“Where Did That Come From?!”: Journey of Healing 2.0 – Day 28

Copyright Tam Black 2016 Designed for susanwithpearls.com
Copyright Tam Black 2016
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

We decide today to be aware of our Whole and Holy Self working within us, expressing through us. As we move through the affairs of our lives, with an open mind and empty hands, we look first to our Whole and Holy Self for guidance. Our only decision today is to be aware of our Whole and Holy Self—all other decisions arise out of this, in conjunction with our Self.



Imagine what it would be like, if everyone on the planet decided today to be aware of their Whole and Holy Self, expressing through them.  What if you knew everyone around you was doing this? What if you could trust and rely on every person to look first to his or her Whole and Holy Self before making a decision?

At first, when I visualized this, I saw beauty. It was the beauty of effortless interactions, honesty, and openness, trust…All was bright, everyone was smiling, everyone was kind…but then…


Ohhh, there was a bit of a glitch there. All that beauty evaporated when I thought, “But how can I trust others? What if they don’t do what I want them to do?” Sometimes I really don’t like how honest I am here, with you! I didn’t even know I have “trust issues” and yet that is what came up/out.

Maybe it wasn’t so much an “issue” as it was a feeling like “the world is just not ready for this yet”. So many people are still so willing to trample the downtrodden to get what they want, to use/abuse/confuse others for their own personal gain, to lie, cheat, and steal to get ahead. I’m not ready to trust people in this world. And, I have to admit, some recent experiences have strewn distrust all over my inner-mind; it is something I am very aware of needing to work with, work through, and heal.

I was, however, a bit confused by my thought “what if they don’t do what I want them to do”. Where did that come from?! I am one of the most easy-going, relaxed, live-and-let-live people out there; I cannot think of the last time I had any hidden agenda for someone else’s behavior (generally speaking, my agendas are transparent!). I truly am perplexed by this. What is this?

Do I subconsciously want to control someone’s behavior? Am I taking on that characteristic because of the recent experiences of distrust I have been experiencing (which include someone trying to control my behavior)? Is there some experience from a 2-year-old Susan, which needs to be enlightened?

I am going to let it go. Maybe the whole planet “we” was just too much for me today. It’s never happened before, but I did feel overwhelmed with the idea of 7.125 billion people enacting the Guiding Thought today…

Now, I just went back and did the Guiding Thought again, reducing the “we” to just me and two people who I trust. I can do that. I feel much better about a smaller group of “we”.

“We” live as physical beings, in this 3-dimensional world. We interact with each other through our physical bodies, through personalities which express opinions, emotions, and desires. I am doing my best to elevate my own physical being and personality…and to be the highest expression of my Holy Self that I can be…with as many people as I can be it.