“Grapes Afire”: Journey of the Heart 2.0 – Day 17

Journey of the Heart - Day 17 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 17
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

Focus your heart-love in the service of others.

As you serve others through your deepest heart-love, your own love expands and becomes amplified.

There is always more love to share, to give, to experience!

Joy and gratitude fill you, when you open to your heart’s love!

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-


What do you get when you cross Julia Ward Howe’s Battle Hymn of the Republic with Johnny Cash’s Ring of Fire?

Grapes Afire!

[smh] Sorry for the corniness.

Sometimes meditating on these Guiding Thoughts and pictures is like dream interpretation. There are symbols, pictures that seem to have no relevance or context, but it just feels like there’s something there. It feels like a communication, a message, some part of yourself saying something…if you can just figure it out.

That’s how this felt to me today…so I started trying to figure it out. You ready for this?

The Battle Hymn of the Republic:

“He is trampling out the vintage where the grapes of wrath are stored…His truth is marching on.”

Ring of fire:

“Love is a burnin’ thing, and it makes a fiery ring.”

The two themes: 1) The victory of the Lord: a call to action. 2) Love: a call to endurance.

[quick disclaimer: remember this is intuitive interpretation, i.e. how it feels to me. I know my interpretation does not take social/cultural interpretations into account, nor does it consider further lyrics in the songs. It’s really only about how it is speaking to me, subjectively (as your pictures do to you, for you)].

The message for me in these two themes: Persevere!

The path of Love and service to the Lord is not always easy. For me, personally, it’s a constant internal vigilance, questioning, constant assessment, continuous probing, making sure I am doing what God wants me to be doing.

There is a sentence from A Course in Miracles that goes something like this (from memory), “Can you imagine God creating a plan for your salvation that could fail?” In other words, God has it all worked out. You can’t fail. Everything is done and is unfolding as it should.

And yet, most of the time, I feel like I am feeling my way in the dark.

Am I doing it right? >feel around in the dark<

What am I supposed to be doing? >feel around in the dark<

Which way am I supposed to go? Should I just wait here? >feel around in the dark<

What do I do??? >feel around in the dark<

This is how most of my internal seeking goes: Literally posing questions to God, which feels like a void, then feeling my way, trying to feel the response through my own blindness.

Here, I think, is where most of my personal faith is placed: that despite feeling deaf-mute-blind in my unknowing, the answers always come and I go the right way. I have faith that I go the right way. I have faith I make right decisions. But I have only come to faith through practicing feeling around in the dark. I ask. I listen. I try. I am sincere. I do my best. I can always do better, but I do my best just now.

I think it’s enough.

Today, I persevere in patience, in diligence, in sincerity, feeling my way in the dark.