My worth is inestimable, beyond compare!
I always know I have everything to give—thus, I may always give freely! I know my worth, I give it; I give freely, and I Know in the giving!
As I give, I learn, allowing Joy and Peace to lead and to guide me. I follow willingly for I know: Where there is Joy and Peace, there is Love; where there is Love, I am; where I am, I am giving my inestimable worth.
HO! This Journey has not had a pattern like any of the other Journeys. I did NOT hit a wall in the first 14 days; I was pumped and feeling completed by the end of Round 3, and now…NOW… I am feeling totally, quite honestly, really annoyed and pissed off (yes, a reaction to something that happened) –something very unusual for me, and especially unusual at this time of the Journey.
So what do I do with this, this feeling? How do I get back on track? How do I clear my mind? How do I settle back into my Self, into my own sense of feeling Peace?? Argh! In this state, I must apologize; the Journey has gotten off track (which, on these Journeys… is still part of the Journey, the detour that takes me exactly where I needed to go and didn’t know it!)
“Allowing Peace and Love to Guide me”–that’s what I am (trying) to focus on now. Following my thoughts of Peace and Love; they can keep me on track, along with some appropriate music, Teeth by Lady Gaga, on endless repeat. (see below)
It was Richard Bach’s reluctant messiah who taught me to open a book to any page, read it, and see how it speaks to me at that moment. In this spirit, anything and everything can speak to me, at any moment–everything is a reflection, everything is my Self, everything shows me my Self.
In this spirit, I must ask Why this song? I thought I was putting it on because it’s got a good beat. But there’s more. It’s speaking to me. >REALLY????<
This is what Lady Gaga says about this song: “It is meant to mean two things, the first one kind of juvenile sexual provocative connotation is about oral sex, but also the monster in the song is fear of the truth. ‘Show me your teeth’ means ‘tell me the truth’ and I think that for a long time in my life that I replaced sex with the truth.”
Wow, I totally get it now; it has only repeated 15 times. Contrasted to the sexual lyrics are the lyrics about replacing religion (or, may I say “truth”?) with sex:
“Got no salvation
Got no religion
My religion is you…
No one’s perfect…
I just need a little guidance
Tell me something that’ll save me
My religion is you”
In the midst of sex, there is the insistence on “show me your teeth”, tell me the truth. By saying “show me your teeth”, the sex becomes like the reluctant messiah’s book: it becomes the reflection which shows the truth, it becomes the answer to the question that is asked, or the request that is made. You don’t get an answer if you don’t ask; if you ask, you get an answer, whether you like it or not.
OK, now we’re getting somewhere. What have I replaced truth with? It’s kind of like asking, “Would you rather be right or happy”? In my case, in this case, would you rather have >fill in the blank< or Peace and Love? What are my priorities? Where is my focus? What am I hiding from? What am I hiding behind? What do I think I am going to get from feeling annoyed and angry? What are those feelings replacing?
Now it’s repeated about 24 times…but who’s counting?
I do not have answers to those questions right now (but the questions themselves have advanced my processing of the situation). But I do have two thoughts in response:
1) A Course in Miracles says (paraphrased): it does not matter how big or small the disturbance. Every disturbance prevents the experience of peace. Just as there is no order of difficulty of Miracles (all miracles are created equally), there is also no order in the order of disturbance of peace: all disturbance of peace is equal. Either you choose to experience peace, or you choose the disturbance.
Sometimes the choice is not simple or easy. Sometimes emotions are just there and it takes effort to make the choice (like now, this). But it’s still a choice, either to go through the process to let those feelings go and allow Peace and Love, or continue wallowing in feelings that prevent the experience of Love and Peace.
2) One of the meditations that I do every day says this (paraphrased): Everyone has free will. Even when all of the blocks to Divine Love are removed, people can re-create their mis-creations by focusing on those mis-creations, rather than living in the standard of Divine Love.
It’s my responsibility. Maybe right now, right here, Divine Love has totally cleared all of my mis-creations, and is just waiting for me to turn my focus, my attention, my energy, my whole being to It, 100%.
It’s really all or nothing. Miracles or disturbances. I’m not there yet, not perfectly, not completely. Thank goodness I am not afraid to see teeth.
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“Teeth” by Lady Gaga