Welcome to Round 3!
If you’re new to this process, this is where “I” and “you” become “WE”! (See this page, under the heading “Four Rounds”, for more information about how the Guiding Thoughts change this round). If you’ve been here for a while, you know how this part of the Journey works…feel free to skip ahead to the Guiding Thought! 🙂
Divine Love-Light is the Source of All. It is all good, all God. This Source is always seeking expression through us. Our awareness of our personal identity as this Source provides us with infinite fulfillment and prosperity.
How have you been doing? Have you been intent and intense? Barely scraping out each day? A little bit of both? Doing the best you can, regardless? That’s all you need do!
In addition to my analysis each day through the contemplation, I always have an ear to the ground (so to speak) regarding my attitude, approach, intensity, and depth while doing the contemplation. I feel like I have been “coasting” for much of this Journey: somewhere, I reached the crest of a hill and now the wheels are turning effortlessly as I roll gently down and enjoy the wind in my face.
It feels like a mix of patience, surrender, and trust…allowing myself to go with the flow, without trying, without a lot of effort, without even (believe it or not) thinking too much–each day as I do the Journey, as I read and think about the Guiding Thought, I am “there” but I don’t feel intense, and, dare I say, I almost feel uninvolved.
And, (I don’t know what to make of this) I feel a bit uncomfortable about it.
Is it a “good” thing that I am coasting? Is it a “good” thing that “I” feel uninvolved? Is it a matter of “me” not-doing something so that the higher “I” can make sure everything is going how it’s supposed to go? Aren’t I “supposed to be” working at this? Of course, “working” implies effort and struggle, and didn’t I decide to give those up? So if I gave them up, then is this what it feels like to be patient and trusting? So many questions! Do you see how the skeptic has shifted from doubting the contemplation (in earlier Journeys) to questioning the process? Maybe that is a “good” sign?
Here’s my theory about all the discomfort:
The reason I am even doing these 40-day Consciousness Journeys is to expand my consciousness, to learn to experience life in a new (higher, more loving, more harmonious) way.
That means that there is a way of experiencing life that I do not yet know, that I have not yet done, that—in fact—I have absolutely no clue about. (Wow, when I put it that way, it feels a bit overwhelming and a little scary.) But, seriously…there is a life of love for me to learn…and that is what I am doing.
Experiencing new things can feel unfamiliar and thus (perhaps) uncomfortable (and sometimes scary).
But this is how I learn. I learn by encountering things I’ve never encountered before, and allowing myself to experience them, adapt to them (if I choose), and integrate them (if I choose). Learning is the same process, whether it’s internal or external—whether you physically travel to a new place, or take an inner journey.
Right now, I happen to be learning about Love…and Surrender…and Trust…and coasting. I am still doing the work, which means I am learning, which means what I am experiencing is what I am learning (seeking-finding), which means I must allow, adapt, and integrate…even if it feels uncomfortable.