“Lovortex”: Journey of the Heart 2.0 – Day 23

Journey of the Heart - Day 23 Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls
Journey of the Heart – Day 23
Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

lovortex – noun \ ləv \ˈvȯr-teks \ : a mass of spinning, strong or constant affection for a person, persons, or all sentient beings which causes the center of one to resemble a whirlpool. (Word created by Susan Billmaier, Jan. 25, 2016. Definition philosophically argued over and decided on by Susan Billmaier & Tam Black, Jan. 25, 2016.)


Guiding Thought

We follow the guidance of our hearts and experience life anew!

We express love, and experience love everywhere.

We find new ways to love; we recognize new depths and nuances of love.

We are patient. We are kind. We are wise and we respond to life with love, as love.

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-



“We are patient…” This made me laugh. Actually, it made me shake my head. I have been feeling anything but patient today. There’s just so much to do. You know how they say, “If you love what you do, you never work a day in your life”? That’s how I feel. I just want to work! Get stuff done! I keep coming up with new things that I want to do, too! It feels exhilarating, and yet I need to be patient because I can’t get it all done right now. I think the picture conveys this desire for energetic outburst; I also think the rectangles are the reminder to be patient: a bit of solidity and structure accompanying the explosion.

This Journey of the Heart is messing with me, a bit. If you’ve read any of my more thoughtful, contemplative, intellectual stuff, you know that in my head is where I am comfortable. That’s of course a big reason to do Journey of the Heart, to add balance.

I have all these feelings…I mean…emotions, as well as senses—the subtleties I’ve been mentioning.  And I’m not quite sure what they are saying or what I am supposed to do with them. It is very odd territory for me. I am getting the same sense about my emotions that I mentioned just yesterday: I feel inadequate about my feelings…I feel like “I’m not doing it right”…I hope I am not letting you down with my inability to write about these feelings!

I like figuring things out, looking at things from different angles, finding different pieces and putting them together. I don’t know how to do that with feelings, with sensations, or with these subtle energy movements. None of the pieces make any sense to me, much less how they fit together, and I can’t even think about them because that defeats the purpose.  More than that, I can’t write about them because words themselves defeat the expression of the heart.

“When the heart speaks, the heart no longer speaks.”