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Guiding Thought
My Purpose is to awaken to the Truth within me and share it. The Truth within me–My Inner Divine Mind–flows constantly and purely. As I go deeper in my awareness, the current of this broadens, strengthens, and brightens. It fills me and pours forth. This is My Source, the Source of all my good, all my happiness, and all my abundance. I awaken to My Inner Divine Mind and invite it to express itself as every person and event that will increase my awareness of it.
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Enough of this gentle “awaken” crap. I want to just slap the shit out of being asleep and wake the hell up.
I’m a bit riled up today. I feel a bit angry, a bit impatient. Can you tell?
How am I supposed to encourage you to be the Truth within you and let your Inner Divine Mind flow, when I can’t do it for myself? Is this hypocrisy? Is it process? Am I being as authentic as I can be? What more can I do? Is there more to do, or is there just continuing? Am I only frustrated because I think I want something else? Am I standing in my own way? Is my mind my problem? Are old patterns and expectations my problem? Am I only impatient because I (think I) want something I have defined that is not aligned with God’s plan for me?
There are a lot of teachings that talk about the flimsiness of the illusion, the narrowness of the gap, the thinness of the veil (between the Real reality of us and the relative reality of what we experience). Sometimes (like today), it’s as though I can see how flimsy, narrow, and thin it is, but I just can’t get through it, across it. I know how absurd my anger and impatience are; I know this is just part of the process; I know I am the expression of My Inner Divine Mind…but I feel like my experience is not full, not what it’s “supposed” to be, not what I want it to be. And I don’t know if I should push and try to get through the veil, over the gap, or if I should just wait…patiently.
Easier said than done: Either way, whether I should push or wait, easier said than done.
SusanWithPearls 
Love your honesty! We all have days like that, and probably more often that we’d like to admit. But that’s just our conscious mind, our ego based, fear responses telling us it’s not right or how it’s meant to be. It helps me, on days like that, to let go of the ‘trying’ and to do more ‘being’. Let yourself off the hook for a day or two, and let the pushing subside. You’re exactly where you’re meant to be 🙂 With love, Sharon
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Thank you SO much for this, Sharon. You hit the nail on the head for what it “is” and what I “should” do… it’s nice to know that others get this way too, and that we all can encourage each other. Sometimes I feel like I get this way “too much” (especially lately), and that just makes it worse! 🙂 Love and light and peace and all good stuff to you!
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Hahah I know what you mean, and I do that too. Yes it does make it all worse, and then I usually need to take a break from all the trying and reset. Nothing like a real earthly physical experience to do that, like a big walk along the beach, or even drinks with friends, or going to the movies. Something non-spiritually intended I guess. Sending good vibes your way xoxoox Sharon
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