Layers (Heart- 1.1.26)

Journey of the Heart – Day 26
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

We listen to our hearts and with our hearts. Our hearts pay attention to each other; we listen to each other’s inner voice, the unspoken words. We care, and we attend with love to each other’s deeper, silent needs, asking each other’s heart, “How may I strengthen you and raise your energy?”

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Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-

Sharing

Sometimes heart-attention is not what people want. I came to this realization, about 5 years ago, when I met someone (in a then-ongoing work-related situation) who wanted not heart-attention, but ego attention.

In my experience, regardless of people’s egos, there is always a part of their heart that I can “reach”. When I bring my attention to my heart, and ask them what of real value I can give, most people’s hearts respond. In these cases, it’s not the words that matter, it’s the connection, the feeling of warmth and general good will.

So, having someone outright reject a heart connection was new and odd.

The more I connected, the more I saw that this person actually felt unsupported and attacked.  Eventually, that made sense to me: I most certainly was not supporting the ego, and even though I was not attacking, I could see how the ego could feel attacked. Not supporting it translates as complete disregard, translates as attack.

It took, quite literally, years of my persistence and refusal to “feed the ego”, but finally there was that familiar feeling of connecting with the heart.

A word of caution, or perhaps a word of experience and (maybe) wisdom: If you run into this kind of situation, where the person is so dominated by the ego that they can not (or perhaps refuse) to recognize a heart connection on any level, tread lightly; be careful. We are out here spreading the love, spreading the light, but some people aren’t ready to receive it, and fear-responses can have enormous (and unpleasant) repercussions or backlash. In some respects, I took a beating–emotionally, psychically, mentally– throughout the time that I was “dealing” with this person. If you are in this kind of situation, be very self aware; be aware of your energetic limits; find others with heart wisdom to share with and receive support from (you can always email me); remove yourself from the situation if you need to; let people evolve at their own pace.

 

Pity No More (Heart-1.1.25)

Journey of the Heart – Day 25
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Guiding Thought

We bring our awareness to our hearts and resonate with their love. Naturally and easily our heart-love radiates through us. Love is present now—rippling in to the future, releasing the past.

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Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-

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QuestionsHow can we deepen and expand our relationship with our beautiful, blissful hearts? How can we give our love, our wisdom, our compassion more openly and freely? How can we know our hearts of love, as ourselves?

AnswerWe bring our awareness to our hearts and resonate with their love. Naturally and easily our heart-love radiates through us. Love is present now—rippling in to the future, releasing the past.

In other words: you do it by doing it.

During Journey of Worth, the very first Guiding Thought starts out this way: I have forgotten my Self. I have forgotten who I am. I have forgotten that I am established in Love and by Love, which is infinite and eternal; therefore, my worth is infinite and eternal. I seek to remember my Self. I choose to remember my Self.

This came to mind today, as I realized the simplicity of the answer to my questions, the answer to letting go of my frustration and aggravation of yesterday.

When I forget myself, I feel sorry for myself. I become aggravated. Simple things seem difficult. Everything that I know, or at least that I have known, seems distant, remote…unknown.

…and I know this.

Why is it, that when I am so aware of being held captive by false ideas–even when I know it–I can’t get out of it?

you do it by doing it.

But there are times, it seems, that I don’t want to do it, that I want to remain enmeshed, bogged down, and in the dark. Rationally, I would say, “no, I don’t want this”…but I remain in it, I don’t get myself out of it, which indicates that I want to be in it, because if I know, and do not do it (i.e. don’t get out of it), then either I don’t know, or I am choosing the situation I am in, choosing my “plight”, my confusion, my aggravation (see yesterday’s post).

If I am choosing the situation I am in and the situation is one of aggravation or frustration, and I know I could get out of it, why don’t I? This line of inquiry has lead me to begin to think about self-esteem.

Why do people stay in “unhealthy”, “negative” situations when they know better? It seems to me, the answer is really no different for a person in an abusive situation, than for someone seeking enlightenment–it all boils down to self-esteem, self-worth; the “levels” are just very different. Once a person decides (really decides) to have self-worth, any situation that trammels on that new level of self-esteem is no longer viable, it can be easily discarded. The goal is to increase self-worth, increase self-esteem so that situations that do not support higher self-esteem can be left behind, while new situations that validate a new level of self-esteem can be cultivated.

I’m doing it by doing it. Done.

 

 

Rare Intentional Symbolism (Heart- 1.1.24)

By Susan Billmaier for Susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

How can we deepen and expand our relationship with our beautiful, blissful hearts? How can we give our love, our wisdom, our compassion more openly and freely? How can we know our hearts of love, as ourselves?

Sharing

I found the questions of today’s Guiding Thought quite aggravating. After listening to a few loops, I knew what the picture was going to be.

The square represents the heart, the colors a love vibrations within it. But the colors are boxed in, unable to get out, rigid, stagnant.

That’s how I feel about the questions of today’s Guiding Thought. I know those love vibrations are in there… but I had no access whatsoever to answers about how to deepen it, expand it, share it openly and freely, or know it as myself.

Aggravating.

It’s even more frustrating because the colors outside the box represent the constant flow of divine love. It’s always there, waiting for me to open to it.

The same black-line barriers of the square keeping my love-within from flowing out is keeping Divine Love from reaching my consciousness. I’m preventing the flow both ways.

I can see it…but I really could not get answers to how to let it flow…

In the World (Heart- 1.1.23)

Journey of the Heart – Day 23
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Guiding Thought

We follow the guidance of our hearts and experience life anew! We express love, and experience love everywhere. We find new ways to love; we recognize new depths and nuances of love. We are patient. We are kind. We are wise and we respond to life with love, as love.

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-

Sharing

When seeking the infinite or “the Divine”, one must cross into a realm, literally, not of this world.

The Divine may be in the world, for infinity is everywhere and everything.

But the world may not be in the Divine, for the world by definition is limited.

The Divine includes everything.

The world excludes anything that does not “fit” with whatever perception of reality one chooses to focus on.

We are all in the world. But are we Divine in the world, or held by the limitations of the world?

Shifting, changing, expanding our definitions, perceptions, concepts, and limitations we may expand our understanding of the world.

But we are still in the world, merely with broadened definitions or perceptions.

In this way, the world seduces and deceives as we experience our broadened definitions or perceptions. It’s easy to think there has been some achievement when we’ve accomplished something new in the world, when we have surpassed a limitation.

Even so, we’re still in the world, we’ve simply shifted from one view to another.

Yet, the Divine may be in the world, for infinity is everywhere and everything.

The question is…How do we release those definitions, perceptions, and concepts of the world, which difine it, and embrace the Divine–the Infinite–as it is, as who we are: in the world, yet not of it?

 

 

 

A Life Lesson (Heart- 1.1.22)

Journey of the Heart – Day 22
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Guiding Thought

Today, we decide to give our hearts reign. Trusting in love, assured with its gentle comfort, we invite our hearts to lead us with joy and peace to joy and peace. We surrender our minds and wills to our heart’s love.

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-

Sharing

Recently, I have had to trust in love. I’ve been all over the place emotionally.

The picture today became a mini lesson in trust.

When I began, I thought it was going to be wonderful! Beautiful! I had visions of stained glass and Art Deco style.

That quickly deteriorated. But I could not be deterred or disturbed since the point of the drawing/coloring is to listen to the heart and go with the flow, so to say.

So I kept coloring, despite not knowing what I was doing or why, or how it would ultimately turn out.

The phrase, “forgive me, Father, for I know not what I do” came to mind, as part of my mini-lesson, as I colored.

You see, so many times in life I don’t know what I am doing, and I just need to trust. If I can’t let go and allow things to “be”, in a mere little picture, how can I do that in my life, when things are “really important”?

So, today was about letting go, releasing expectations, trusting, forgiveness, and coloring even when I am not sure what I am doing.

Try that in life.

 

Simplicity Speaks (Heart- 1.1.21)

 

Journey of the Heart – Day 21
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Welcome to round 3! We are building some energy–I can feel it! This round, we all join together, consciously. Using “we”, “us”, and “our” as pronouns, the Guiding Thoughts include everyone, automatically. See this page for details.

Guiding Thought

All hearts know how to love. Everything is energy. The most potent energy is love. As we learn love, we invite the most powerful energy to express through us, to live as us, to be us! The heart is Love’s abode. The heart teaches only love. We are willing and joyful students!

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-

 

Sharing

The simplicity of the picture belies the depth and complexity of feeling that was going on “behind the scenes” while creating it.

First, I was totally into listening to the Guiding Thought. Sometimes it plays in the background and I don’t pay too much attention, I just let it soak in. Sometimes I am listening very intently to the words, willing myself to absorb them deeper and deeper.

Sometimes it’s somewhere between these two points of the spectrum.

Today was different than that usual spectrum. Today, I was listening to the music not the words. It has some energy, I thought. I let it carry me.

It was movement, it was relationships, it was contrasting matter and void. Those things are the “complexity” underneath the simple rectangles, trapezoids, and rhombuses.

Can you feel it?

Ancestral Wisdom (Heart- 1.1.20)

Journey of the Heart – Day 20
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Guiding Thought

Your heart-love establishes your inner-peace. Solidly grounded in your own inner-peace, you approach all of life with love, compassion, and wisdom. Live as your Self, shining with the beauty of the Love you are!

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-

Sharing

As usual, I began today’s picture without knowing where I was headed with it; it unfolded with each new element. All I knew is that there were upward  triangles and horizontal lines.

I did the triangles first because, though I could “sense” the horizontal lines, I did not know how/where they were placed; and it felt more specific today than it usually does. I could not haphazard a guess at where or how the horizontal lines were placed (like I usually do); the horizontal lines were to be specifically placed.

Once I got the triangles done, I did the outer-most horizontal lines; at that point I still did not know where the rest of the lines were going to go. Only when I finished the first set of horizontal lines (the outer-most) did I “see” where the next set was going to go. By the time those were done, I knew I had a pattern.

Then I was able to relax into the pattern, and as I did so, I felt myself connect to something different than “just” the Guiding Thought. In doing the pattern, I was calling up an inner connection to ancient (in America, we may say “native”) peoples; people who used lines and geometry in their pottery, weaving, and painting. I felt the rhythm of the pattern, if that makes any sense. I felt something that was “not me” and was “not the Guiding Thought”.

I was connected to that something, but I can not tell you what it is, or much more about how it felt, other than it was rhythmic and expansive.

When I was done with the horizontal lines, I felt like I wanted to do some of my “streaming upward lines”, but I usually ask the picture what it wants, or “what’s next”? The answer was clear: it’s done. There is complexity in the simplicity of this picture. There is beauty in simplicity. Let it be.