“Significant Insignificance”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 36

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Guiding Thought

Today I relax with confidence in the activity of my Inner Divine Mind. I allow it to express its True Nature of all-sufficiency and all-supply in my life and affairs. Today, my only responsibility is to protect My Own Loving Presence from thoughts that block its flow. If I feel uncertain, I remember my Source; If I feel weak, I remember my Inner Flow; If I feel doubt, I assure myself of my Inner Knowing and I am free.

 

Sharing

I am very thankful for all of you who are here with me. Sometimes I need all of myour energy to do this, to figure it out, to remember patience, to remember to relax, and to take the next step.

My subconscious has been showing me a lot of movement over the past 12 hours. Perhaps it is leading me to movement?

The first thing it showed me was the geometric spiral nature of certain hand/arm movements. There is a way that you can move your arms so that it performs a figure 8 movement. Try it–just keep your palm facing up and move your arm in a “circle”–it will naturally make a figure 8. Now do it in a large movement, beginning (palm up) with your arm at a 90-degree angle off your shoulder and ending with your palm up over your head (hold a golf ball in your hand if you need to and don’t let it fall off!).

If you then imagine connecting 3 points of that movement, it is in the same movement as a sine curve. And, if you connect the fourth point to the third point, it follows the movement of 1/2 a sine curve that is twice as big as the first one. I know–that’s really hard to follow without pictures, and I’m not going to do all the pictures right now, but trust me, it was one of those, “Ahhhhhh” kind of things. (If you want to explore this further, check out my resource page on the Spiral Dance–I’ll be adding the pics there at some point!).

Once I started thinking about the spiral nature of these movements, I thought about Da Vinci’s Vitruvian man. The Vitruvian man shows us proportions and ratios of the human body, which means there is a proportion and ratio to the spirals that we make with our arms/hands. I wondered if there was any correlation to PI or PHI or the Fibonacci sequence or… any of that stuff. And, I wondered if there is any correspondence between these larger movements and the spiral of our double-helix DNA. What about the macrocosm-microcosm phenomenon? What about another fractal-relationship within our own bodies? I don’t know; I don’t have these answers. I couldn’t find anything online that could tell me if my thinking had ever been thought before. But I am going to explore this….

The second thing my subconscious showed me was an interlocking gear-system (like a flywheel) of TIME –specifically the TIME for doing these Journeys.

You know how the Mayan Calendar works, right? There’s a small, daily “gear” that clicks through each day, then after a certain number of days, it makes a bigger “gear” click once; then after that bigger “gear” has clicked through a certain number of times, it makes an even bigger “gear” click…JOP36-1

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That’s how I saw these Journeys. Each day is a notch on the smallest gear, after 10 days of one round, a second gear clicks through; after four rounds, that gear clicks another larger gear; after that larger gear clicks through 7 times (365 days, one year of Journeys), it clicks once…and so on.

It made me realize how tiny and relative one day is. This day is nothing in the great movement of Time. To Time, now is nothing. And I started thinking about perspective and Time. Why get riled up when Time just keeps going? Why worry? This one day on this one Journey will be as nothing when I have done the Journeys for five years, and even less than nothing when I have done the Journeys for 30 years. Where will I be in 30 years? Today is relative, oh so relative.

This then brought up two final thoughts.

1) My favorite saying: Nothing Matters. Why is it my favorite saying? Because in two words, it tells us how IMPORTANT everything is, and how INSIGNIFICANT everything is. Do you see?

2) This Julia Roberts video, which I saw for the first time a few days ago, also shows us both our importance and our insignificance. Julia Roberts as Mother Nature: https://youtu.be/WmVLcj-XKnM

Be well. Be gentle with yourself. Love yourself. Be the love you are. Strengthen each other. Thank you for being here.

“Snap out of It!”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 35

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Guiding Thought

My Purpose is to awaken to the Truth within me and share it. The Truth within me–My Inner Divine Mind–flows constantly and purely. As I go deeper in my awareness, the current of this broadens, strengthens, and brightens. It fills me and pours forth. This is My Source, the Source of all my good, all my happiness, and all my abundance. I awaken to My Inner Divine Mind and invite it to express itself as every person and event that will increase my awareness of it.

 

Sharing

Enough of this gentle “awaken” crap. I want to just slap the shit out of being asleep and wake the hell up.

I’m a bit riled up today. I feel a bit angry, a bit impatient. Can you tell?

How am I supposed to encourage you to be the Truth within you and let your Inner Divine Mind flow, when I can’t do it for myself? Is this hypocrisy? Is it process? Am I being as authentic as I can be? What more can I do? Is there more to do, or is there just continuing? Am I only frustrated because I think I want something else? Am I standing in my own way? Is my mind my problem? Are old patterns and expectations my problem? Am I only impatient because I (think I) want something I have defined that is not aligned with God’s plan for me?

There are a lot of teachings that talk about the flimsiness of the illusion, the narrowness of the gap, the thinness of the veil (between the Real reality of us and the relative reality of what we experience). Sometimes (like today), it’s as though I can see how flimsy, narrow, and thin it is, but I just can’t get through it, across it. I know how absurd my anger and impatience are; I know this is just part of the process; I know I am the expression of My Inner Divine Mind…but I feel like my experience is not full, not what it’s “supposed” to be, not what I want it to be. And I don’t know if I should push and try to get through the veil, over the gap, or if I should just wait…patiently.

Easier said than done: Either way, whether I should push or wait, easier said than done.

“If A Woodchuck Could Chuck”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 34

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Guiding Thought

My Inner Divine Mind is always expressing itself in all ways through my own Loving Presence. This is its True Nature, thus this is my True Nature. I turn to my Inner Divine Mind as the Source of my happiness, my purpose and my fulfillment. I allow it to flow through my Own Loving Presence and appear as all my activity, as every visible form and experience I desire.

 

Sharing

The trick is accepting that everything I experience is a manifestation of my Own Loving Presence. I mean, if the Guiding Thought is true, then everything I experience is the result of the flow of my Own Loving Presence, right? If I am really in that space, then it’s not about wanting what I desire, but accepting everything I experience as what I desire.

And this is the trick. Because too often, it feels like I desire something other than what I experience, or what I have. What I want is just “over there”, right around the corner. The question is: is it not attained because I hold the thought that I don’t have it? Is my very expectation of it being right around the corner keeping it around the corner?

Faith is strengthened when I experience the power of it. That sounds ironic doesn’t it? Must I not first have faith in order to experience the power of it? It really is a kind of chicken-egg situation. Do I first have faith, and then see the tangible results? Or, do I see the tangible results because I have had faith? Is seeing believing? Or, is believing seeing? Which comes first?

Well. The Truth is….

It’s both…in the same way that giving is receiving. Giving is receiving in the same way that a grandfather becomes a grandfather as soon as the grandchild becomes the grandchild. When you believe you see; when you see you believe. These things happen simultaneously and immediately…the trick is to be aware and to be in the space of simultaneity: the Enlightenment paradox of being and becoming, of being material and spiritual, of being one and All (or One and individual).

Within the paradox we experience a gap, trying to bridge understanding between both/and–being both material and spiritual, being both who we are and who we are becoming, being both one and All.  It’s a lot for the limited mind to wrap its head around.

Persistence with the Guiding Thoughts closes this gap and teaches the mind how to understand the both/and aspect. I am my Own Loving Presence, and it is always expressing through me. It is my True Nature.

If my Own Loving Presence expresses itself through me, and am I not aware, does my Own Loving Presence expresses itself through me? Of course it does.

“Already Bulletproof”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 33

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Guiding Thought

I am now fully conscious of my own Loving Presence which seeks expression through me. My own Loving Presence Knows my heart and Knows my happiness. It Knows how to fulfill my heart and bring me joy by placing me in right situations, with right people, at right times where I may fully express my purpose. I submit my mind and heart, all my thoughts, words, actions to my own Loving Presence to be lifted to her/his vision and plan for my life.

 

Sharing

My sister sent me this text this morning:JOP33text

After some more texting back and forth, and reading a couple of articles, I found myself really thinking about whether or not I would try bullet proof coffee (or BPC, as it is being marketed).

I decided “no”, and the decision-making process was illuminating in the context of today’s Guiding Thought.

There are so many fads out there that people try. There are so many fads out there because people try them; there are food fads, exercise fads, spiritual fads, even scholarly fads (although, they’re called “trends” in scholarship).

I began to wonder why people are looking so hard, why is there so much opportunity to create a fad? The answer that came to me was, “People seek. You have sought, you know what that is like. Lots of people are seeking. This is how and why those fads are marketable, and why so many come and go. People are looking for something, until they find it, they keep looking.”

As with the BPC, it seems to me that people are looking for something to help them live better. BPC claims to give energy and mental acuity, as well as help people slim-down. Who doesn’t want that? That’s why I entertained the idea of trying it–I would love greater mental acuity.

This is representative of many fads: whatever “it” is, it will give you something you’re missing, something you’re lacking, something you want. Why not try it??

It’s true, I’ve done my share of trying things out. There are things that I have tried and have completely discarded, there are things I have tried and still use intermittently, and there are things that I have tried that have become foundationally incorporated into who I am and how I live. It’s this last part that is so important: what have you incorporated into your life such that you don’t have to look for anything anymore?

As I considered trying BPC, I began doing one of those inner-outer comparison things, I’ve talked about before (A Circle Has No Beginning, No End: Journey of Gratitude). It went like this:

-BPC offers (apparently) more energy, particularly in the morning…

–I have really good morning energy most of the time; I don’t feel the need to improve that….and, I am not convinced that BPC could improve upon my morning energy.

BPC offers (apparently) increased awareness, and mental alertness…

–I already have really good awareness and mental alertness. I don’t feel the need to improve that….and, I am not convinced that BPC could improve upon it–I am highly satisfied with where I am with this already.

-BPC offers a slimming effect…

–I drink a green smoothie 4-5 of 7 days per week and have noticed a slimming effect. Why change to drinking fats if what I do already provides the same thing?

I looked at the possibility and compared it to what I was already doing; I was not convinced it could measure up. I am not saying there’s not something out there that could make an improvement in these areas of my life; I am just saying BPC isn’t it, and since I am overall highly satisfied with where I’m at, I don’t need to look for something different.

This lead me to think again about why so many people are looking. They don’t have enough satisfaction; they haven’t found those core foundational things that allow them to say definitively, “This works for me; I don’t need to look for anything else”.

I am so lucky I have that!  In so many areas!

Two things come out of that. A) since I am highly satisfied with how I am doing things, I can just do them, and happily approach situations and people through that satisfaction–I am not looking for them to fulfill anything, so I can accept what gifts I find, where I find them. B) I have a basis upon which I can improve, without feeling a need to improve. I can compare, I can choose, I can reject, I can accept slowly, I can try things… but I have baseline for comparison. It’s good to be highly satisfied.

I can tell you…most of the time the fads don’t live up to my expectations; I’ve already got it pretty good.

“Intentional Intention”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 32

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Copyright Tam Black 2016
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Guiding Thought

My Own Loving Presence is my Self. I turn my attention inward and become aware of my Own Loving Presence. With my focused awareness, my own Loving Presence fills me, grows brighter, and grows warmer. I claim my Self with these words:

I AM My Own Loving Presence. My Loving Presence is the Self of myself. I love my Self!

I want to give my Self everything it desires–and my Self wants the same for me. What do I desire, but total Peace, Freedom, Love, and Harmony? These are the infinite and eternal qualities of my Self! I am now aware of the inner activity of my Own Loving Presence and I invite it to express itself through me and externalize in my life as circumstances, people, forms, and events that fulfill my desires.

 

Sharing

“You will find that intention on liberation is the means to it. When this intention is full no other means is necessary. But when intention is weak what is the use of a thousand means? Therefore, the principal means to liberation is intention alone.”  -Tripura Rahasya

It matters where your intention rests. What do you want? What are your goals or desires? What are your goals for your intellect, for your heart, for your physical body, for your work and service? Where do you want to be at this time next year, in three years, in five years? Where do you want to be in 50 years? Can you think that far ahead? What are you doing within your own mind, your personal expectations, to get yourself there?

I always have two sets of answers to these questions. One is Spiritual, and therefore by definition both very abstract and very intangible. These answers are often what I discuss here, and ultimately, the purpose of these Journeys: God. Truth. Freedom. Service to the One Divine Will. The second set of answers is much more mundane–literally. These answers have to do with the fact of living in a body, in a house, needing to eat and take care of my family, financial matters, and the general stuff of life.

The irony is that it’s always harder for me to think about what I want in the concrete than it is for me to think about what I want in the abstract. It’s easier for me to think and focus on concepts like Love, Freedom, or Oneness than it is for me to say I want something tangible like, a car, remodeled basement, or an increase in salary. I get the feeling that most people are the other way around–that the material stuff of life is easier to focus on when it comes to wants or desires. Just look at all the abundance and magnetizing and laws of attraction stuff out there now, showing people how to “do” this; it predominantly focuses on getting stuff.

Intention is the means. Whether it is freedom or a new car that you desire, intention is the means. The question for me becomes, what is my highest desire, and I have to tell you, it’s never a car (though I did play with this for a period of time): “What do I desire, but total Peace, Freedom, Love, and Harmony?” Let your highest intention draw all things up to itself. Let the highest intention lead you; let all things come as a result of the highest intention, and they will serve only that.

 

“So There! Take That, Skeptical Mind!”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 31

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Guiding Thought

There is a Perfect Spiritual Idea of Perfect Fulfillment. My Inner Divine Presence Knows every form, experience, situation, event, circumstance, condition, relationship, and sequence that fulfills my desires. When I am diligent about maintaining my focus of desire on the loving benefit and fulfillment of all sentient beings, Divine Substance–which is the source of Spiritual Idea’s manifestation–flows through me and externalizes in my experience. Divine Presence appears as the perfect fulfillment of every single form, experience, situation, event, circumstance, condition, relationship, and sequence that I could possibly desire.

 

Sharing

Welcome to Round 4!

See this page for information on the rounds and an explanation on how the Guiding Thoughts change for this round.

There are only 10 days left. We’ve done so much these past 30 days; do you realize how far you’ve come? Can you feel it? After all, it’s not everyone who can think in terms of Oneness and expansion for 30 days in a row (and by the time we’re finished…40!). It’s not everyone who can think about blessing all 7.125 billion people on the planet. It’s not everyone who is actively involved in uplifting themselves and all of humanity. Give yourself a pat on the back…or a hug!

Speaking of hugs…I spontaneously gave myself a hug this morning. Before I knew what I was doing, or why I was doing it, I had my arms around myself, telling myself, “I love you”. It was kind of weird because it was so out of the blue, and for no reason. Who does that???

It seems to me that this is evidence. One of my obstructions recently has been the impatience, the wanting to see results. I think, “Oh, yeah…show me…show me ‘perfect fulfillment of form, experience, in situations and events’…show me.”

I am aware there is difference between what I think I want and what the Perfect Spiritual Idea is. If I really KNEW the Perfect Spiritual Idea as my life, there would be no impatience, no wanting it a particular way; there would be just peace and going with the flow…so I do not KNOW it, really. I keep looking for It. I keep wanting to see that perfection in my life, which means I do not think my life is perfect, that I do not trust that things are exactly how they should be. And all of this is a clue to how I need to evolve, what I need to heal, things I need to work on: Trust, acceptance, relaxing (sound familiar?).

But then, out of the blue, I hug myself! And it’s real. I’m not just standing in front of the mirror telling myself “you are strong, you are beautiful, you are smart” to try to make myself believe it. The hug is because I AM strong and beautiful and smart and kind and loving and worthy of SO much love.

It was like a moment where there was no looking for it. There was simply being the expression of my Self as the Perfect Spiritual Idea of myself! What more evidence could there be?

But, dang my skeptical mind! I am actually hearing part of my brain saying that doesn’t mean anything. It’s not real. It’s not really evidence. There is nothing there; you still need to see something in the circumstances of your life–until that happens, I don’t believe it.

It’s amazing to me how patterns of self-sabotage work. Even when I consciously acknowledge the evidence, a part of me can be denying it at the same time. DILIGENCE. This is why I need to be diligent in confronting and denying the nay-saying part of my head.

I AM LOVE. I AM AWESOME. I AM WORTHY and WONDERFUL. I LOVE MYSELF. So there!

 

“Sharing Self, Choosing Love”: Journey of Purpose 2.0 – Day 30

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Guiding Thought

The world awaits our expression!  We are here to align with our purpose, participate with life, and share our Self. With each moment we spend cultivating our Own Loving Presence to be attuned with Inner Divine Mind’s expression, the more we encounter the Perfect Spiritual Idea in our life activities. We choose to be aware.  We choose to understand. We choose to Know. We choose Life!

 

Sharing

And again, today expression (action) corresponds with purpose. Being aware and understanding are the process by which we come to consciously know the aligning of action with purpose. There’s a lot here; let’s see if I can break it down a bit.

We are life. Every atom, molecule, electron that exists…every space between every electron is the energy of life. We are that energy, that energy is us. This is our Self. Life is our Self. This is why when we share our Self, we are sharing life (Love)–our True Self, our Whole Self.

We have no choice but to “participate with life”. But unless we consciously choose to be life, we do not know we are all of life. We think we are just this body, limited, separated from the rest of life. We must Choose life–every molecule, every space, every wave or particle as us.

What is tomorrow’s Guiding Thought? “There is a Perfect Spiritual Idea of Perfect Fulfillment.” And what is that? It’s the Oneness of Life. When everyone Knows the Oneness of life, there is the Knowing of Perfect Fulfillment. For, by, and within All.

We all have to do it; the Knowing must be in our actions. We all have to Know ourselves as the Life we are, in the active expression of that Life. Every one of us, all 7.125 billion of us. The Knowing must imbibe our actions; the physical must align with the purpose, which is the purpose of us all, which is to Know and be our Oneness, in Love, in Life.