Heart and Mind Find a Compromise: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 02

Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

I willingly release patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit Freedom. My thoughts and feelings transform through remembrance of Freedom through Love. I was born with everything I need to be Free in Love. I allow Love to lead me. I trust Love and surrender to Its wisdom.

Reflection

I love this Guiding Thought. As soon as I started today, I could feel myself wanting to be drawn by it, into it. It was easy to concentrate today. My mind did wander a bit, though… but I think because I was enthusiastic about this Guiding Thought, it was easy for me to get back to it and be focused. I wanted the release; I wanted to do what the Guiding Thought was saying.

I definitely felt like I understood intellectually/cognitively what the Guiding Thought conveys.

With this sentence, “I freely release patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit Freedom”, I felt like there is a balance between how much someone wants something vs. how afraid they are to let go.

For example, I am very excited and enthusiastic about releasing patterns, habits, and thoughts that inhibit Freedom, so my attitude is Bring it. But maybe for someone else, releasing a habit that “chains” them might be scary, and there may be a lot more conflict between being willing to release that habit, and really wanting freedom.

This can be seen, for example, in area of health. There are people who are told, “you need to lose weight…stop smoking…eat less red meat…eat less sugar, etc.” because their health is deteriorating. If someone really wants to be healthy, it’s easier to give up those things, but for others, there is a conflict between giving up things they enjoy to feel better in the long run.

I guess for me, I want to be free strongly enough that I am absolutely willing to release anything that inhibits that, whether I know the specific or not (and often I don’t know the specifics consciously). Nothing is worth the cost of freedom–let it all go!

I read the next part of the Guiding thought in two ways:

My thoughts and feelings transform through remembrance of Freedom through Love.

And

My thoughts and feelings transform through remembrance of Freedom through Love.

In the first way, what is remembered first is Freedom. Then “through Love” comes almost as an afterthought.

In the second, it’s more clear that Freedom can only be remembered through Love. Love is the ultimate cause of Freedom–you can’t have Freedom without having Love first.

With the next sentences (I was born with everything I need to be Free in Love. I allow Love to lead me. I trust Love and surrender to Its wisdom.), I understood them intellectually, but I also felt a bit of a skeptical “blip” about them, as though there were parts of me that either didn’t believe them, or weren’t convinced, or were a bit afraid to embrace them wholly (similar to the conflict I describe above).

My emotional/intuitive understanding was also pretty strong today. With the first sentence, every time I read it, I saw fireworks in my mind. They symbolized the explosive release of all those inhibitors.

Even though I had some intellectual hiccups for the final sentences, emotionally, I still felt very excited and enthusiastic about them. In order to come to a compromise between my brain and my emotions, I changed the wording a bit for myself. My mind could handle the sentences fully when I added the word willing: “I am willing to allow Love to lead me. I am willing to trust Love and surrender to Its wisdom”.

I like it when head and heart can reach a middle way that works for both!

 

Buoyant Beginning: Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 01

Copyright Tam Black 2015
Designed for susanwithpearls.com

Guiding Thought

Love is my natural state; In Love I remember who I truly am; I remember my holiness, my innocence, and my infinity.  Love enlightens my mind and lifts my heart. I feel buoyant and expansive! I am now aware of my Self as Infinite Love, unbounded and free.

Reflection

I felt pretty good about how focused I was while contemplating the Guiding Thought. I set a timer, so that I would know when I had completed at least 5 minutes, and I stayed pretty-well focused for that time (except when my mind wandered—just a bit!). I can focus on anything for 5 minutes! When that time was done, I found myself still thinking about the Guiding Thought for almost another 5 minutes, which seems to be an added benefit.

My mind did wander just a little (really just once), and I was able to pull it back into concentrated focus pretty easily.

Overall, the Guiding Thought made good sense to me. I thought the very first sentence really digs right in, doesn’t it? If Love is “my natural state”, then the definition I have of “me/my/mine” gets shifted right away into Love. In other words, I have to think about the definition of myself in terms of Love, rather than in terms of how I maybe otherwise define myself. I have to replace any definition I have of “me” that is not Love with something that is Love.

Luckily, the Guiding Thought does a good job of not leaving me hanging. I may not know what “me as Love” looks like, and the Guiding Thought fills in that blank: holiness, my innocence, and my infinity.

That’s a pretty nice self-image, I think.

I did not feel the Guiding Thought’s meaning very deeply, though I did feel it. I especially connected with the part about Love enlightens my mind and lifts my heart. I could literally almost feel my mind becoming brighter, and my heart rising a bit in my chest. I did feel a bit of a wave of energy! Just a bit, but a wave nonetheless!

I felt like I wanted to apply the Guiding Thought in every area of my life, though there were no specific instances that I felt were immediately applicable. My association was more general, it was like, “Wouldn’t it be amazing if I felt this Love stuff all the time, if my mind was enlightened, and my heart lifted all the time?”

Finally, I had a fun connection: just two days ago, when writing the Why a Journey of Freedom, I said, “August is gearing up to be a bit of an energy-swirling kind of month…I want to be in a mind-frame of non-judgment as I experience that. If the energy is such that many people will be caught up in a riptide of energy, or a whirlpool, or waves crashing around them, I want to experience it from my buoy floating in the water: I may feel surges, but I am safe on my buoy.”  … and now, today, the word buoyant is right there in the Guiding Thought! There’s got to be a connection there, right?