I am responsible! I am able to respond with and through conscious awareness of my inner-centered, silent Knowingness. I practice Knowingness moment by moment. Anchored in my inner-harmony, I have the courage to face my own thoughts and actions.
“Why are you clinging to a limited version of yourself, no matter how comforting that may be to you and the perception of your ego, when worlds upon worlds are beckoning to be discovered and experienced?”
-Babaji, in Shiva Speaks by Rashmi Khilnani
When I started this Journey, I had an idea that courage had to do with finding, rooting out, and transforming fear-based patterns and habits. For example, when I’ve worked on creative projects of self-expression, I’ve fallen into a rut of feeling like I’m not good enough, or a rut of fear of failure (or success!), which have put me in a slump of stagnation or procrastination. When I was able to disassociate enough from the rut, I was able to see the cause of the rut (feeling not good enough, etc.), and work on my self-esteem enough to pull me out of the rut to be creative again.
The cause of the rut, in this case feeling not good enough, was what I needed to find-root out-transform…which requires courage.
That’s the type of thing I was expecting for this Journey: having those blocks show up that I would then “work on” and transform.
But today I am seeing something different. Transforming “old” patterns, habits, and behaviors like that does require courage, and I continue to take that approach when those limiting things show up, but now, there is also a new kind of courage.
The new courage is about:
- Moving myself intentionally
- Making choices here and now that I take responsibility for
- Creating transformation (into a consciously chosen state of being)
The new is about:
- Actively approaching new choices, not just “waiting” for stuff to surface to be transformed
- Trusting that I am able to make choices that will expand my joy-love-life, rather than being fearful I will create chaos or misery
I’ve (finally!) gotten to a place where I have the courage to really create from my truest-highest self.
- Being vigilant to do so requires courage.
- Not “slipping back” requires awareness, diligence, and courage.
- Awareness-of and action-on my inner-centered, silent Knowingness requires courage.
A new day. A new moment. A new choice. A new courage.