I Get It Now (and more): Journey of Freedom 2017–Day 20

Copyright Tam Black 2015
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Guiding Thought

Focus your mind and thoughts on your Inner Divine Self, your Self of Peace, your Self of Joy, Your Self of Infinite Being and Intelligence. When you are aware of your Inner Divine Self, you radiate these qualities, expressing the freedom of Being in Life!

Reflection

What an amazing day this has been! I love life! I love this life! I love my life!

So much has been clearing for me and in me. Old habits, old thought-forms, stupid shit I used to think and do is “evaporating like mist in the sun as I devote myself to the Oneness of Love” (that’s part of one of the Guiding thoughts from Journey of Courage—see how these work together?  I now Know, really Know, what that means!).

I don’t know if it had anything to do with the eclipse today or not, but with everything that has been clearing, in addition to what just cleared today, I feel freer. The feeling is hard to describe, even hard to grasp. There are phrases and clichés that seem to describe it, like “a weight has been lifted” or “that’s a load off my shoulders”, but I have felt things where I have said these phrases, and what I feel now is different.

First, those phrases use physical terms, so any analogy that you might imagine has to do with physical weight. What I feel now is emotional weight, but even more than that, it’s a spiritual weight that has been lifted. Imagine “taking a load off” from your soul, and I should add…from your soul which is millions upon billions of years old, and some of this weight is that old too.)

Second, with the image of a weight being lifted, there is a sense of a memory of what the weight was. Even if you apply the image to an emotional burden, there is some shadow of the weight that was lifted, some memory. With what I feel today, it’s as though even the memory-shadow is gone. There’s nothing.

Finally, this is the first time ever that I can say I was able to observe the “thing” evaporating. Literally, I watched it evaporate; I saw it leave my body and my energy field—and it was gone, as though it had never been here in the first place.

All of this is context for my state of mind/being as I began today’s Journey.

The really meaningful words in the Guiding Thought today were, “…the freedom of Being”. I feel so free, just Being. I feel what these words mean. I feel how Being feels. I feel what it feels like to have nothing in the way of Being. I feel what it feels like to be free from my past, free from my ignorance (and stupidity [I have forgiven myself my stupidity]), free from emotional habits from the past, free from material and psychological things that have bogged me down for years (and years!).

Then, I applied this new understanding to the words, “in Life” “…the freedom of Being in Life”.

This is from where my opening sentences derived. As I was able to feel free in Being, Life became amazing and wonderful and beautiful. I can Be in Life! I can Be in this Life! I can Be me in this Life!

The Guiding Thought “worked” out of sequence today. Usually, the first sentences (in this case: “Focus your mind and thoughts on your Inner Divine Self, your Self of Peace, your Self of Joy, Your Self of Infinite Being and Intelligence”) lead me to greater understanding of my Divine Self. The first sentences encourage me to Be that Self in the world. Instead today, I was already Being that Self! I got to feel how natural and easy it is to accomplish Peace, Joy, Infinite Being and Intelligence…by just Being it.

One final thing: In previous Journeys, I have quoted Rumi saying, “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” I get it now. Really, really get it now.

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