“Jewel of the Journey”: Journey of the Heart 2.0 – Day 08

Journey of the Heart - Day 08 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 08
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Love-as-light streams from my heart to your heart!

We are connected by Love; we are One in Love.

I imagine this stream of love-as-light connecting with everyone in time and space.

I imagine receiving this stream of love-as-light as it returns to me from everyone in time and space.

This is enough. We are One.

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically). Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls:

 https://www.facebook.com/bradvanlandingham.music/?fref=ts

 

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There are people—artists—who can see something, either in their mind, or as a picture, person, landscape, etc., and they are able to take that picture, and make a picture. “Realism”, it’s called, when the picture looks like what it’s supposed to, like what the artist intends. My brother has always been an inspiration to me regarding this. He is amazing with pen, pencil, acrylics, and his livelihood is the art of stonework (He’s really good, check him out: https://billmaierstoneworks.wordpress.com/.

I’ve never been able to produce a realistic picture. It just doesn’t happen. Impressionist, yes. Abstract, yes. Realist, no. So (most of the time) I don’t try, and I’m ok with that. I like my art! (this is me, with my new-found claiming my artistic expression!)

But then there are days like today, when I want to draw what I see in my mind’s eye…and I just can’t (no self-pity, just pragmatic). When I try to, it turns out really crappy. I am always better off starting out with no thought about “how I want it to look”, no idea about what I “should” be doing, no thoughts about what the “right” way to make a picture is.

This, became a metaphor for life for me today. Listening to the Guiding Thought, I started out with a beautiful idea in my head. I saw universes, stars, lights, swirling masses of cosmic gases and brilliant interchanges of energy. “This is what I want to draw”, I thought.

There was no way I could do it, and I knew it. But I had to try! As soon as I started trying to do what I wanted to do, nothing worked. What’s more, as soon as nothing was working, I couldn’t even get back to a creative flow. I was stuck, stuck in a void between what I wanted to do, how I wanted it to look, and a creative process that arises and feels right.

It was at that point I started thinking about it as a metaphor for creating, or manifesting. I have noticed throughout my life that my creation-manifestation process is very similar to my “art” process. If I try to make something specific, I lose flow, and what comes out is a poor representation of what I had imagined I wanted. But when I simply think about allowing a flow, focus on feeling creative, and loving the process, something pretty cool comes out.

I wonder if people who are realist artists have any kind of similar parallels in their life-creations? Do people who draw realistically manifest “realistically” what they imagine?

I feel like the journey is showing me something, but I don’t know what, something about creating from the heart, not trying to force the flow, letting go and allowing the creative process.

I guess we’ll see.

“Starburst”: Journey of the Heart 2.0 – Day 07

Journey of the Heart - Day 07 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 07
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

I focus my heart-love in the service of others.

As I serve others through my deepest heart-love, my own love expands and becomes amplified.

There is always more love to share, to give, to experience!

Such joy and gratitude fill me, when I open to my heart’s love!

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically). Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls:

 https://www.facebook.com/bradvanlandingham.music/?fref=ts

 

Sharing

First, I would like to thank Ka (http://fiestaestrellas.com/), who recently encouraged me through some self-pity regarding my artwork! I think I need to claim my artistic expression more courageously!

After I drew this picture, I scrolled through some of the pictures from the first Journey of the Heart; I found the picture for today’s Journey is remarkably similar to the picture from day 07 of the first Journey. REMARKABLY. See?

Journey of the Heart 1.0 - Day 07 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart 1.0 – Day 07
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

They both have some sort of “source” in the lower left, out of which flows some energy. That energy in both pictures flows through something—both of which have multi-layers, and ends up fanning out, like flames or tree-branches.

What is my subconscious getting at here? I wonder what the significance is, if there is any significance at all.

It was a conscious choice for this Journey that my drawings are more abstract than that Journey. There is the one Guiding Thought on this Journey that begins, “Today I decide to give my heart reign…” Well, deciding to allow my drawings to be completely abstract is one way I am choosing to enact this throughout the Journey. The Heart is thoroughly abstract. If I try to translate the heart’s message into recognizable things (people, hearts, globes, etc.…) I may be distorting the purity of the message.

Another problem with trying to directly represent the message through obvious symbols is I am not able to represent everything I want to. For example, how would I represent focusing my heart-love? How do I represent serving others through heart-love? It’s not like saying, “draw a table”. A table is something tangible, something that can be seen and felt and recognized when represented in a drawing, but focusing heart-love in the service of others is intangible and different for every person.

That’s the thing about these Guiding Thoughts…they are personal…everyone is going to have their own feeling about them, and their own way of representing that feeling. It’s that individual feeling that matters. If I can feel that feeling deeply and intensely, really feel what the heart is communicating to me, then draw whatever, the picture will convey the totality of that feeling and will do so in such a way that other people will get it, because (since our hearts are connected in Oneness) my expression of heart-feeling will communicate with you on that level. That is how multiplicities become unified: through our feeling nature (our hearts) universalizing our personal interpretations.