“My Self Has My Back, Now if It Would Scratch…”: Journey of Abundance 2.0 – Day 33

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Guiding Thought

I fill my mind and heart with Love, aligning with the Light of Truth. Steadfast and focused on my own Loving Presence, I live in the peace of fulfillment of my own Divine Identity.



There are days when I like to dissect the Guiding Thoughts, breaking them down word by word to see what they are made of (so to speak). There are days when I like to read them somewhat superficially, repeating them without much thought. There are days when the Guiding Thoughts feel confusing and I feel like it takes a lot of effort to understand even the most basic phrasing. There are days when the Guiding Thought acts like a guided visualization and I see/experience the words. There are days when reading the Guiding Thought seems to open a channel within me and I can feel energy within me moving in a new or different way.

I am thankful that today the Guiding Thought felt like a guided visualization and helped me to shift my energy. Guided visualizations can be very effective, even if they are not done perfectly. I was not in any state to think about the Light of Truth, my own Loving Presence, or my Divine Identity perfectly today. It’s been a day of (I hate to admit) worry and anxiety—and I did not even realize it, until I did the Guiding Thought/Visualization.

After about 5 minutes of the visualization, I “saw” the state that I was in. I understood how unproductive, ineffective, and self-indulgent worry and anxiety are. There is nothing to do, there is nothing to think, there is nothing to want; there is nothing that my own Divine Identity can allow through me when I am not open to allowing Its Presence.

Interestingly: I just wrote about this process two days ago (though I did not talk about it as a process, nor did I put it in this order). 1) I was spinning. Boy was I spinning! And the thing is, I knew it, but didn’t really recognize it. I knew it, but I was not aware. 2) I became aware. Doing the Guiding thought gave me a contrast: it showed me what I was doing and gave me an alternative. The alternative gave me a choice: what kind of thoughts do I want?  3) I changed my thoughts with the help of the Guiding Thought. I did not have to. I could have become aware of what my mind was doing, without changing my thoughts. But, when the contrast is that clear, I see no reason to stay in an anxious spinning state of mind.

“This Ain’t no SECRET”: Journey of Abundance 2.0 – Day 32

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Guiding Thought

I choose to expand my consciousness and open my heart to Divine Love’s flow within me. Realizing my own Divine Presence, I know God as the Source and Fulfillment of all my good.


The big question is: Who or what is God? The Guiding Thought says God is the Source and Fulfillment of all my good…but what is that? What does it mean that this something called “God” is both Source and Fulfillment? What’s more, this something called “God” is the Source and Fulfillment of not just my good, but of your good, her good, his good, ALL good. What is “GOD”?

I know. This is not a new question. So many people have asked this question for soooo long! I said yesterday that everyone must find their own path to enlightenment; similarly everyone must find their own answers to the what is God question.

How do I do that, in my own way? Obviously, these Journeys. I also repeat different names of God (primarily Om Namah Shivaya);  I also ask God how I can Know him/her/it; I pray the Lord’s prayer of the Christian tradition; I think about the question , “what is God” (because if I am asking, I will receive an answer); I think about what I know of God: the trinity, the various names/aspects of God, symbols of God, etc.,  from many different traditions; I read from traditional texts (Bible, Shiva Purana, Sutras)  for clues; I read from modern texts (A Course in Miracles, Christian Science, Divine Revelations of Julian of Norwich, etc); I read about people and their experiences with God (mystics, saints, avatars, etc.) from all different traditions. In case you haven’t noticed, I am an equal-opportunity God-seeker.

No, I don’t do all of these things all of the time. That would be too much, even for me. But I would say I am always doing at least two of these daily. Yesterday, I also said that I love thinking, and I am happy to be the heavy-lifting thinker for you. I would say that I am willing to do the heavy lifting God-seeker for you too, except that I also think everyone must find their own answer(s). I’ll just share my insights as best I can, and intend only good will.

Recently, my thoughts on God have been about the Trinity: the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit from the Christian tradition, and the Shiva/Shakti relationship from the Hindu/Vedic tradition. Here is what I have been thinking, please note two things: a) I am not saying this is right, this is just my process b) this has to do with abundance because I am thinking about how we bring God into our lives, how we bring the abundance of God into our lives.

The basic idea is that God exists in both manifest and unmanifest forms. The Guiding Thoughts often hint at this, as in yesterday’s Guiding Thought, “This Source is always seeking expression through me.” The Source is the unmanifest; expression brings the Source into manifestation.

In Christianity, the unmanifest is known as “the Father”, the manifest is known as “the Son”.  The Holy Spirit is that which brings the Father into manifestation. The Holy Spirit is like the catalyst, the element that is necessary to activate “the Father” so that the Father may express Itself into manifestation.

The principle of Shiva seems to me to be similar to the idea of the Father. Shiva is known as “Pure Consciousness”—no form, no materiality, simply the energy of ALL. It is also known as the masculine principle. Shakti, then, is the feminine principle. Like the Holy Spirit, Shakti is what brings forth consciousness into manifestation. The earth—All of Creation—is the expression of Shiva/Shakti.

Here’s how it “works” in theory: Tap into the unmanifest, or Pure Consciousness, get on the same page, be clear about what form you want It to take; then call on the Holy Spirit/Shakti, and say, “hey, would you mind helping a brother out, bring this into manifestation for me?” and then… that’s it. Nothing to it.

But if it were that easy, we’d all have exactly what we want (maybe we do and we don’t know it?). I keep going, and keep asking the Big Question.

On a side note, I’ve been playing with my mantra “Om Namah Shivaya”. I know. Hard core Hindus would be appalled, I apologize, and I mean no offense… I’m just working things out in my own way. I’ve changed it in two ways, which I have been playing with and seeing how they feel. Way 1) “Om Namah Shivaya-Shakti” This should be self-explanatory, from what I’ve said above. Way 2) Om Namah Shivaya Swaha. “Swaha” is a feminine word and is sometimes associated directly with the Shakti principle; it also has a more subtle meaning that can be understood as something like release, as when a person releases something into a fire, or surrenders something to God. I keep all of this in mind, as I do my mantra.

I hope this has perhaps given you some fuel for your own thoughts, your own seeking, your own answers about bringing God’s gifts of abundance into your life. Swaha!

“Let the Listener Beware!”: Journey of Abundance 2.0 – Day 31

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Guiding Thought

Divine Love-Light is the Source of All. It is all good, all God. This Source is always seeking expression through me. My awareness of my personal identity as this Source provides me with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.


Day 31, welcome to Round 3! How are you doing? So far on this Journey, we’ve gone through the benefits of being still, how to overcome “financial slavery”, the Law of Increase, the constancy of Divine Mind, gratitude for small things, and life as a living-koan. Aren’t we done yet? With all that intensity of the first 2 rounds, I might have short circuited myself. It was day 21, the first day of round 3, where I noticed that I wanted to be in “coasting” mode. That certainly characterized most of round 3 for me—I definitely let the momentum carry me. Thank you, by the way, for helping me out—your effort during the last 10 days helped to carry me through. Whew. And here I am, ready to shift gears again. Let’s finish this.

One day Saraha asked his wife for some radish curry. She prepared the dish, but while she was doing so, Saraha entered a deep meditation, sitting in Samadhi for twelve years.

Upon emerging from his meditative state, Saraha immediately asked for his radish curry. His wife was astonished, “You have been in meditation for twelve years; it is summer now and there are no radishes.”

Saraha thus decided to intensify his practice and go to the mountains for meditation in complete solitude.

“Physical isolation is not a real solitude,” replied his wife. “The best kind of solitude is complete escape from the preconceptions and prejudices of an inflexible and narrow mind, and, moreover, from all labels and concepts. If you awaken from a twelve year Samadhi and are still clinging to your twelve year old curry, what is the point of going to the mountains?”

The first thing I thought when reading this was, “I wonder what radish curry tastes like?”

The second thing was, “that is some dedicated wife…”

The third thing was, “yeah, 12 years, I’d be asking for something to eat, too!”

And finally, “Wow, even Samadhi does not eliminate the attachments of the mind.” When he woke up, he was basically right back where he started.

I sometimes worry (sort of…) that I am too involved with my mind, because many of my practices are contemplative. You’ve seen me go through this with myself, thinking too much… worrying that I think too much. This is one reason that I engage my right-brain with drawing and coloring sometimes, why I do movement meditations, and why I bathe, breathe, and sit with fire —balance.

There are many paths to enlightenment, lots of ways to get there. Everyone must find the path that is right for them. I think a lot, it is part of my path; it’s right for me. Maybe you are not a big thinker, but you like ideas, so my path helps you on your path—I am happy to do the heavy-thinking! We all help each other.

Here are some thoughts about thinking (this is in contrast with the no-thought method, like that of Saraha):

  • Thoughts are useful, when a person strives to be aware of their thoughts, and to think the highest thoughts possible.
    • I’ve mentioned that I don’t listen to the radio or pop music much. Here is the reason I don’t. In my recent “coasting” state, I wanted my brain to relax, so I listened to the radio to and from work for several days. One day, this song came on: Problem by Ariana Grande. I had never heard the song before, but for almost 36 hours after hearing it on the radio, I had this in my head, I got! One less problem without ya! I got! One less problem without ya! I would catch myself “singing” this song in my head—WTH? I don’t want to think about having one less problem without the person I love in my life. Why is this song in my head? It’s NOT what I want. The mind is great at mimicry and repetition. Caveat Auditoris!
  • This means changing thoughts, when and where appropriate. As in the above example, when would become aware of these “problem” thoughts in my head, I quickly changed my thoughts to something nicer.
  • Spinning thoughts are not useful. Remember the mind is really good at repetition. Spinning thoughts are those that keep going in a loop. Often, they are thoughts of guilt-fear-blame-shame: I shouldn’t have done that… why did I do that?…ugh, I’m such a terrible person… oh, I hate myself for being a terrible person…I shouldn’t do that…
    • Spinning is like doing a 360 over and over in the same place. Eventually, you’ve dug yourself a rut, and even if you get out of the rut, it’s very easy to fall back into it. The spinning needs to stop! And the rut needs to be filled in, so that it is level, and you can’t fall back into it. When thoughts are looping like this, it’s enough to shift your thoughts to positive thoughts, like thoughts of Love and Oneness—this gets you out of the rut. Also work at healing the thoughts that got you there in the first place, let those thoughts go, ask for Diving Healing of your mind, and ask for help in cleansing and purifying lower-personality traits, characteristics, and thoughts. Only thoughts that evolve (or heal) bring you to the peace of mind to know that you won’t fall back into the rut.

I’ve never wanted to reach Samadhi (in this lifetime, anyway, I don’t know about other lives). I am not interested in “freezing my mind” in one point (and then waking up wanting radish curry). I would rather befriend my mind, gain its confidence, and teach it to work with me toward a higher, more loving way of being (and thinking!). For me, that is the point; that sums up the Journeys. Every Journey, I am teaching my mind to work with me through thoughts of Love and Oneness. I am calling down the highest Mind there is, and asking It to think through my mind, to be my thoughts, to guide my actions.

My mind loves the work, and it’s finally at a point where it does not resist (too much).



“Unfamiliar and Unworried”: Journey of Abundance 2.0 – Day 30

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Guiding Thought

The Divine Presence of Love is the most natural energy in the world and beyond. Through the wisdom of Love, we understand Love as True wealth and an expression of our Divine nature, to be cultivated in consciousness, expressed, and shared. Our Love is infinite. Our wealth is infinite. We realize this as our reality and circulate wealth with joy and gratitude.


To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.
-Ecclesiastes 3

I’ve been trying to wrap my head around what “season” I’ve been experiencing on this Journey. I almost don’t recognize myself. On these Journeys, I’ve told myself that I have to be the one who goes deep; I have to be the one who takes responsibility for change; I have to be the one to set the example. That has translated into research, a lot of thinking, and analyzing everything under my own personal microscope. Not this Journey. Am I letting myself down? Am I doing enough? Am I letting you down? By not really digging in, am I not living up to my own standard, am I standing still on the Journey?

I do have these questions, but they are not worrying me. After all, I am still on the Journey—I haven’t stopped, I’m still here, taking a step every day. It’s just new terrain and I am not familiar with it.

I’ve entered a “season” for some purpose. Maybe the purpose will be revealed later. I suspect that is the case. For now, I’ll just let my consciousness do what it does. This feels right. It feels natural, even though it’s unfamiliar. It feels like this is where I’m supposed to be, what I’m supposed to be doing.

All is well.

“Easy Going”: Journey of Abundance 2.0 – Day 29

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Guiding Thought

Divine abundance expresses infinitely through our own Divine Presence. When we identify with our Divine Presence, we open the floodgates and Divine Abundance flows naturally, easily, and effortlessly through us, materializing all good in our lives and affairs.


I spent 1991-1994, working for the USDA Forest Service, building trails in the wilderness of the Sierra National Forest (“Wilderness” is an official designation. It means an area in which motors or mechanized machines are not allowed. This includes things like wheel-barrows, chain saws, etc. All the trails we built were completely by simple tools and our own physical strength. Check out my first publication, on one of the projects we did here.)

I hiked in a lot of different terrain, under a lot of different conditions. Now, when I think about how I am experiencing a Journey, I usually have a type of terrain in mind. For the most part this is the type of terrain I think of:

Easy climb

The red arrow is a slow, easy climb. It’s definitely an incline, continuing UP, but the soil is easy to walk on, there are a few rocks around, but not too steep and no major hindrances or obstacles. (This photo is from the book the blue arrow shows where the old trail is, which is a steeper climb, with rocks in the way that make foot-placement difficult.) On most Journeys, I am on a path about like the red-arrow–always climbing, without too much trouble.

Sometimes, the Journey feels more like this:29 Rough terrain

This is terrain where it’s hard to get a foothold, the climb feels arduous, and I may ask, “is it worth it?” (You know what my answer always is…). Fortunately, when I am in terrain like this (calling out the skeptic, the doubt, the uncertainty), it usually only lasts a day or two, then I am back to “normal” terrain (like above).

This Journey, however, I am in new terrain. Here is what it feels like on this Journey, mostly:

29 smooth and easy

Smooth and easy! I’d say “sailing”, if it didn’t look so much like a desert! There is almost no incline, which makes it an easy walk, barely even a hike. The ground is uniform, so there is no need to pay a lot of attention to where I am putting my feet. I’m just going, one foot in front of the other.

When I was hiking, there would come points where the hike put me in a trance. I suspect it’s similar to what runners feel, when they go for miles and miles. There is just this peace, and innate understanding that you’re on the path, you’ll arrive when you arrive, and there’s nothing to think about, worry about or, do–other than put one foot in front of the other.

This is my terrain today, yesterday, the day before. One foot in front of the other.

“Willing to Cooperate”: Journey of Abundance 2.0 – Day 28

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Guiding Thought

We focus our minds and hearts entirely on the Divine Presence within. We think, we speak, and we act in accordance with Divine Will, releasing Divine Substance into all our activity, ordering all our financial affairs.



We don’t act in accordance with Divine Will in order to release Divine Substance. This would be trying to use Divine Will for our own advantage, trying to capture the power of Divine Will and putting it to use for ourselves.

If we did that, it would mean that we had some idea about what we want Divine Will to do for us, how we think it would best be used.

Do you see how that becomes self-negating? I can’t have an idea about what I want from Divine Will and use Divine Will toward my own ends. If I did that, I would not be following Divine Will; I would be following my own will, calling it Divine Will.

The activity of Divine Will—the releasing of Divine Substance—cannot be something I do, or try to do. Following Divine Will, and the subsequent release of Divine Substance, must come naturally, without any effort toward or attempt of control on my part. I am learning this, and it’s a balance: there is a subtle relationship and cooperation between me and Divine Will—I need to be involved enough, yet out of the way enough, to allow It to flow through me.

For example, if I focus on the Divine Presence within, with the intention of getting a promotion, with the intention of winning the lottery, or with the intention of getting my partner to finally do the thing that he or she never does which annoys me, then when I speak or act, even though I may be focusing on Divine Presence, I have still limited how I experience it. I have said, in effect, “I am going to be loving and kind, if it gets me >this<, and (btw) Divine Will, I want you to be open and flowing for me only if you do >this<. “

Divine Will wants to fulfill everything for you—what you can imagine and what you cannot imagine. In order to allow It to do this, one way of thinking about allowing Divine Will is to say, “I do not know what I am doing (I say this A LOT! “Forgive me Father, for I know not what I do.”), and I don’t know what is best for me, but I am going to move forward with >this< action. May my speech and actions be used by Divine Will for the highest, most expanded outcome of Love for all.” This is a much harder attitude to take, sometimes. It relies on trust, relies on surrender, relinquishes control; it asks you to accept that you do not always know what is best for you, and it asks you to listen to that higher part of yourself that DOES know what is best for you…

You do know. So does Divine Will. It’s a listening and cooperation thing.

“Hold on!”: Journey of Abundance 2.0 – Day 27

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Guiding Thought

Our consciousness is the gateway through which Divine Love flows, materializing our infinite Supply. We are now conscious of our own Inner Divine Presence—Infinite Love—expressing through us, providing us with the means to be aware, to understand, and to know It as our Self– more and more!



When I go to bed at night, I make sure that I have a thought of Love, or Oneness, or of God in my head as I fall asleep. As I drift through sleep stages, I do my best to maintain that thought, so that even in my unconsciousness, I can be conscious.

Here are some of the thoughts I use regularly:
I love you, God.
Thank you, God.
Om Namah Shivaya.
All is Love is All is Love is… (I’ve been using this one a lot recently, after I wrote about it a few days ago)
God is with me wherever I am.
I am beloved of God.

This is one way of keeping the gateway open and receiving Divine Love. Most of the time, I wake up very refreshed, and am able to begin my day in peace and harmony. Many times throughout the night, I can feel myself feeling the thought; I pull it into my heart, into my body, feel it with as much of me as I can, feel how the energy of thoughts of God affect me. It’s pretty cool.

Sometimes, I get flashes of realization…but of course, I am also pretty much asleep, so it’s like I get it, a part of me has this flash of awakening, even while the rest of me sleeps, and I have to really work at holding on to it when the rest of me wakes up! Sometimes I can’t hold onto it, sometimes I get one small phrase or word that I can remember, and it’s very powerful.

Of course, I’ve been working from an angle of abundance these past 26 days, so while I am asleep, the thoughts speak to me through the lens of abundance. As you know, abundance is more than money, more than material goods. Money and material goods are simply side effects to knowing True Inner Wealth: Love and Divine Love.

If I experience lack, the only thing I lack is a consciousness of my unity with God.

I forget that…a lot. I forget that God is really and truly all I need or want. That God wants me to remember Him/Her as much as I want to. My longing for God is God’s longing for me.

As I’ve been falling asleep the past couple of nights I’ve been thinking, “God, how can I KNOW you? How can I KNOW your Love? How can I KNOW my Oneness with you?”

Just yesterday, I was reading a sample of the Tony Robbins book MONEY: Master the Game, when I came across this, “The quality of my life [is] the quality of my questions”.  And I thought, “I think I have pretty high-quality questions!”  (Of course, my questions are not quite in the same vein as Tony Robbins’… but we have very different approaches so that’s no surprise.)

Last night, after asking my questions and falling asleep, at some point in the night, I thought this: EVERY situation is an opportunity to KNOW God, to KNOW Love, to KNOW Oneness with God. Corresponding with this, I saw/felt how every situation is an opportunity to KNOW God, to KNOW Love, to KNOW Oneness with God. That’s when I really get it—when I have a feeling/experience of a phrase or a word.

All of a sudden everything became an expression of Divine Love. I saw that if I can only recognize Divine Love in and through everything, that IS Knowing God, Knowing Love, Knowing Oneness. God is always providing us with the means to be aware, to understand, and to know It as our Self. Every person, every situation, every interaction is Love reaching out to you to know It through and as that person, situation, or interaction.

Then I drifted back into deeper sleep and woke up hours later, with a memory of a realization. At least I remembered it.  Hold on!