The Jigsaw Puzzle Self: Journey of Courage – Day 10

Copyright Tam Black 2015 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

I am aware, I allow, and I accept What Is. I go within to my silent Self which Knows and follow my Inner Wisdom to Truth. I practice Divine Balance in thought, word, and action. I Am! I Am my Self! I Am my Self of Love!

Sharing

“To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best night and day to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight…and never stop fighting.” 

-e.e. cummings

I “found” this quote when I was a young teenager, in the pre-internet days. For a long time, it was one of my guiding lights; it spoke to me of sincerity and authenticity. Like many teenagers—like many people—I would ask, “Who am I?” “Why am I here?” and I sought for the authentic answer. Even then I went within and looked and tried to discern what was real and what was a fleeting fancy, a wishful hope, or even a rebellious teenager reaction.

I think, even then, I was practicing listening to my silent Self which Knows. I became familiar with a feeling within which would point me toward my answers, and toward Itself; the feeling was the finding.

In many ways, I look back on that teenage-self and think she was so much wiser, so much more connected than “I” am today. She didn’t have as much information and experience as I do, so things seem like they were simpler. There wasn’t as much to sift through, to process, to integrate. She just asked, looked, felt, found, and followed.

What has your process been? Who are you? What have you found? Have you fought to be you? Have you claimed yourself? Are you holding on to yourself? To your Self? This is courage. Who are you? What is the Truth of you? How much of “you” has been imposed by outside influences? Can you tell? Can you choose? Who do you want to be? Who are you?  Look at yourself. Be yourself. Only you define you. You are amazing! Only you can Be you. And the world needs you.

I haven’t stopped “fighting” (as e.e. cummings says), but I’ve changed, grown, and matured, so the approach is different. Figuring “me” out feels more complex now—not necessarily more complicated, more like there are more pieces to the jigsaw puzzle that is “me”, more to look at and put together.

I also feel that if I stopped “fighting” I would slip, and lose something of myself, something I have gained through fighting, being, and persevering in constant uncovering, discovering how all the pieces of my puzzle fit.

It’s true: I do these Journeys for myself, as part of my personal self-discovery. But also, I sincerely hope that my Journeys may encourage you. I hope that you are taking your own journey of self-discovery, whether you do it here through these Guiding Thoughts, or through your own meditations and practices. Awareness matters. Self-awareness matters. And it takes courage stay the course.

I go as deep as I can and expose what I see, so that you might (perhaps) see that you, too, can look within, go deep, find your Self and weed out those parts that no longer serve you. I hope to encourage you to explore yourself. I hope that some of my sharing will help you see how some of your own puzzle pieces fit together. I hope that as I approach my own doubt and fears and skepticism you will be encouraged to approach yours. With patience! And compassion! And gentleness! For Self and others. I wish you Peace on the Journey.

 

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