Laughing at Myself: Journey of Creation – Day 37

Copyright Tam Black 2017
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Guiding Thought

I use my free will joyfully to create the good, the beautiful, the Holy, and the Perfect. This is appropriate use of my mind and will, and directly in-line with Perfect Love. As I experience my Holy creations in my life, I strengthen my conviction to Truth, and to my ability to co-create with my Divine Self.


“Someday we’ll look back on this and it will all seem funny” – Bruce Springsteen

“Every five years or so, I look back on my life, and I have a good laugh” – Indigo Girls

“I need only look back 30 days to laugh at myself” – susanwithpearls

30 days ago, I was pining and worrying about whether “I’m doing it or not”. I said:

Do I?
Do I use my free will joyfully to create the good, the beautiful, the Holy, and the Perfect?

I would like to think I do, but as soon as I read that line, I did not know if the statement was a fact or an ideal, a hope, or an optimistic goal that I am moving toward but have not yet achieved.

It was as though I had no confidence whatsoever that I was doing it. It was as though I still (after 3 years and 15 Journeys) do not understand the concept of the Journeys: Everything is the Journey. If you are here, you are doing it. If you are doing it, you are never not doing it while you’re doing it. I gotta just laugh.

I really had forgotten this, and definitely for much of this Journey.

Now, I look back over the past 36 days, the last 88 days, the last 6.5 months, and I can see very clearly that I am doing it. Everything is the Journey. 

I have done some amazing things in those time frames; relating to the Journeys this year:

My Gratitude has increased exponentially.  Yesterday after mowing the lawn I found a praying mantis and told him how beautiful he was, how blessed I was by my interaction with him, and how thankful I was that he came into my life. I realized in that moment, that I have been doing such things (thanking the birds, thanking the water, thanking people, thanking God, etc.) a lot over the past few months.

Part of my brain, is now more attuned to the beauty in my life, and the things that I can do to make beauty in my life. (And I have been ever so grateful for this new dimension of my awareness!)

…and particularly, relating to Journey of Creation:

I have been working on my books, my business, and my house and yard, building, fixing, creating stuff. I’ve been so productive!

Here are some lessons I’ve now learned pertaining to this new awareness–most of which are lessons I have repeated throughout the Journeys (but am now understanding at a deeper level):

  1. Awareness matters. It’s the absolute foundation for increasing how I perceive the Fullness of Life. Thirty days ago, I questioned whether or not I was, or had been creating. Now, it’s crystal clear to me that everything I do is creating. Energy expresses itself. I am energy. I express myself. Expression creates. My energy expressing itself creates. My mind and my intention focus that energy. When my mind and intention are focused on the Good, the Beautiful, and the Holy, then it is not just what I create, it is what I experience, when I am aware of It. Through that awareness of my Holy creations in my life, I strengthen my conviction to Truth, and to my ability to co-create with my Divine Self.
  2. I and my life really do change naturally and easily. I say this throughout all the Journeys, but I have to admit…it is still sinking in–changing into your best self is natural and easy. The idea is if we really are the expression of Perfect Love, and if Perfect Love is all there is, then when we direct our energy toward It (see #1) and are aware of ourselves as that Perfection, then our lives embody and reflect that Perfection. I can now see how I have implemented the concepts of the previous Journeys; the ideas are not foreign, I accept and believe them with only minor resistance these days (it’s only taken 3 years and 15 Journeys…). I do not have to think about being grateful, or looking for beauty. Those things are occurring spontaneously from within.
  3. Creation happens all the time. Here’s the catch: there’s a whole lot that happens behind the scenes; I do not see the results of what I am creating in some big, bombastic flare (until I do). When I come across what someone else has created, I see the final product. I do not see the process, the time, the work, the effort, the struggle, the hurdles. Everything I see (what writers, business people, etc., have produced) appears polished…because it is. When I feel angry or guilty or inadequate because I don’t have something that is polished, I am undermining my own process. I have to remember: I am doing it. This is the process, the time, the work, the effort, the struggle, and these are the hurdles. The Journey does not stop, that is why it is in my best interest to be as aware as I possibly can, every step of the way (refer to #1).

Thank you for being here. I appreciate you so much, as you traverse your own life, on your own journey.


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