Creation Happens: Journey of Creation – Day 10

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Guiding Thought

There are no degrees of Love. Love is Whole, Full, and Perfect. Love in action is Creation; Love’s creations are Whole, Full, and Perfect. When I express Love, I am being creative in its Truest sense. Creativity is Love in action, and produces activities, relationships, and experiences which are Whole, Full, and Perfect.


Imagine, if you can, all your life activities flowing perfectly: every event and interaction fitting perfectly together, everything you could possibly need, want or desire arriving before you are even aware that you need, want, or desire it.

There you are, in the middle of your life, watching the most perfect, synchronous, elegant, beautiful dance happening all around you.

This corresponds with yesterday’s reflection: creation happens. I do not make creation happen, nor do I actually create anything. Creation is Love’s natural expression. When I allow Love, all of Love’s perfection, wholeness, and fullness is freed simply to do what it does. All I need to do is maintain my awareness of Love, and continue to provide the vehicle for its expression.

How practical Love is!

I can feel how beautiful and easy life becomes when Love leads or is in control. Everything makes sense, everything has a purpose, and everything is part of a bigger picture.

It’s not that “bad things” don’t happen (but they do become greatly reduced, in my experience); it’s that all things are seen with new eyes, the eyes of Love. The perception changes and those “bad things” have a new context, surrounded now by a higher purpose, and an understanding of its Oneness with All.

Love does not see the “bad thing”. It sees only the beautiful Soul beneath the “thing” (even if it is not “bad”), and reaches out through Itself to aid that Soul on its journey.

This is how Love is both the Journey, and its end. In Love, we are all perfect, whole, and complete (tip o’ the hat to Louise Hay), but our perceptions (not Love’s!) limit how we experience that Love.

The more we free our perceptions, and allow Love to flow through us, the more that Love can reach out to Itself through our activities, relationships, and interactions. In doing so, Love strengthens Itself in our perception, and in the perception of those we interact with. Until…slowly…we all reach 100% full total awareness-understanding-Knowing of the Whole-Full-Perfect Love we are.

How fun!

Gravity-induced Sling Shot of My Mind: Journey of Creation – Day 09

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In the Light of Truth, perceptions and non-reality dissipate as fog in the sun. Only Truth is True. When I am aware of my reality in Truth, I understand how flimsy and meaningless are my perceptions. Only the Oneness of the Knowledge of Truth brings Peace.


What if I have it backwards? What if  creation is not doing something, but undoing something?

For all this time–pretty much my entire life–I’ve thought that creation is putting mental and physical energy into making something happen. What if creation is really withdrawing mental and physical energy from certain things and allowing what’s underneath to be exposed?

I exist in Love. Love is Perfect. What can I add to Love? What can I create that Love has not already created?

“Perception seems to teach you what you what you see. Yet, it but witnesses to you what you taughtIt is the outward picture of a wish, an image that you wanted to be true.” (A Course in Miracles)

What if everything I make, which is everything I perceive, simply shows me what I already believe, or want to believe, “an image that I wanted to be true”?

Is this what is meant by “thought is creative”? I perceive only what I am already looking for? My world and my experiences are preaching to the choir, and I am the choir.

Here is the lesson for me today: there is a difference between what make or create, and what Perfect Love makes or creates.

The first is my reality, constantly sling-shotting around the gravity of my mind: My mind sets energy in motion; that motion makes something happen in the world; as the energy comes back to me, like a spaceship or shuttle using a planet’s gravity to change its trajectory, back in the opposite direction–back to me, I then see this “spaceship” (the energy that I originally put out) coming back to me, as though independent of me or anything associated with me; I take it in, thinking it totally validates what I’ve been thinking (because it is what I’ve been thinking), feel validated, and send it back out to sling shot once again back to me. So really, it’s all just in my head, a spaceship sling-shotting around two planets, getting nowhere.

I have to stop that inertia. I have to stop the trajectory and momentum of my mind. I must deny validation to those things I perceive, which are not Perfect Love (“reality”).

I must find where Perfect Love resides in me (mind? heart? emotions? void?), and become the spaceship which is on Perfect Love’s trajectory. I can ride the Perfect Love momentum, and just see where it goes.




Facta non Verba: Journey of Creation – Day 08

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What do I value? How much do I value it? When I clarify these questions, I establish the value of my goal. I then consciously bring this value to all my thoughts and actions, measuring my behavior against the criteria set by my values. The means for accomplishment reveal themselves as I clarify my intentions.


Corresponding questions are: What do I say I value, and how do I actually behave? Where do I place my time and attention–in things/actions that support what I say I value, or not? How do I tell how much I value something, other than through how much of my time-energy-attention I give to it.

Actions, not words. If you want to know what you value, keep a diary of how you spend your time. If you say you value starting your own business, but spend 8 hours a day watching TV, what is your priority? That, obviously, is an extreme example, but you get my point.

What do I value?

  1. I value my relationship with God.
  2. I value my relationship with myself, and my Self.
  3. I value my relationships with family and friends.
  4. I value taking care of myself, my home, and my family emotionally, financially, physically (health), and spiritually.

You can see that relationships matter to me. And you know what? Just about all my time-energy-attention is spent on these four things. A close fifth thing is:

5. Building/creating a next career/business (this may also fall under numbers 1, 2, and 4 above).

That priority has a lot to do with why a Journey of Creation. But I guess I had not thought about it in these terms until now.

Interestingly, the order I have listed is about correct in regards to where and how I spend my time and energy. That means that I spend the least amount of time and energy on building/creating a next business/career.

I’ve just had a bit of an insight.

I am very metaphysical; I am; I claim it; I like thinking, and approaching problems and tasks from a mental/ideas perspective. But I am also very practical…or at least this is what I tell myself.

And yet, I can see that I spend the least amount of time on the practical steps of building/creating a next career/business. Even though today I spent about 4 solid hours on it, it was the first substantial time I have spent at it in about two weeks.

All of my other values (1-4 above), I spend time daily in activities related to accomplishing them.

For number 5, what I say and what I do are different.

I am now aware. I can now take steps to become more consistent in what I say and what I do, regarding my business and career. Thank you.

Positive affirmation: Journey of Creation – Day 07

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I use my free will joyfully to create the good, the beautiful, the Holy, and the Perfect. This is appropriate use of my mind and will, and directly in-line with Perfect Love. As I experience my Holy creations in my life, I strengthen my conviction to Truth, and to my ability to co-create with my Divine Self.


Do I?
Do I use my free will joyfully to create the good, the beautiful, the Holy, and the Perfect?

I would like to think I do, but as soon as I read that line, I did not know if the statement was a fact or an ideal, a hope, an optimistic goal that I am moving toward, but have not yet achieved.

I think it is both, in the sense of both being and becoming.

My Source is perfect love; I was created with and by perfect love, as perfect love. Therefore even now as I type, as imperfect as I am, I am still perfect in Love’s image.

I have not, however, always used my free will to create in Perfect Love, with Perfect Love, as Perfect Love.

I have not always trusted Love, have not always thought Love had my best interest in mind, or that Love really understood what I needed. Sometimes I thought I could do it better than Love could, so I used my free will to do it my way. I could not always wait for Love’s outcome. Sometimes I was in a hurry and wanted faster results, so I forged ahead without Love.

Love created me perfect, and with love I have the ability to create the Perfect. But I must use my free will to choose to create with Love.

This is how I am both being–perfectly created in Love–and becoming–learning to make choices to create wholly with and in Love.

This is the type of affirmation that I can work with. It both affirms something I believe to be true about myself, and it tells me what I need to do to demonstrate those truths to myself, which in turn validates the affirmation.

In My Own Interest- Journey of Creation – Day 06

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When my mind and will are free, they recognize only truth. My mind and will are free in the Knowledge of union with Perfect Love. When I am in the state of One Mind and Will of Perfect Love, I create freedom and truth for myself and All.


What do I really want? Why is creation important to me?

Why is creation important to me?

It’s not about power, or about demonstrating “what I can do”… It’s not about what I can get, or how much more I can do or have than someone else. It’s not about wanting anything specific, or wanting something different than what I already have.

The answer feels more simple than any of that: I want to create and to learn to create because I can. Just because.

What is new and important is: I want to do it right.

We are all powerful creators. You already know this about yourself, probably. We are constantly creating: Our minds-thoughts-energy all become expressed through the vehicles of our bodies. We live in a world of that expressed energy, which returns to us to be perceived (again) in our minds, interpreted as thoughts, and re-expressed through our bodies as actions.

When I say, “I want to do it right”, all I mean is that I want the energy I express to be fully Love and loving, or as the Guiding Thought says, of One Mind and Will as Perfect Love.

The energy which sustains me from Source is already Pure Love. Thus, 100% of that energy inflow is Perfect.

But I am not perfect.

That energy becomes distorted through my imperfections. When I express distorted energy, what comes back to me is also, necessarily, distorted.

Then I have a choice: purify that energy before I “distribute” it again, or not.

If I choose to purify it (release anything unlike Love), I may succeed at 1% purification or 100% purification. The more pure I can make myself and my energy, the easier it will be to do it again, the next time that energy returns to me.

If I choose not to purify the energy, it comes back to me again in the same impure state it was when it left, perhaps with added impurities picked up from energies it encountered, and mixes again with my own distortions, then goes back out even less pure than when it came in.

It’s in my best interest to do the best I can to purify (release distortions, release anything that is not Love), as much as I can.

This process (choosing to purify) increases the percentage of Love that I am expressing in my energy-actions.

Since Love is the only real creative force, this increases the amount of real (True) creations in my world, and in my experience.

Freedom in this sense means both freedom as Love, in Truth, and freedom from distortions (or projections of or by fear).

What life do you want? Journey of Creation – Day 05

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Perfect Love, the Source and Truth of my Self, imbues me with the will to create with Love. I am able to create through my own free will, extending Perfect Love.  Loving creation was given freely to me; I give freely my own loving creation. I Joyfully create through Perfect Love, with Perfect Love, as Perfect Love.


A Journey of Creation would be incomplete without a practical application, would it not? So far, then, this Journey has been incomplete, as I have not talked about how I want to use what I learn, applied to my life.

So here it is:

I am working on creating a life I love. I am working on creating, as the Guiding Thought suggests, through Love, with Love, and as Love.

I currently think (and this is a relatively new thought for me–it has only been in my head since I started this Journey) that I can use my free will, fueled with Love, to create anything I want.

The thought I held prior to this new thought is that I must “align my will with God’s”, and then God’s Will will be manifest through me.

But now, I am thinking that God wants me to use my free will creatively. CREATE-ively.

It’s not about “What does God want?”, but rather, “How do I want to express Perfect Love?” “What unique way can I experience Perfect Love?” “What can I do in my own life to feel and embody more Perfect Love every day?”

I do have some experience with this. Do you remember what I wrote about my year in Denmark, and how it was one example of creation in my life? That year, I felt so much love in general, love for life, love for everything that was going on, I am now pretty certain that I was doing what I am talking about, creating a beautiful life-experience with, through, and as Love.

What is this life I want to now create? What is a life that I can love fully? What experience do I want to have which will bring me an experience of beauty, joy, and freedom?

There is nothing specific right now that I “want”. It’s more general than that, and much bigger. I want an entire life filled with Joy, Beauty, Love, Freedom, and Peace. I want a life I Love, so that I wake up every morning in love with life, in Love, in Life. I want a life that increases the Love I have to give and share, so that I can give and share endlessly, and it only feeds the original love. It’s possible, here, now.

Creation, not attraction: Journey of Creation – Day 04

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In Perfect Love there is no lack, only complete abundance. Perfect Love is Perfect Fulfillment. When I am aware of my Oneness with Perfect Love, I have everything; I am everything. With a mind fully aware of its own Fullness in Perfect Love, I have perfect faith in my creations, as they are of the same mind as Perfect Love.


Checking in: I have been doing very intense practices since the beginning of this Journey to release my ego, and increase my dedication, devotion, and commitment to God. SO much stuff has been coming up. I have felt: lost/in an identity crisis/angry/cranky/irritable/belligerent/stubborn/indignant/righteous… whiny/wanting my own way/wanting childhood pleasure-foods and simple childhood pleasures (like going to a petting zoo)… and this is just the past 24 hours.

Mind you, I have not been acting out…much, but I feel it, and can watch myself wanting to act out. Tam did take me out on a spree today, to satisfy my inner child with fun, beautiful colors and things, yummy food, and comforting deserts. I feel better now.

The point is: remember that when you do these Journeys, when you make a commitment, and give the dedication, you are inviting a new frame of mind which brings with it new experiences. If “you” are not ready for those new experiences, then you are also asking to become ready for them, which can mean getting rid of stuff that no longer serves the new vision you have for yourself. Be prepared for some stuff to come up. Recognize it. Observe it. Love it. Release it. If you aren’t sure how to do that for yourself, talk to your local healer, shaman, guru, spiritual teacher, or wise friend. You’re also welcome to take a look at my page on spiritual practices, or contact me.


So many people today are driven to “create” because they need or want something. What do I need? What can I get that is better than what I have? A new car? A new job? A new relationship? A trip to Hawaii? I can have anything I want, and all I have to do is magnetize it to myself! Viola.

I admit, I have gone through this myself, but it never quite felt right. Here’s why: If I believe that I was created by Love, with Love, for Love, then I am already fully Love, loved, and lovable. If I believe that I am  already fully Love, then I must also believe that I already have everything. Anything that I think or do which indicates that I need anything other than what I already have contradicts what I say I believe.

So I have to monitor very carefully that I choose thoughts and actions that support what I say I believe, rather than denying that I already am and have everything I could possibly want. This is not easy, but I have been practicing it a long time.

Today’s Guiding Thought is not about magnetizing or attracting anything.

It is about confirmation:

  • I am One with Perfect Love.
  • Perfect Love is Perfect Abundance (that is, abundance of all things, including Peace, Harmony, a beautiful, healthy body, all the material things I need to support the life of this body, etc)
  • In Perfect Love’s Perfect Abundance, I need not; I want not; I AM.
  • Only in this place of Knowing my own Perfect Fulfillment, can I create a continued Perfect Fulfillment. (If I create from the perspective of my mind; if my perspective is  of lack or limitation, I will create lack or limitation).

Hand-“I” coordination: Journey of Creation – Day 03

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I choose only to create with Perfect Love. Since Perfect Love is all I AM, and all there is, I accept Perfect Love as the only Source for all my creations. I project Perfect Love outward, shining with inner radiance.


Checking in: I feel a bit better today about all my “stuff” that has been coming up regarding this Journey, more at peace, more nonchalant in a way. But I still feel the bigness of this Journey, so much so that I cannot even see all the pieces. I know this has to do with transformation–which is (I think) an aspect of creation; it has to do with re-creating myself, building something new, and digging deeply to find what is most important in my heart-mind-soul and expressing (creating) it outwardly. The emotions are not as intense today around it; I guess we’ll see where this leads.

My cooperation is absolutely necessary for me to accomplish what I want to accomplish on this Journey. That sounds a bit obvious and redundant, doesn’t it? Let me say that again: My cooperation with my Soul, with my Higher Self (my Christ Consciousness), and with God are absolutely necessary for me to accomplish what I want to accomplish on this Journey–which is co-creating with Source–Perfect Love/God.

This is why the first line of the Guiding Thought is so important. I must choose to cooperate with Perfect Love, and do so willingly and freely.

I have a “Higher Mind”, and I have a “Lower Mind”. Either can choose to create.

Thus when “I” choose to cooperate with Perfect Love, the “I” that chooses must be the one that actually wants to cooperate with Perfect Love–My Higher Mind, my Christ Consciousness.

This distinction between which “I” is choosing has been, admittedly, a bit difficult for me. It has felt like a difference between the ego-I, and the Higher-Self, but those two have been muddled and conflated in my mind. I have been working a long time on understanding which is which and how to tell them apart.

What I can tell you at this point, is that trust, surrender, and release are all a part of the understanding, but in the end (now, as I experience it), cooperating with my Higher Self feels more like simply watching, waiting, and trusting. “I” am not doing anything; “I” am not creating. All “I” do make an inner environment which invites, welcomes, and accepts cooperation with my Higher Self.

This, of course, requires loving myself, loving my Self, loving God, and understanding that Love is really all there is. I don’t know how “far” I am with this; I feel like I am still just beginning to understand the simplicity and pervasiveness of Love, but I can tell you that I have begun to really understand it.



The Evolution: Journey of Creation – Day 02

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Guiding Thought

When I am aware of my own consciousness as Perfect Love, I am aware of everything as Love, and of Love as everything. In this state of awareness, I create naturally and easily in unison with Perfect Love, with all of existence.


First, a check-in: I can feel the bigness of this Journey. I’ve been feeling a little cranky, irritable, and very tired; tiny things seem to bother me. This is an indication to me that some of my “stuff” is bubbling to the surface, spilling over, making me aware. This happens sometimes…all that stuff that knows it needs to transform rears its head when it’s confronted with that which will be transforming it. To re-phrase the Guiding Thought, and add to yesterday’s: when I am aware of my imperfections, I am aware of the places within which need to be released! Thank God for imperfections and the tools to transform them.

With that said, onward!

I definitely like the idea of creating naturally and easily with all of existence.

Imagine that for a moment: Everyone and everything is on your side, working with you to create…

To create what, exactly?

To create Perfect Love? That doesn’t make sense, does it?

If everything is already Perfect Love, why would it need to be created?

Furthermore, if Perfect Love is all that has been or will be created, why don’t I see or experience it all the time? I should be able to look around me and see Perfect Love everywhere, shouldn’t I?

Either Perfect Love is everything and I just can’t see it…

Or everything is not Perfect Love.


I choose Perfect Love is everything and I just can’t see it. I may be wrong, but I’d rather move in the direction of Perfect Love rather than away from it.

How do I move toward it, especially if I can’t see it?

Perfect Love is definitely bigger than I am right now. Maybe someday I will catch up to It, but right now, I lag far behind (especially when my little crankies are showing themselves).

My awareness is up to me! The evolution of my consciousness is up to me! Another day down, another step accomplished. This is the evolution.



Writing as Release: Journey of Creation – Day 01

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Guiding Thought

Love is everything. Perfect Love is Original Source, from whence I came. I return to the awareness of the Love I AM by simply releasing anything and everything which inhibits my consciousness of my True Self. I release those inhibitors now, and Know myself as the Love I AM.


I feel a lot of emotions of insecurity about this Journey. It’s very personal, this Journey. My insecurities do not arise from the process of doing the Journey–I am quite used to that by now; they do not arise from the desire for wanting to Know Love, to create as Love, to be One with Love, these too have been with me a long time. The insecurities arise instead from the sharing, from you being an observer to this process.

About a week ago, I was talking about my practices with Tam and about wanting to intensify them, and take more time at them; Tam said simply, “You are not a monk! Not in this lifetime, anyway.” I cried. I couldn’t help myself; I am not a monk and that makes me very sad. 

If I were a monk, I would be doing this in solitude, in the inner depths of my mind and heart, with no fear of the you who I now share this with.

But no. In this life I am choosing to share the process of becoming enlightened, the process of mastery, now, here, today, imperfectly perfect, step by step. What are your judgments? What do you think? Do you criticize my use of words like “Perfect Love” or “Original Source”?

I feel self-conscious. I have lived with my own desire for God all my life. I am used to it. But I have not shared it publicly, until I began writing as Susanwithpearls.

You would think that I would be used to this too, by now, since I’ve been writing as Susanwithpearls for four years.

But no. This Journey feels deeply personal, getting at a layer of honesty about my deepest desire for God, in a way that I have not approached previously. And you are here to witness, and that’s scary.

You are my void,

My all-seeing I.

You are the abyss into which I caste myself.

Into nothing, nothing goes.

Purified of nothing, I remain.

My Self.

“Simply releasing anything and everything which inhibits my consciousness of my True Self”…not so simply.

If it were simple, I would not have admitted everything I have just written; I would have released and been done!

Perhaps the writing is the release, and now I am one step closer.