“Life with Confetti”: Journey of the Heart 2.0 – Day 13

Journey of the Heart - Day 13 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 13
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Follow the guidance of your heart and experience life anew!

Express love, and experience love everywhere.

Find new ways to love.

Recognize new depths and nuances of love.

Be patient. Be kind. Be wise and respond to life with love, as love.

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-



Although it is not my primary practice, for many years I have worked with the Buddhist “loving-kindness” meditation. It goes something like this:

May I be peaceful.  

May I be happy.  

May I be well.  

May I be safe.  

May I be free from suffering. 


May all beings be peaceful.  

May all beings be happy.  

May all beings be well.  

May all beings be safe.  

May all beings be free from suffering.


The loop I play in my subconscious often is simply, “May all beings be happy.”

Recently, I began thinking more about what it means for “all beings to be happy”. What does it mean for a bird to be happy? What does it mean for a bear to be happy? What does it mean for an earthworm to be happy?

For a period of time now, I have been looking within, asking myself what it means for an earthworm to be happy. When I think about “all beings being happy”, what am I really wishing for, for the earthworm? I think: when I can figure out what it means for an earthworm to be happy, I will really be understanding happiness.

My study is by no means concluded, but I have learned something. This feeling we call “happy” is so much more than how humans generally think of it or experience it. Happiness is wrapped up in “peaceful” and “soothed” and “comforted”. It’s an inner smile and lightness, un-burdened-ness, a feeling of being connected with everything, yet with nothing intruding.

I feel like “real” happiness is a feeling that is foreign to us—to all beings, and in its purity is quite literally unavailable to us at this point in our collective development. That sounds really pessimistic, doesn’t it? But let me explain:

Every being on this planet is feeling the effects of our pollution, of our atmosphere filling with carbon dioxide and radiation, of our rivers, lakes, and oceans filling with our waste. Every being on this planet is affected. It’s a heaviness, a weight, an effort, a sludgery (I just made that word up) we are so accustomed to we don’t know any better. So when we think about being happy, it is within this environment we are accustomed to. On a scale of 1-10 I am happy at a 7! And ecstatic at a 10! YAY! But, guess what? The real scale goes up to 1,000. It is possible for us to be happy up to 1000, but all we are able to access in our consciousness, in our environment is a 10.

We have work to do. We have healing of our minds, our hearts, our social/economic/political systems, our environment, our everything. I want to be happy at 1000; I want a culture and environment that supports my happiness at 1000. I want the earthworms to feel happiness up to 1000.

I decided the picture today was about happiness. To me, it’s whales, diving deeply (“depths and nuances of love”), spraying, and rejoicing with the confetti. If whales can rejoice (even if it’s my imagination), I am hopeful.

May all beings be really, truly happy, all the way to 1000.