“It Was Just A Little Push”: Journey of Worth 2.0 – Day 09

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

I extend the Love that I am, for that is all I truly am. As I learn to be aware, to understand and to Know my own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, my life experiences become worthy of me. Expressing my Self that is wholly Love and united with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings me satisfaction, the only choice that allows me to experience my Self—the Love that I am. My-your-our freedom depends on my right choices, depends on my choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us.

 

Sharing

Often when I talk to two of my dearest friends in the whole wide world, we end up saying something to each other like, “Oh, my God, I am experiencing the exact same thing, but different!”

This just happened Wednesday. My dear friend was describing her non-stop life: working 12 hours each day, devoting evenings and weekends to building her family’s new house (the old house was destroyed in Hurricane Sandy). She and her brothers have to do all the work, because, while the house is 90% done, they’ve run out of money to pay laborers. She was describing feeling overwhelmed with responsibility, with obligation, with balancing time and money. The problem was not the work itself, or the situation; her obligations are to a family she loves, the work is a labor of love, she loves the job that keeps her occupied 12 hours a day. There was simply this feeling of this is a lot to handle. And I will be really happy when this is over. There’s a feeling of the weight of the responsibility and of getting everything done that needs to get done and having enough time and money to do it all under what feels like a very tight timeline.

“Oh, my God, I am experiencing the exact same thing, but different!”

It’s not the experience that’s the same, it’s the feeling: the weight of the responsibility and of getting everything done that needs to get done and having enough time and money to do it all under what feels like a very tight timeline.

I woke up this morning almost overwhelmed by this feeling; it’s been building for a few days now. Physically, when I get into an emotional funk, I find comfort in routine and familiar actions: making coffee, putting away dishes, cleaning counters. While I was doing these actions, feeling that feeling encroaching (I was doing a good job keeping it under control), I turned to my comforting spiritual routines and habits: Om Namah Shivaya. Think about God.

This morning, two ideas extended from the mantra and focus on God: a) devote my day to God. The day is only worth anything when it’s devoted to God in the first place. So, I did a little prayer of devotion and submission. b) “I place the future in the hands of God” –A Course in Miracles, lesson 194. I’ve done the lessons enough by now that they show up in the appropriate places, when I need them! I did a little prayer, placing the future in God’s hands.

These two things together set me on a good footing, but I still felt the earlier feeling, so I maintained the mantra in my head.

Then, wouldn’t you know it…I got pushed. Just a little bit, but it was enough to put me smack dab into that earlier emotion. The push was not something I normally would have had much of a response to, but today… You know how it happens when you are on the edge and all of a sudden someone says or does something…and it’s both exactly what you need and exactly what you’ve been keeping at bay? Yeah. That.

What was so good about this was, I had just devoted my day to God and placed the future in God’s hands. I knew it was ok. I knew that this emotion, now overwhelming me, was a tool set before me to move me for God, to God. Thank God for the people He uses as His instruments.

I started my meditation. This was the meditation I devoted to you (and the 7.125 billion people on the planet) in the Commitment and Dedication for this Journey.

While full of that emotion, I entered into a healing meditation for 7.125 billion people. There was a moment of feeling this isn’t right, I am not at Peace how can I meditate for others like this? Aren’t I supposed to be in a space of equanimity and love when I meditate?

But no. Being in the emotion was exactly right.

Do you know what I saw? On some level we all are feeling this. Just like I and my two good friends, we all are saying to each other “Oh, my God, I am experiencing the exact same thing, but different!” And on some level, I knew that this day, dedicated to God, was for healing that feeling for all of the 7.125 billion people.

I am here to tell you, all of that stuff stressing you out–too much to do, not enough time, wondering if you will have the money for…whatever-it-is…– it’s not WORTH it! What is worth it is appreciating the people you love, doing your best to be in God’s service, and giving the future to the hands of Divine Love. This is the only thing that will bring you what you are worthy of: God. Love. Peace. Acceptance.

Now, read the Guiding Thought again.

 

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