“I Epiphanied Myself”: Journey of Worth 2.0 – Day 37

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

I claim who I am, the essence of my Self, established in and by Love. My Self shines with the strength, beauty and power of its essence, Love. As I open to my Self, accept my Self, and Love my Self, the Life of Unity infuses all my activity and transforms my consciousness. Life as my Self renews my Joy and restores my trust in Life itself.



Sometimes it’s difficult to understand the meaning of “transforming consciousness”. What is consciousness, anyway? What’s more, sometimes it feels like there is so little change, or the change is happening so slowly, it’s difficult to tell if this spirituality “stuff” is working anyway, much less working in the way it’s “supposed to”–I get hung up on this a lot. How can I talk about what this stuff is, what Consciousness Journeys are, when I have trouble explaining it to myself?

I had a bit of a breakthrough this morning in this regard: I understand a bit better how to explain consciousness, how it applies to these Journeys, and how these Journeys are moving me into a “higher” consciousness. Here it is:

Some of the basic precepts of this Journey, and all of these Journeys, are 1) Love is all there is. 2) I am Love’s image, established in and by Love 3) because Love is all there is, everything is equal in Love; everything is One in Love 4) as I come to understand Love’s Oneness and Unity, my life opens to Love everywhere and in everything 5) when I realize Love is everywhere and in everything, I only want to approach all of life as the Love I am, as the Love it is.

Simply put, the more I am aware of this, able to understand it, and Know it, so that my life is Love and expresses Love, the higher my consciousness.

How do you know where your consciousness “is at”? –How much love are you aware of? Are your thoughts, words, and actions loving, kind, patient (compassionate, forgiving, etc.)? How much love is in your mind and heart? Do you see everything as One and Equal to you? Think about these things, and any more you come up with, on a scale of 1-10: How loving am I today? You’ll start becoming aware of where your consciousness is.

These Journeys increase your awareness and understanding of your own relationship with your Self and with Love. That’s why they are Consciousness Journeys. These are Journeys because there is always more–Love is infinite, regardless of where you are, there is further to go. Simply doing these Journeys raises your consciousness higher; it is what this process does, inherently. Every day, I am increasing how aware I am of Love’s presence within myself and in my life.

I had a very tangible understanding of how this works today. I’ll illustrate for you:

How do you think about someone who has “done you wrong”?

  1. I take revenge with self-satisfaction
  2. I take revenge, feeling justified in providing “karmic retribution”
  3. I ask God to take revenge for me
  4. I think vindictive thoughts of revenge, but do not act
  5. I think “what comes around goes around” and know that somehow this wrong will be righted
  6. I wish/pray for bad things to happen to the person who wronged me, and want that person to reap what s/he has sown
  7. I turn the other cheek, forgive and forget
  8. I think/pray for the wrongs to be transmuted with Love, and wish for any wrongs done to that person, by me or anyone else, be righted through Love.

Now, I’ve never really been a vengeful, vindictive person. But…I have thought that I want someone else to experience their karma coming back on them; at its worst, I have actually wanted to witness this, so that I could revel in watching another person “get theirs”.

In my mind, I would think, “This is the Law of the Universe, right? ‘As you sow, so shall you reap’, so I am not wanting anything for this person that isn’t rightfully theirs, or that isn’t part of the natural order. I just want the Universe to do what it does…” And thus, the whole idea of karma was neutral in my mind: I didn’t need to do anything, and if I wanted karma for another person, it was acceptable, because I wasn’t asking for anything other than what the Universe would do anyway.

Sometimes this was the highest I could get: Neutrality (or so I thought).

At other times, I have been very good at forgiving–or, I prefer the term overlooking, because it does not have as much [potential] self-righteousness. When I overlook something, I get to a place of choosing my priorities (for example, “do I want to be right or happy”); I get to a place of seeing a bigger picture, of not blaming or judging, and I am able to act and feel like “it’s all in the past”. Many times I have done this purely. But forgiveness can have its own baggage, in the form of feeling superior (or self-righteous), or internalizing/suppressing something so that I don’t deal with it in that person or the situation (and this can have some self-righteousness to it). So, depending on how purely I am able to bring True forgiveness to a situation, it may or may not be high- or higher-consciousness.

These two things, Karmic neutrality and forgiveness have been the “highest” I’ve been, pretty much. I thought I was doing really well.

It was just this morning, that I realized that H) above, is even higher in consciousness. Here’s why:

If I want karmic retribution for another, then, I am really wanting it for myself (there is no other, we are all One). Despite thoughts of fairness and laws of the universe, I am asking for Karma to come back and bite me in the arse, when my time comes. Why would I want that? Especially if there is another option?

With forgiveness, even though I come to a place of harmony through forgiveness, it does nothing to stunt the “negative” or to bring Love to it. It leaves that energy “out there”, within the vibration or energy field of the other person, their life, continuing to influence them, and thereby influencing all.

What I know through this Journey is that no one is free until we are all free. So, anyone else’s Karma is also affecting me; anyone else’s energy affects me too, whether or not I’ve forgiven or overlooked. We are all equal in Love; Love is all there is; Love is Unity; we are all One.

What do I want for myself? Love. To transmute and transform anything that is not like Love into Love, through Love. How could I not want this for another? And now I do.


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