Is this IT?– Journey of Gratitude 2017, day 11

Round 2, welcome! How have things been going? Are you beginning to see/feel connections between Love and Gratitude? Gratitude and Joy? Joy and Oneness? If not, no problem. Life has plans for you, and gives you what you need when you are ready for it. Keep going.

This round, for those of you new here, we switch things up a bit. See this page for a bit of an explanation, under the header ‘Four Rounds” (or not, it’s not complicated or anything, but maybe your brain would like to have some understanding before proceeding…).

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Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Remember your Self and recognize the Love within you, the Love you are. See this Love as all you are and all there is, the reality of you, the reality of me, and the reality that is the Life of All. Honor this Love and this Life, and offer gratitude for Its Being. What Joy there is in Being!

Reflection

Everything is a blur. I feel like everything, including me, is moving really really fast. The thing is, I am keeping up, but I don’t know how, and I don’t know where I’m headed. Imagine being George Jetson on the treadmill, but never falling, just always being at that point where you’re running really fast to keep up (take 12 seconds, go’head):

That’s how I feel.

But at the same time, I feel completely OKAY. It’s such a juxtaposition. At any other time in my life, if I felt like I were running really fast to keep up, I would be making lists of all the things I have to do, what I need to do to prepare and organize, all my goals; I’d have anxiety about getting it all done. I would be worried that I’m not doing enough to feed my mind and heart. I would be worried about how I was handling personal and professional relationships; I would be trying to figure out the psychology behind my interactions.

Even though I am feeling movement all around me (within me!), my mind is surprisingly quiet. “Things” are just happening, or rather, I am doing things, without feeling like I am doing anything. I’ve never quite experienced this before.

I Love. I am Thankful. I am Joyous. I am Alive…I am Love. I am gratitude. I am Joy. I am Life!

How do I know? Things I am accustomed to have disappeared, or they come very briefly, then disappear. Anxiety has disappeared. Thoughts about “that contrary situation” have been silent. Wanting to plan and get shit done has disappeared. Wondering what the future holds for me has disappeared. I haven’t been thinking.

But shit has still been getting done, smoothly, effortlessly. It’s the wanting, and all the thoughts about how to that are gone.

There has only been one (seeming) downside to not thinking: I was a mile away from home this morning, on my way to work, when I realized it was Martin Luther King day, and I did not have work. We had a good laugh about that when I got back home.

And, another thing about this–whatever is going on with me–I am so in love with people, in a way I have rarely been in all my life. People are amazing. YOU are amazing. Look at yourself, feel your body, feel your SELF. WOW. No one is like you, no one can ever be like you. You are such a gift! I am SO happy you are here, that I have you in my life in this small way. You enrich me, just by being. Thank you!

I have been feeling this way about lots and lots of people! Just Wow.

Is this IT? Is this remembering myself? Is this being Joy? Is this being Life? Is this what I’ve been talking about and working toward?

Whatever the case, let my joy and love carry my gratitude for All to All!

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