Today, I relax with confidence in the activity of my Inner Divine Mind. I allow it to express its true nature of all-sufficiency and all-supply in my life and affairs. Today, my only responsibility is to protect My Own Loving Presence from thoughts that block its flow. If I feel uncertain, I remember My Source; if I feel weak, I remember my Inner Flow; if I feel doubt, I assure myself of my Inner Knowing and I am free.
I’ve said before that all the Journeys are connected and inter-related–as I raise my consciousness regarding my purpose, I am also working on worth, healing, abundance, etc.; whatever is ready to evolve comes up for transformation. This is why I can do the Journeys in cycles and they are different every time. Different facets come up in relation to different things; they get deeper or broader each time.
Purpose is about abundance in the sense that abundance is about manifestation and experiencing a purposeful (fulfilled) third-dimensional reality.
A physical life that is aligned with Divine Will is full of both abundance and purpose.
At the beginning of 2016, I changed my mental approach to manifestation. Before this year, I thought of manifestation as trying to make something happen, trying to make something appear in my reality, and then feeling frustrated when it didn’t. Now, I have started to feel manifestation as a process (and I have no doubt that feeling these Journeys as a process has assisted with this).
What I mean by this is I need to be in its flow–the flow of manifestation–not the other way around. And how do I do that? I do that by being aware and understanding it, not imposing what I think into what I want it to do for me. I become aware of it as I pay attention to it, pay attention to my relationship and communication with it.
When I was doing this through my new (!) Recent (!) 2016 manifestation practice, all I felt was, “let it be”. Cliché or not, it fit. Everything about my will, my desire, and my wants, relaxed and felt the truth behind the words, “let it be”. Shortly after, a friend of mine said those words to me in a slightly different context, “let it be”. AHHHHHHHHHH... Now, the Guiding Thought is telling me to relax and go with it. OK!
I like when the Guiding Thought tells me to “do” something I am already doing. That does let me relax with confidence and trust the process.
My Purpose is to awaken to the Truth within me and share it. The Truth within me–My Inner Divine Mind–flows constantly and purely. As I go deeper in my awareness, the current of this broadens, strengthens, and brightens. It fills me and pours forth. This is My Source, the Source of all my good, all my happiness, and all my abundance. I awaken to My Inner Divine Mind and invite it to express itself as every person and event that will increase my awareness of it.
Following from yesterday:
If my Inner Divine Mind–the Truth within me–is myours, why do I need to share it? If we all have it, if it belongs to all of us, what’s the point? Isn’t that redundant?
Though the questions were my initial reaction, I knew my mind was just doing what it does–trying to understand. I had to think about it for a bit, but I think I understand and have answers to my questions.
As you may know, the Withpearls Consciousness Journeys were inspired by John Randolph Price’s Abundance Book Prosperity Plan. The Journeys intend to, in a small way, pay homage to his work. The answers to my questions came in the form of a recollection of one of Mr. Price’s “Statements of Principle”. Day 7 of the Prosperity Plan says this:
The Divine Consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of Abundance. This is its responsibility, not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this Truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all sufficiency in my life and affairs. (emphasis mine)
That’s how I realized my answers: Divine Consciousness (Divine Mind) has its own responsibility, its own purpose within its Divine Plan. That responsibility, that purpose, is to express its true nature. I have no control over its purpose or its responsibility, but I do have control over my acceptance or allowance of it.
That’s why it’s up to me to awaken to my purpose and allow Divine Mind to express through me. The fact of it is beyond my control; what I choose to do with it is for me to decide. Sharing it is that decision.
And why would I not? If my sharing and giving it brings me people and events which show me evidence of it as the source of all my good, all my happiness, and all my abundance–I say, “Sure”.
My Inner Divine Mind is always expressing itself, in all ways, through my own Loving Presence. This is its True Nature, thus this is my True Nature. I turn to my Inner Divine Mind as the Source of my happiness, my purpose, and my fulfillment. I allow it to flow through my own Loving Presence and appear as all my activity, as every visible form and experience I desire.
My + your + our= “myour”. The first round uses “my”. The second round uses “your”. The third round uses “our”. By the fourth round, “myour” –the space where all of these live at the same time, not just me, not just you, but you and me, together–should be more readily accessible through myour consciousness.
Is it significant that this is round one and I’ve already started thinking/feeling in terms of myour?
Today, this Guiding Thought shifts continually between a subjective me and allusions to the collective myour.
My Inner Divine Mind: even though the “my” begins the Guiding Thought, Divine Mind is all ours, together. My, in this case indicated how the One Divine Mind which we all share comes through me. The Guiding Thought says this Mind is always expressing itself thought my own Loving Presence, but it is also always expressing itself through your Loving Presence–the same Mind, all our presences.
This is its True Nature. It is myour True Nature.
The same Divine Mind that is the Source of my happiness, purpose, and fulfillment is the Source of your happiness, purpose, and fulfillment is the Source of all our happiness, purpose, and fulfillment.
When I allow it to become every visible form and experience I desire, since it is also yours, it will bring me what is also best for you, what is also best for all of us. (The reason it does not seem to “work” this way is because there are still too many people, resisting, not allowing, blocking the flow. As more people open to Divine Mind’s intelligence, allowing it to flow through their own Loving Presence, we will see the tangible results more and more quickly, more and more frequently.)
I am now fully conscious of my own Loving Presence which seeks expression through me. My own Loving Presence Knows my heart and Knows my happiness. It Knows how to fulfill my heart and bring me joy by placing me in right situations, with right people, at right times where I may fully express my purpose. I submit my mind and heart, all my thoughts, words, actions to my own Loving Presence to be lifted to her/his vision and plan for my life.
I’m getting a glimpse of how big my own Loving Presence is. It’s the bridge between finite and infinite, my direct-line to infinite.
When I say, “It Knows…” that really means IT KNOWS. It has all the answers to any possible question. It has every possible scenario for Divine Perfection in my life. IT KNOWS.
And yet, I have to remind myself to submit to this all-knowing, all loving, presence in my life? This presence that wants my life filled with joy and light, freedom and love, peace and harmony? The channel through which all Divine Perfection comes to me?
When I think about it that way…I wonder…what I am thinking. Why have I not just rolled over and said, “OK! I’m yours! Whatever you say!” Or, perhaps more accurately, why is there a process involved in this? Why can I not just surrender immediately, for now and forever? Why do I have to take steps?
Is it easier than I think? Can I just surrender for now, forever?
This is what I think (at the moment…): I am an infinite and eternal being with free will. I have misused my free will (i.e. used it in ways not accordance with Divine Will and Perfection) for millennia, for lifetimes. Each time I have misused (or misuse) my free will, contributing to my own mire, and have created something out of harmony with Divine Will, the patterns of energy which hold-on in my emotional-body from which I have to free myself before I can act freely with Divine Will.
And that’s why it’s a process. I have to get through my mire, and I have to make sure I don’t keep creating mire while I’m getting out of what I’ve already (mis) created.
I am free now. I have always been free, that is my natural (Divine) state. But I can choose not to be–and I have.
Every time I fully accept my freedom and choose from my Divine Oneness, the Being of Love that I AM, all those patterns of mis-creations are undone–immediately, in an instant, for now, forever. But the patterns of mis-creation are deeply ingrained, and if I have not undone them thoroughly, not fully accepted my Divine Being of Love that I AM, those patterns kick in again. Even though I can free myself every moment, if I have not released the patterns, they are still the default.
And that’s why it’s a process. I have to keep releasing the patterns as I keep replacing the patterns with thoughts of my own Loving Presence, Divine Oneness, and the Being-ness of Love.
My own Loving Presence is my Self. I turn my attention inward and become aware of my own Loving Presence. With my focused awareness, my own Loving Presence fills me, grows brighter, and grows warmer. I claim my Self with these words:
I AM My Own Loving Presence. My loving Presence is the Self of myself. I love my Self!
I want to give my Self everything it desires–and my Self wants the same for me. What do I desire, but total Peace, Freedom, Love, and Harmony? These are the infinite and eternal qualities of my Self! I am now aware of the inner activity of my own Loving Presence and I invite it to express itself through me and externalize in my life as circumstances, people, forms, and events that fulfill my desires.
Didn’t I say yesterday that the name of the game is love? And it starts with self-love? And here we are today affirming our self-love!
It’s amazing how it works; how these Journeys fit together, day-to-day, round to round, Journey to Journey. Let me assure you, I did not consciously plan it this way today. I did not plan to focus on self-love on day 1 so that day 2 would flow naturally from it. I am not that organized.
I think what happens is my subconscious, or My Own Loving Presence (or my I AM presence, or my Christ Consciousness, or the Holy Spirit within me, or whatever “it” is) takes over, and does what I need it to do, as I need it to do it, both to verify Its presence and to fulfill Its perfection in my life. It makes sense to me that It knows a whole lot better than I do, and the little coincidences I experience are all part of Its plan.
The activity of My Own Loving Presence (or my I AM presence, or my Christ Consciousness, or the Holy Spirit within me, or whatever “it” is) presents itself in a variety of ways, more than just the Journeys flowing together. I’ve been seeing very small things happening–very small–(they are so subtle!) which I think are the combined effects of working with my consciousness and with My Own Loving Presence.
They are things like: I have experienced NO TRAFFIC whatsoever on my way to work for several weeks–and, no matter how late I leave, I still arrive on time. I have quick and calm responses to people, even under stressful circumstances. Things I plan or coordinate come off completely without ANY bumps, miscommunications, or missteps.
Now, I know what you are thinking, because I am thinking it too: This doesn’t mean anything. These things may just all be coincidences, tricks of perception, or I am making something out of nothing.
Yes. This is still the skeptic having her say. But here’s the thing: What if it is the result of a better relationship with my Self? What if my life really is moving along with Divine Perfection? Do I really want to spit in the face of my Self, if so, by not believing it?
I have a choice. I know this could be completely absurd, and my imagination could be getting carried away, after all, they are such small things. But, they could also be the visible effects of my growing relationship, my higher consciousness (higher than a month ago? The cumulation of several Journeys? I’m not sure…). So I choose.
I choose to think finally, I have let go of enough of my doubts, I’ve integrated and assured theSkeptic satisfactorily that she does not resist asmuch (and she can be placated). I’ve gotten to a point of confidence in my surrender that I can trust more readily. This has all opened me more (and more) to experiencing the activity of my Divine Self.
There is a Perfect Spiritual Idea of Perfect Fulfillment. My Inner Divine Presence Knows every form, experience, situation, event, circumstance, condition, relationship, and sequence that fulfills my desires. When I am diligent about maintaining my focus of desire on the loving benefit and fulfillment of all sentient beings, Divine Substance–which is the source of Spiritual Idea’s manifestation–flows through me and externalizes in my experience. Divine Presence appears as the perfect fulfillment of every single form, experience, situation, event, circumstance, condition, relationship, and sequence that I could possibly desire.
Thought # 1:
There’s a lot going on today, some of “it” is residual or cumulative from the past week or so. There have been unusual small things that have felt like huge impositions, there have been ordinary small things that feel overwhelming; my feelings are all a jumble, and overall I feel like I’m taking a lot of effort to keep myself in balance, at peace, and able to function as the highest person I can.
I am doing it…but it’s taking a lot of effort, and I feel strained.
And now I am doing a Journey. Part of me feels like even this is going to feel like an added burden, a responsibility, a use of my time and energy that means effort. Here are my thoughts:
I don’t have the energy to make this effort. I can’t do this. I don’t want to think this hard or work through stuff or figure anything out. I just want to feel right again. I want to feel light and free and happy. I want my flow back. Once I get my flow back, then I can do a Journey, then I can get on with life, then I’ll have the energy and I can make the effort.
I acknowledge my thoughts. And I choose. I am doing this Journey, because I also know that the Journey is part of the solution, not the problem. I know these thoughts are not of my deepest, highest self. I know that doing nothing keeps me stuck, while taking tiny steps moves me in the direction of my choice.
Yesterday a colleague gave me a new thought (I love it when people give me new thoughts), which applies directly to this. She explained to me how she thinks about inertia.
The dictionary definition is: Inertia is the property of matter by which it retains its state of rest or its velocity along a straight line so long as it is not acted upon by an external force. In lay-terms it means “It’s where you’re at, and the direction you are going, unless you decide to change it.” Or, the way my friend put it yesterday: it’s the energy it takes to overcome impediments to movement.
She applied it to her 35-year-old son who lives at home, plays video games every night, and is comfortable–he has no reason to make any change. His inertia is going in that direction, and there is no reason to change it. Right now, with circumstances as they are, it would take a lot of effort for him to even begin to want to change his situation.
But I think about it more metaphysically. These Journeys are, after all, designed to move us to new, higher thoughts (thereby toward new, higher physical manifestations). As above so below; as within, so without.
The fact I am feeling so much effort just now at the beginning of this Journey, indicates to me that I am already overcoming some mental/spiritual inertia. I’m stuck somewhere and am choosing to change and grow, so I’m already feeling the strain of making myself move, or move in a different direction.
Flows are nice. I love it when I am in the flow. It’s hard not to be in a flow. But there is also no going back at this point; I’ve moved myself just enough out of the flow, into the effort of change, that the only way out is through.
After I wrote Why a Journey of Purpose, in which I talked a lot about feeling sad at the cruelty in the world, wanting to rise above and assist, and wanting to find love and compassion for those who have so little love that they need to act cruelly, this was sent to me (a part of a much longer letter):
Please, dear Susan, love yourself. As you know, this is our biggest lesson. Everyone is our teacher as we are theirs. Sometimes the teacher is kind and loving and sometimes the teacher is harsh. But everything and everyone exists for our divine benefit, and every pair of eyes we look into are our own. It is a time on our planet when the consciousness has been raised enough that people realize that they have the power (through God’s grace) to manifest the life they want. We are all creators because we were created by a creator in His/Her likeness.
And after that, I was listening to prayers and one of them said this:
As with all things in the Universes, True Joy can only come from deep Self-Realization; Awareness and Love of the Other can only come from deep reflective Self-Love.
The name of the game is love. Always has been. Love yourself, love your Self, love yourselves.
Here it is, the moment of truth. This is where you get really honest with yourself about what you want out of this Journey, and what you want to put into it.
This means sit, be still, quiet your mind, and think about who you are in the world and who you want to become. Think about what your heart says (and if you did Journey of the Heart, you probably have a clue). What are you willing to do to work toward that? How much time, realistically, do you want to spend? (Remember every drop matters).
I am always all in, as you know. If all you can do is read my post every day, that’s enough…for now. Don’t let yourself think just reading my post is getting you somewhere. At some point, you need to do your own work, even if it’s just two or three minutes each day. Read the Guiding Thought with intention, call forth your will for your own evolution, and write; a minute or two is all it takes. One day, there will be a spark, your interest and effort will grow from there!
Feelings of intensity can vary throughout or between Journeys; use those fluctuations to learn about yourself and your own process. See where you are resistant, see where the energy flows. What moves you? What excites you? What makes you think more deeply? What helps you feel free? This is your mind, your life, and your will. It’s up to you to use them.
The declaration comes after you have thought about what you want out of the Journey; it’s a way of setting forth your intentions. This statement buries itself in your subconscious and remains a guiding light for the direction of your Journey, for the remainder of the Journey.
When I was young, I had an experience that was what could today be described as being bullied. The feelings were of being unloved, unwanted, worthless. I remember thinking to myself, “I want to help others, so that no one ever has to feel this way. I want people to know how loved and valuable they are; I don’t want people to have to feel this”.
Lately, I have been feeling very similar to this. People can be so mean…and stupid, and thoughtless, and intentionally cruel. It makes no sense to me, and it makes me so sad.
I want to be the counter-balance. I want to do what is necessary so that people don’t have to feel so unloved and valueless that they need to make others feel that way, that they need to dominate, or put others down.
This requires the ability to let go of my own feelings of being unloved and unlovable, while using those feelings to drive compassion for others who might be feeling the same thing. This takes balance and care. I first must care for myself. I must maintain my own highest love, my own Self-esteem, my own certainty of worth. Then, when I can be that for myself, I can reach out to others. Self-love comes first.
I intend to Know myself as loving and lovable! I intend to have so much LOVE that it overflows into and onto everyone who I interact with in any way!
I intend to be happy. Truly, deeply happy.
Bringing love and happiness into the world, through my own life is my purpose. I intend to fulfill my purpose, increasing and expanding my own love and happiness, sharing it with others infinitely.
Toward accomplishing my declaration, I commit to a daily practice of Guiding Thoughts (contemplation) and writing for 40 consecutive days, for at least twenty minutes. I commit to opening my awareness, developing my understanding, and accepting (allowing) my Knowing of the Truth of my Self and my purpose. I commit to these actions. I commit to turning inward with sincerity and earnestness. All I am is now. May the Truth of Self be revealed. May I be my purpose infinitely and eternally, in service to all.
I dedicate this Journey to all. May we all come to Know the activity of Infinite Love within us as our united purpose, that we may extend and share it through all our words, thoughts, and actions to all, everywhere.