Divine Love-Light is the Source of All. It is all good, all God. This Source is always seeking expression through me. My awareness of my personal identity as this Source provides me with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.
I am feeling a lot of anxiety, trepidation, uncertainty, and doubt as I begin this Journey. The reason for this is because I have been working on something for a while now, and I am growing impatient with seeing (or not seeing) results. I know this is my mind getting in the way. I know this is “me” wanting to control things, make something happen. This is having expectation, thinking about the future, not accepting now. There is so much wrapped up in abundance, for a lot of people—and clearly for me. There are issues of worthiness, fear of failure, fear of success, issues of time, goals, purpose, happiness, care-giving, comfort, aging, and survival, speaking here for myself. I feel like there is something I need to just shift, like I am missing something, and if I would just get it, everything would change…so I keep trying to get it, I keep pressing at it, poking it, but that just pushes it away it seems. My mind wants to do it, to make something happen, to make the shift, but it does not know how.
The good news is, these are the “barriers within myself that I have built against it”, which I can now dissolve.
The mind can’t tell the mind to stop and step aside. Involving the mind to remove the mind only perpetuates the involvement of the mind. How does one stop the mind, without telling the mind to stop?
There was a man
who was so disturbed
by the sight of his own shadow
and so displeased with his own footsteps
that he determined to get rid of both.
The method he hit upon was to run away from them.
So he got up and ran.
But every time he put his foot down
there was another step,
while his shadow kept up with him
without the slightest difficulty.
He attributed his failure
to the fact he was not running fast enough.
So he ran faster and faster, without stopping
until he finally dropped dead.
He failed to realize
that if he merely stepped into the shade,
his shadow would vanish,
and if he sat down and stayed still,
there would be no footsteps.
(Traditional Zen story)
Step into the shade. That is going to be my daily reminder for this Journey.
Also throughout this Journey, you may see some of my personal drawings, like in Journey of the Heart. Drawing/coloring connects to the sub-conscious a bit more directly, or at least allows me to communicate with my Self in a different way. Here is the drawing that I did today, before beginning to write:
What struck me, as I listened to the Guiding Thought and colored was the part that says, “My awareness…provides me with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.” Awareness is what I focused on while coloring; that is the red around me and in front of me; that is what goes before me to provide infinite fulfillment and prosperity. When/if you do drawing/coloring like this on your Journeys, let your inner-child play. These are not meant to be “serious” or realistic. If you were a child drawing your heart’s desires, how would it come out? I was honestly a bit surprised that I drew a house to represent “infinite fulfillment and prosperity”. I’m not sure what that means. But that’s the point (no mind!).
Welcome to the Journey! I’m glad you are here.