All is well…despite…: Journey of Courage 2017 – Day 39

Whew! Just one day left now. I am at an unusual place for this stage of the Journey (i.e. almost done). Usually around day 36, I am resolving, wrapping up, noticing all the connections, having Ah-has all over the place. But not this Journey. You’ll see…


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Guiding Thought

I accept my light and my lightness! I feel my Self expand! As I perceive change around me, I remain anchored in my Being of Light. I allow myself to sit peacefully in the still place of nothingness as life moves quickly around me.


There are so many levels and layers that these Guiding Thoughts work on: conscious, sub-conscious, super-conscious, heart, mind, body, emotions, spirit…and all of the combinations of ALL of those.

Sometimes I can feel myself responding more emotionally than anything else, but that does not mean that spiritually or mentally, things aren’t changing or shifting as well. Likewise, if I understand something consciously, there are probably also sub-conscious or super-conscious connections being made as well. I really believe this: that the Guiding Thoughts “work” on me to evolve my consciousness, in exactly the right way for my highest spiritual development, whether I know it or not.

This, in my humble opinion, is what makes a practice a practice. The practice evolves you when you simply do the practice. For example: Breathing is a practice. When someone, anyone, does a breathing exercise as a routine, committed practice, that person is evolved through the breathing. Yoga is a practice: The body/mind change (evolve) when yoga is done daily. Prayer (or chanting, or mantra, or kirtan) is a practice. When performed regularly, it has a tangible affect on the body/mind/spirit.

There are, of course, ways to make the practice more effective: by bringing more awareness or attention to the practice, by affirming an intention or a specific mind-frame before performing the practice, or by committing to a certain goal through the practice.

Here is why I am writing all this about practice: because I’m not “feelin’ it”. Yes, that’s right. I haven’t “felt it” for about 10 days. Or, maybe I should say, “it” comes and goes, but mostly has been gone. I do the practices, but my “heart isn’t in it” or I feel very superficial, or I feel like “nothing is happening”. These feelings though, I may point out, are more hopeful and positive than (for example) active resistance, despair, or even “just not wanting to”– all of which I have felt at other times in my life.

My explanation is that the practices, my commitment, devotion, and intention, are all working on me on a level where I am not consciously aware.

I love my practices (this is not the only one I have/do). I love how my practices keep my mind on the right track, my emotions balanced; how my practices pull me back when I reel out of control or spin. I have enough experience with my practices to know that this feeling…this “superficial, my heart’s not in it, there’s nothing happening” feeling, is absolutely fine. It’s all just part of the process, all just part of the Journey.

Though I must say: I do look forward to feelin’ it deeply, with strength and power once again.

Processing “Creation”: Journey of Courage 2017 – Day 38

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Guiding Thought

I allow myself to connect with my pure Inner Divine Heart of Oneness. I am aware of the expression of the Divine Heart through me, as me. I connect with my heart, and am aware of embodying its pure Love intention for All.  I am filled with Joy as I embrace my heart’s Love.


What are thoughts? Or, perhaps more to the point: are feelings thoughts? Are memories thoughts? Are physical sensations, like a gut instinct, thoughts? When people talk about thought being creative, what does that mean? Are thoughts generative? Do they have energy and power?

I do have some thoughts on this. I wonder a lot. I look for information and answers to my questions. I experiment. I practice. I observe.

What I am seeking currently is understanding the correlation between thought and manifestation, or more accurately, the correlation between spiritual thoughts and manifestation. Spiritual thoughts are those thoughts in the intangible realm–thoughts that the mind can conceive, but that do not have an immediate material corresponding reality–thoughts like Oneness, or Infinity, or Joy. How do these thoughts create reality; how do I recognize the manifestation of a thought of Oneness? You can see this is different than thinking, “I want a new TV”, and having a new TV given to you from out of the blue, or the like.

I know we can create material reality. There are lots of books out now about the law of attraction, about how to manifest, etc. What I want to know is how to create with the Divine, to know that what comes to me in material reality is manifesting from the highest, most loving, most  harmonious, most unifying thoughts. If I were to think, “I want a new TV”, I don’t Know that a new TV is the highest manifestation for all beings, all Life.

OK. You know by now that one of the purposes to the Journeys is to expose those underlying thoughts and impressions that may be “in conflict”, or may be less-loving, or “ignorant”. I have to tell you, that behind my writing today there are multiple little voices, virtually yelling at me, about how silly I am about all this. One of the most coherent voices is saying, “Everything is of the divine–you are creating separation, simply by saying there is a difference between material and spiritual manifestation”. And, there are other voices, less distinguishable, which feel like they are figuratively hitting me over the head, trying to show me something that I am not getting. So, this is good. Those thoughts/feelings are coming up and out, bubbling to the surface, so to say, so I can hear them and understand how I need to shift and transform them.

I know/feel that this is much more simple than I make it out to be. I have complicated it.

And, for your reference: what started this today was this sentence of the Guiding Thought:  I connect with my heart, and am aware of embodying its pure Love intention for All. This sentence feels comforting and relaxing–I can rest in peace, knowing that my heart is in charge, that everything I manifest comes from pure Love intention. I can have the courage to create anything, in any way, because everything I do comes from pure love intention. I don’t have to fear what I create. I can trust it. I can have the courage to explore, experiment, and try stuff, because ultimately it’s all about Love. And this is how I want to proceed.