What is fulfillment but knowing my Self as an expression of Divine Love? My Self wills to create! My Self wills to share! My Self wills to extend itself! My fulfillment is creation; my joy is sharing; my peace is extension.
Do you know how “they” say to be in the present moment? To be attuned to what is going on within you, and outside of you, fully? Have you ever gotten to a moment, looked back, then thought, “I totally was not present…”?
There are varying degrees to being attuned to the present moment, but once you accustom yourself to one of those degrees, anything less becomes noticeable—at least, if you want to pay attention (and if you know what I am talking about, you probably pay attention). I do this sometimes: I notice that I have “dropped” in my degree of awareness, but only after the fact. Or, maybe I should say, I notice the extent to which my awareness dropped; when I am in the moment, I feel a certain level of awareness but do not realize I could be more aware, then something jolts me into greater awareness. I suppose this describes simple ebbs and flows of awareness. Days 1 and 2 were ebbs.
I love today’s Guiding Thought. It has jolted me to realize how unaware, un-present I have been here for the past two days. I am not criticizing myself. I know the state I’ve been in, and it’s perfectly acceptable. I am also very happy about being jolted today and feeling real excitement with today’s Guiding Thought.
Today’s Guiding Thought is exactly how I feel, exactly what I want, exactly how I want to focus this Journey.
I’ve been working on understanding my relationship with Divine Love (“God”), although I have even a broader understanding of this now than I did a week ago. I’ve been working with the idea of worship as “drawing near to God”. If worship is drawing near to God, then every act, every breath, and every thought, can be directed as worship. With this act/breath/thought, may I come closer to God. All of this (life), is simply that: drawing closer to God and allowing God through me, so that I am still me, but I experience life with God, too. Oh, dear Lord, three things I pray: to see thee more clearly, love thee more dearly, follow thee more nearly…
When I am with God in this way, God wants to create through me, “My Self wills to create”. A Course in Miracles calls this “a continuous line” of creation. God creates through me, so that what I create is actually God creating through me, as me. What I share or extend in this process is God coming through me. When God comes through me, with His Will, that is an act of creation and God is fulfilled through me in this relative time/space. That is how I am able to find Joy and Peace in relative space/time: through fulfilling God, through me, drawing always closer to His Will. And that’s what I want.