Conflict…Resolution (Heart-1.1.7)

 

Journey of the Heart – Day 07
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

I focus my heart-love in the service of others. As I serve others through my deepest heart-love, my own love expands and becomes amplified. There is always more love to share, to give, to experience! Such joy and gratitude fill me, when I open to my heart’s love!

Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically). Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls:

Sharing

The Journeys tend to stir shit up…in the most loving and beneficial way.

Doing a Journey is like saying to the Divine Presence within you, “OK, give it to me. Throw it all at me. I’m asking for whatever it is I need to clear in my mind and heart to know You (my Self) better”. Merely committing to the doing the Journey sets this in motion. My “normal-ish” pattern for the Journeys is to go through a little bit of a period of “freak out” at the beginning, as I become accustomed to the “whatever it is” my Divine Self is throwing at me.

What that is currently looking like for me, is that my Divine Self is telling me to slow down, to be patient, to not try to do things all at once, that there is a Divine Order and I just need to wait. 

WAIT????

I’m not good at waiting. I can be very patient when it comes to other people, but I am downright impatient with myself. I’ve been feeling agitated…waiting. I’ve been feeling unproductive…waiting. I’ve been feeling useless…waiting. What am I waiting for??

The feeling is clear, though–waitjust stop, don’t do anything. The “problem” with listening to your heart is that sometimes it says things you don’t want to hear, or don’t know how to handle, or that throw you into a tailspin.

That’s the mind getting in the way.

(My mind knows) I know I need to stay out of the way. (My mind knows) I need to keep my mind from becoming involved, because it can distort both the purity of the heart and its message.

This is my current freak out (to recap):

  1. The mind gives the heart permission to clear whatever stands in the way of the heart (committing to the Journey).
  2. The heart knows what it needs to expand and grow, but that freaks the mind out, even though the mind asked for it to begin with, because the mind is not used to letting the heart be in charge.
  3. The Journey becomes the canvas for conflict-resolution. The mind, though willing, is in unfamiliar territory, and balks at the heart’s leadership, throwing mini-tantrums to let the heart know it’s not happy; the heart can only coax the mind gently.
  4.  The mind is not unwilling, it just needs to be reminded that it is a willing participant…and it’s not like the mind  is in familiar territory. The mind is in uncharted waters, as far as it’s concerned–in a way it feels like it’s lost or drowning, until it understands what its new role is, has firm ground beneath it again.
  5. The mind needs to learn how to work with the heart, rather than always being the dominant faculty (and imagine the fear involved with that–what if the mind becomes unloved, unwanted? what if the heart takes over and completely oppresses the mind? What if the mind is no longer useful?)
  6. The Journey, which instigated this whole process is the very thing to resolve the matter. As the Journey continues, the heart and mind learn to work together to their mutual expansion.

Let’s hope so, anyway.

(No, I’m just kidding, of course there’s always resolution by the end of the Journey…so far, anyway.)

 

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