Today is about the ups and downs of emotions and enlightenment. World. Heaven. World. Heaven. World. Heaven. More Heaven. Thank goodness. But then world again. Today, a lot.
When we are aware of our Self of Love, we see the world through new eyes. Love is the Source of all we see, all we experience; it is the very activity of Life itself. We place our faith in the principle of Love and receive with gratitude all our experiences.
I am Love.
When I had that thought early this morning, it was a thought about God, as though God was saying, “I am Love”. For my whole life, whenever I’ve thought about God, It’s “that guy ‘out there'” (I was raised Catholic…you know God is an old guy with a long beard, right?) or some other “highest divine good”, but still out there. For much of my life, I have envisioned God outside of myself. Even when I think about the Divine within, even when I think about God being in my heart, in my mind, God is still out there, primarily.
Such entrenched habits are hard to break. This is one area, in my opinion that the cliché of unpeeling the onion really fits. How many layers are there before really realizing that God is within, abiding, residing, filling, overflowing? I get close, but with every approach, I find more layers. Each approach opens my eyes, opens my heart, opens my mind–I am certainly not complaining. But with an infinite God, the approaches and layers are also infinite.
I am Love.
For the first time ever, this morning, I thought to myself, “I thought that thought. God did not think the thought, ‘I am Love’, I did. Then, only after I thought that thought, I referred it to God….But wait. If God is Love, and I am Love, then God did think that thought.”
It’s a bit confusing, isn’t it? Sometimes it’s so hard to put into words what I’ve felt or seen or experienced. Think about it this way: Imagine God (however you imagine God), gazing lovingly down (or up or across) at you, and saying to you, “I am Love”. Feel ALL that Love coming from God, pouring into you, palpable, accessible. Then realize that your thought about God is YOUR thought about God, and all that Love that you are feeling and imagining is inside your own head. Feel what you are capable of! The depth and fullness of your own love!
I’ve been going between this kind of feeling and understanding, and being really frustrated and impatient with the world. I seem to have a well-anchored center, but my experiences, and how I see the world, have really been on a yo-yo string. I have long moments like the one I just described, feeling love, feeling loved, wanting only love, to see only love…and then I access media and see arguments and hostility and snide remarks and oh! You know.
I am thankful that I am peeling away the layers and accessing more and more of infinite Love, but I still feel a long way from receiving with gratitude all my experiences.