Hail Mary (Heart- 1.1.40)

Journey of the Heart – Day 40
©Susan Billmaier for susanwithpearls

Guiding Thought

My heart-love establishes my inner-peace. Solidly grounded in my own inner-peace, I approach all of life with love, compassion, and wisdom. I live as my Self, shining with the beauty of the Love I AM.

-Play the Guiding Thought here (loops automatically).
Journey of the Heart audio created by Brad Vanlandingham for Susanwithpearls-


Welcome to day 40! did you make it? It is so fitting for Journey of the Heart to end on Valentine’s Day, yes?

The 40th day is often a set of conflicting emotions for me. First, there is the relief, “oh thank god it’s over, and I’m done!” Then there is wondering: “I wonder how I did? What were my breakthroughs? How will this affect my life positively from here on out?” (I’ll explore such questions when I do the afterword). Then, there’s the excitement, “Oh YAY, now I get to start another Journey!”

I really am looking forward to Journey of Purpose. I feel like I really need to connect with my purpose. I am thankful that I have worked so diligently with my heart for the past 40 days. I feel confident in its guidance for my purpose.

So the picture today, what a mess, right? 🙂 It started as an infinity symbol. That turned into an Om. Then, the Om became an oil lamp (see the little flame out of the “trunk”?), and finally somehow the Divine Mother’s eyes showed up.

I’ve been working on connecting with the Divine Mother a lot recently. She is not someone/an energy that I am quite familiar with. But I’ve had the intention. This morning on my way to work, I replaced my usual driving-prayers with some toning. First I toned “Ahhhhhhhh” for the Divine Earth Mother, and gave thanks to her for sustenance. Then I toned “Ooooommmmm” because, well… it’s OM. Then, I toned “Huuuuuuuu”, which, in my experience, is a very powerful tone, and one of the root practices of Eckankar. After that toning, I felt like praying. So I did 3 “Our Fathers”. Then, sticking with my Catholic background, I started saying the Hail Mary. Wow. How powerful that was for me this morning. I said 2 more Hail Marys… then two more after that… then just kept saying them.

I felt connected to Mary, and was very thankful for the feeling. I’ve heard that the tradition in which one is raised–and so for me, Catholicism–is kind of the “heart” tradition that will resonate with a person throughout his or her life. I’ve always felt connected to Catholicism (and Orthodoxy) in a very unique and special way, despite my love and exploration of other traditions.

But this opening to and with Mary. That was new. A prayer answered, a heart opened.

Thank you, Mother.


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