mom: Susan, turn off the TV and come to dinner.

Susan (age 7): Ok mom. (No movement)

Mom (5 min later): Turn off the TV and come to dinner!

Susan: OooooKaaaaayyy Moooommmm. (Still no movement)

Mom: (5 min later) comes in and turns off the TV, points toward the table, scowl on face.

Susan: …drags feet, head down, walks toward the table

Or

Mom: Susan you need to do your chores.

Susan (age 11): Buuut Moooommmm!

Mom: Do your chores.

Susan: I don’t waaaannnaaaaa!

Mom: Quit arguing and do your chores, why can’t you just say, “OK mom” and do what I ask?

Susan: Humph! …stalks off to do chores

It’s this energy of being made to do something, and resistance to that; the energy of feeling no choice in the matter; the energy of being told. When I woke up this morning, thinking about doing today’s contemplation and writing, I swear it was my 11-year-old, “I don’t waaaannnaaaaa!” that I heard in my head. It is definitely opposed to the energy of “I am responsible!” In fact, I feel like telling “I am responsible” to stick it. I know, I know, how immature.

As I am talking myself through this, I do see the immaturity, the irrationality of my resistance. I know that I choose to do the contemplations every day. No one is making me do it. I am guessing this is just some energy that has been stuck and now wants to come out. Whatever.

Feeling no choice is a deep issue (dare I say for everyone). It reflects the ego’s resistance to submitting to a higher will, the Divine Will—at least, that is what I have experienced. I now know when I feel like I have no choice it is because I’m actually working on letting go of a little more ego, and the ego is resisting. I’m not saying it’s easy but I do think it’s easier when I can identify why I am feeling/responding/reacting as I am.  In fact, the more I become familiar with the impetus behind my responses, the more I am able to respond with and through conscious awareness.

I just realized that despite my resistance, I am working through the Guiding Thought. How did that happen? Resistance turned into total compliance without me even wanting to.  I have the courage to face my own thoughts! Nothing like staring down the inner child.

 

 

Courage, Contextually: Journey of Courage – Day 15

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Guiding Thought

Be ready and willing, here and now, to be courageous. Release your mind’s idea of security, of “right” and of “wrong”. Allow your personality to dissolve and to become One with the Love that Is, everywhere. All false boundaries evaporate like mist in the sun as you devote yourself to the Oneness of Love.

Sharing

Am I ready, here and now, to be courageous? I am still asking myself “What is courage?” How do I know if I am ready to be courageous if I am not even sure what courage is?

Is courage releasing my mind’s idea of security? Is courage releasing ideas of “right” and “wrong”? Is that what I am supposed to understand today? Is courage allowing my personality to dissolve? Is courage becoming One with the Love that Is, everywhere? Is courage being willing to give up false boundaries?

I am not sure.

I have this idea that courage requires some bold, brave activity in response to some threat, like soldiers, or people who have faced and overcome bodily trauma like cancer or the loss of limbs, or people who have recovered (or are recovering) from an alcohol or drug addiction, or people who face daily struggles of pain, or personal issues. I have this idea that courage comes under certain circumstances. It’s contextual.

So what does it mean to “have courage” without a context, to simply be courageous?

Is courage momentary, or perpetual?

If I have been courageous in the past, does that mean I am courageous in the present?

Is courage something that can be practiced?

If so, does that mean I would need to place myself in “threatening” situations in order to practice being courageous (and if so…would I want to do that!?)?

All of my contexts for courage include the body/mind, so what does spiritual courage entail?

The “answer” I got to that last question was, “release false boundaries”. I think that means my concept of contextual boundaries is “false”. But I am not sure. I’ll have to think/feel about it.

Ok, so who are spiritual people who have been courageous? The ones that come readily to mind are Jesus, Gandhi, and Martin Luther King. But now that I am asking myself that question, I can think back on history and I come up with Giordano Bruno, or Saint Thomas Moore, or any of the (primarily Christian) martyrs who have died for their beliefs about God.

What made these people courageous? The thing that connected them is that they loved, and were willing to stand for, God or a higher ideal, over and above politics or societal beliefs about “right” and “wrong”.

Am I courageous in that way? Am I doing this Journey so I can be? I am already seeing a lot of things to explore.

What do you think/feel?

No Freak-out…Really: Journey of Courage – Day 14

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Guiding Thought

You are safe in Divine Love’s assurance. Have the courage to face the ignorance and illusions within yourself and root them out. Allow the Light of Love to enter your mind and heart. Divine Love shines within you destroying anything false, transforming you from within.

Sharing

“You are safe in Divine Love’s assurance.” I’ve been feeling this in a new way on this Journey. It’s day 14 and I have not freaked out. That’s something.

If you remember, one of my recent “themes” has been working on trust. When I am “working on” something, there seems to be ups and downs. I experience things that bring out the very “problem” I am working on, I go through a bit of a tumultuous period, then things smooth out and I come to a point of clarity and/or peace. For the moment, I don’t feel like I am working on trust. I simply feel that I trust.

Yes, I know this does not represent an ultimate trust—I still have things I am working on. I am still working on trusting the Divine with financial matters as I move into greater and greater spiritual service; I am still working on my highest work; I am working on really listening to the Divine inner voice; I am working on personal health and aliveness; I am still working on releasing attachments. But for now, it is a reprieve, a spot along the path in which to rest in the sun.

It feels like I’ve gotten somewhere and now I am being given the assurance that I have what it takes to move forward.

In a way that’s a little scary. What’s next? You know that saying, “God doesn’t give you a problem without also giving you the strength to handle it”. Does that mean as you grow stronger your problems get bigger?

Okay, I’m being a little facetious with that, but I’ve learned it’s good to let the voices express their concerns. The concern in this moment is I won’t be able to handle something that comes up, something that has come up because I’ve become stronger, more trusting. Would that mean I would turn away from wanting to be strong or more trusting? Of course not; the only direction is forward. So, I think I am going to enjoy my reprieve and not think about it, not worry about some future what if-concern-problem my mind is pre-emptively reacting to before it’s happened. Silly mind. Sit back. Rest!

I feel like this reprieve is very much connected to both yesterday’s remarks about being devoted to Love, as well as the days of the last Journey about “being with the Love that is always with me”. And today I’ve gotten more. Love is always with us, but it’s up to us to accept it, allow it, and receive it. Since Love is constantly giving of itself infinitely, every little bit we let in (being with it, being devoted to it), allows it to give us more. That’s what I feel has been happening on this Journey. I’ve been opening up, and Love has been giving me more of itself…and I’ve been able to receive it.

It’s so subtle! Is it really that remarkable that it’s day 14 and I haven’t freaked out? Yes, because I have felt supported, loved, assured. Little things have been “happening” that just feel right, feel synchronous —small things I could easily overlook, but I want to see Love’s activity in my life. I am looking for it; I want to participate with Love consciously.

This feeling of being loved and assured is a direct result of the work I’ve been doing. That’s my intuition talking. I feel like this is a response. My mind does not know what to make of it or what it means, and I’m not letting my mind get in the way. I’m just going to rest here and let it be, let Love be…in me.