I am safe in Divine Love’s assurance. I have the courage to face the ignorance and illusions within myself and root them out. I allow the Light of Love to enter my mind and heart. Divine Love shines within me destroying anything false, transforming me from within.
Just about two weeks ago, on Day 16, I said this:
I also think the popular Marianne Williamson quote gets at one layer of it: “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” Only, I would not say I am afraid to Know my Christ mind. Rather, I am learning to Know my Christ mind…
Today, I take it back! I retract this statement that claims I am not afraid to Know my Christ mind. No, wait, I retract that retraction. How can I say that I am afraid to Know my Christ mind?! Which is it? Oh, the confusion! What is going on?
I guess I should explain.
I have been working with the word accomplish lately. Accomplish is such a great word. It means doing something. Completing something, finishing something. I really get this from a spiritual-metaphysical standpoint, hell, I accomplish a spiritual journey every 52 days–dayam. I even get it from a material standpoint–I accomplish a whole bunch of stuff at my j-o-b, and at home. But when it comes to accomplishing something in the world, as an expression or extension of my spiritual-metaphysical Self, (today anyway), I turn into a sniveling, cowering, coward, wondering what I am doing, and who do I think I am for trying to do it!?
So, I realized that (today anyway), where I am in most need of courage is in accomplishing real-world things as expressions of my spiritual self. Let me tell you, concretely, what happened, so you can laugh at me (don’t worry, I am not yet laughing at myself, but I know how absurd it is, so I probably will be as soon as I get over my embarrassment, my silliness): I sent an email. That’s all. But. It was an email that was a huge step for me (you know how much I like my baby steps). It was an email to a spiritual leader requesting a meeting, and a possible conversation about a possible collaboration. Huge step. Sniveling and cowering was not an exaggeration. But I did it, and I did it, with a mind of feeling safe in Divine Love’s assurance (no attachments, no investment, just peace and service).
Why was this a huge step?
Why was this a huge step?
It’s not that I feel afraid of being judged. It’s not that I feel afraid of being rejected. It’s not that I feel like I’ll be laughed at (you may have noticed, I do that to myself often enough).
It is that this was a step in bringing forth more Spirit, more Soul, more Love, more Light from within, out to the world. This was a step that I can feel is aligned with my higher purpose. It’s a step that removes the bushel from my light of the world. And that feels scary. And that’s why I retracted what I said about the Marianne Williamson quote. It’s not an exact parallel, but currently, my “deepest fear” is not that I am inadequate, but that I have an amazing light to share with the world… and I just took a step to accomplish that.