Serendipitous Connections–Worth (1.3.9)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I extend the Love that I am, for that is all I truly am. As I learn to be aware, to understand, and to Know my own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, my life experiences become worthy of me. Expressing my Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings me satisfaction, the only choice that allows me to experience my Self—the Love that I am. My-your-our- freedom depends on my right choices, depends on my choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us.

Reflection

As you know, I’ve been working with the idea of transformation recentlySpecifically, the transformation of being directed 100% by the Holy Spirit, of submitting my will to Divine Will, through the Holy Spirit–as the Guiding Thought puts it, “to Know my own will as Love, and make choices according to that will”.

You may also be aware that even though I use terms like “Holy Spirit” (or any of the terms I use), I am not specifically ChristianI am not specifically anything. God is not Christian (or Hindu, or Muslim, or Sikh, or Eck, or B’hai, or whatever), so why should I try to be any one thing?

In that spirit, I’ve been thinking about the Holy Spirit, in relation to Shaktiwhich loosely defined is the power, or force, that brings the unmanifest into the manifest.

Here is what I found, quite unintentionally, when I was digging around for something completely different (funny how that happens–I was looking up Tandava). It was this first line that really grabbed my attention. I think I may be on to something.

Transformation is a gift from mystery to us.

As we awake to the reality of impermanence, Shiva appears as the ending of a cycle and ignites within us our inner fire of transformation. As we surrender unto the ever changing flow of life, Shiva supports us to see within the burning, a new way, a new path, the possibility to renew.

Simultaneously, destroying what is dying with one hand (fire) and reviving life with another (drum).

Shiva is the friend of all and his cosmic dance of Tandava keeps the world going round and round. Turning ignorance into new opportunities to free oneself.

He is called “The Auspicious One” and his blessings are infinite.

Shiva is the Exhale that brings a possibility for the NEW.

His consort is Shakti and without HER, Shiva is Shava (corpse – formless).

Shakti is the Goddess, the creator-ess of this world we live (inner and outer).

Shakti means sacred force or empowerment. She is the primordial cosmic energy and represents the dynamic forces of Nature, the compositional forces of the 5 elements. She moves through the entire universe as creative power, or the Great Divine Mother.

Shakti is the manifestation of creativity, fertility, abundance. She is creation, preservation and destruction. (see this link for full page)

Commitment and Dedication- Worth (1.3.00)

Here it is, the moment of truth. This is where you get to be really honest with yourself about what you want out of this Journey, and what you want to put into it.

This means sit, be still, quiet your mind, and think about who you are in the world and who you want to become. Think about what barriers you may have to recognizing your highest self-worth that you want to release; think about what beautiful, wonderful qualities you have that you want to embrace. What are you willing to do to work toward that? How much time, realistically, do you want to spend?

If all you can do is read my post every day, that’s enough…for now, but don’t let yourself think just reading my post is getting you somewhere. At some point, you need to do your own work, even if it’s just two or three minutes each day. Read the Guiding Thought with intention, call forth your will for your own evolution, and write; a minute or two is all it takes. One day, there will be a spark, the light will shine through, you will motivate naturally.  Your interest and effort will grow from there!

Commitment:

I commit to a daily practice of Guiding Thoughts (contemplation) and writing for 40 consecutive days, for at least twenty minutes. I commit to opening my awareness, developing my understanding, and accepting (allowing) my Knowing of the Truth of my Self and my worth. I commit to these actions. I commit to turning inward with sincerity and earnestness. All I am is now. May the Truth of Self be revealed. May I be my highest worth, infinitely and eternally, in service to all.

Dedication:

I dedicate this Journey to all. May we all come to Know the activity of Infinite Love within us as our united purpose, that we may extend and share it through all our words, thoughts, and actions to all, everywhere.

Leveling Off –Worth (1.3.8)

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Guiding Thought

I am worth the effort it requires to move my mind into Love. I am worth the time of waiting, in patience, for Knowing to arrive. Every moment, every second that I open to simply being willing for Love to enter is a moment offered to Eternity; a moment offered to healing, a moment offered to Unity.

Love simply settles slowly, quietly, gently, beyond sense-perception. So I must wait in patience and take the effort to move my mind to join the quiet stillness of Love. Here I rest. Here is Peace. Here is all I want and need.

Reflection

I had a bit of a breakthrough today.

Three weeks ago today, I decided to really work at changing my thoughts around a particular situation. I could recognize the thoughts that were perpetuating that situation, and could feel when I would think those thoughts that I would begin a slow descent into territory I did not want to be in–the territory of anger, hoplessness, despair, grief. So I made a commitment to change those thoughts, whenever I recognized them as they came up.

Here are some of the thoughts that were the downward spiral (which I call “distortions”):

  • “I have no respect for you”
  • “You don’t know what you’re doing”
  • “You make bad decisions”
  • “No one likes you”
  • “You’re not worthy of this”
  • “You’re controlling and manipulative”

It’s hard to tell if I was having distorted thoughts about myself, or someone else, isn’t it? That’s one of the points of a really good reason to change thoughts like this. Even if they are directed toward someone else, they are also really about you (or me, in this case).

Here are the thoughts I decided to change these to:

  • “I am willing to look upon the light and be saved”
  • “Grievance is not my will; I will there be light”
  • The prayer to the Holy Spirit, that I mentioned in the Afterword to Journey of Purpose.

Over the past three weeks, as my thoughts have turned downward and I have felt any inkling of the above thoughts, I have quickly recognized them, and thought “I will there be light”, or any or all of the above thoughts to keep my mind in the light.

Stress and duress cause the brain to go into a sort of shell-shock. Under stress, it’s hard to think; it’s hard to remember the choices that I’ve made regarding changing my thoughts. But in this regard, there is a lesson in, those movies where James Bond, or the like, are under torture-stress, and they can keep their head about them. It’s all in the training. In this sense, what I’ve been doing for the past three weeks has been to train my brain to respond to a certain stress in a certain way.

I had a test today. I was confronted head-on with the stimulant to those downward thoughts, and they flared up and up, dragging me down, and down…that is, until my training kicked in, until I realized what I was doing (spiraling downward), and that this was exactly the situation that I had been in training to overcome.

I started changing my thoughts. “I will there be light. I will there be light. I will there be light”. “Grievance is not my will. Grievance is not my will…” “I am my I AM presence and I am One with the I AM presence of all humanity” (I’ve been working with this thought a lot, too, just not specifically regarding this situation).

And I succeeded. I changed my thoughts, and my perception shifted. I can’t say that I could feel a difference; I don’t know what, if anything, I accomplished on the spiritual level. But I know it was a success that in the moment of stress, in the moment of confrontation, I was able to pull myself out of a certain downward spiral, and at least level off.

 

 

What does this have to do with– Worth (1.3.7)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I claim who I am, the essence of my Self, established in and by Love. My Self shines with the strength, beauty and power of its essence, Love. As I open to my Self, accept my Self, and Love my Self, the Life of Unity infuses all my activity and transforms my consciousness. Life as my Self renews my Joy and restores my trust in Life itself.

Reflection

“Change is the only constant”. Yet so many people resist change…or at least that seems to be the case.

Why?

One would think that if change is the only constant, then it is completely natural. And if it is completely natural, doing it should be easy…and natural.

So, why do so many people seem to have a problem with change? Here are some ideas:

  • Change is imposed from outside, or not chosen
  • Transition periods are associated with adapting to the change are difficult
  • The new/different situation will be “worse”

Even so-called positive change people seem to have a rough time with, mainly associated with the second point above.

If people have a conscious or sub-conscious aversion to change, I wonder how resistant people are to transformation?

And if people are resistant to transformation, then is there a resistance to today’s Guiding Thought, “the Life of Unity infuses all my activity and transforms my consciousness”.

I feel like this awareness is a valuable insight. Although I do not feel resistant to change, if there is a part of my mind that is–especially one that is subconscious–then it is working against what I am trying to accomplish with these Journeys. Transformation is the whole point of the Journeys.

I just remembered that I wrote about this very thing at the very end of the last Journey. That feels significant. I must be working on this in my inner mind, my subconscious, my inner self.

These Journeys instigate change. The whole point is to teach myself to think in ways that are more loving, kind, unified, compassionate. As I have been doing this, small changes happen in life–the Life of Unity infuses all activity.

But it does not happen all at once, and in some ways, it happens so subtly that the change is barely noticeable most days.

Then (and this is what I’ve experienced), you wake up one day, and realize something is different; you’re different. But it happened so slowly, and now feels so natural.

This is what it means, I think, about “in a twinkling of an eye”. It’s not that it happens all at once, that fast; it’s that when the changes are happening in incremental amounts, over a long period of time, it takes some time for the brain to realize it, and “see” it. Then it just seems like it happened so fast.

I’m going to keep thinking about this whole change/transformation thing. I think it’s much bigger than I am currently aware of it being, and I need to open myself to learning about what it’s teaching me. And what does this have to do with worth, anyway?

Together- Worth (1.3.6)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

We are ALL One. I am not alone. Alone becomes All One in Unity and Healing. I am that which you are, which we become together. There is no separation—through healing and forgiveness, we unite. At One there are no limits, at One there are no boundaries. At One I am free—with you.

Reflection

Oneness works for all of us, and where my effort (and your effort) matters so much within the context of the larger picture. When I heal myself, digging deeply into accepting and allowing Love and Oneness, I am doing it for everyone. Any effort I put into my own healing that surpasses what I “need” for my own personal, individual healing, overflows and becomes available for those who cannot now do it for themselves. No benefit is wasted.

I am that which you are: If you feel alone, scared, betrayed, mistreated, I am too. But the inverse is also true: You are that which I am: When I empower myself and lift myself higher and higher into love and light, you are empowered and lifted. We become together: All of our emotions and efforts interact cumulatively. The more effort toward Love and Oneness that I bring, the more there is available to benefit you. The more you do for yourself, the more there is for All. Then as you are also lifted, I receive the benefit of your Lightness.

Affirming. Worth (1.3.5)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

There is only one Will. That Will is Love: your Love, my Love, our Love, together. Only when I will in Love is the outcome assured in Love. Only when I will in Love do I know the results are truly beneficial to all, including myself. Only when I will with Love am I Free, and I affirm with certainty “All is as it should be”.

Reflection

Can I affirm with certainty “All is as it should be”?

If the answer to that question is “no”, then I have not Willed with Love.

If the answer to that question is “yes”, then I have Willed with Love.

How often do I feel the peace of knowing all is as it should be?

Sometimes, but not that often. I have felt it; I know I have. But most of the time, I am caught up in something else that is probably best described as “just getting through life”–going here and there, doing this and that. It’s like constant preoccupation.

How do I go from constant preoccupation and not knowing all is as it should be to the constant preoccupation and knowing all is as it should be? In other words, how does it happen that I live life, going here and there, doing this and that, and know constant peace, in the constant union with Divine Will?

The obvious answer is, “will in Love”, all the time. Yeah. I’m working on it. Not there yet, but working.

 

 

The Thick of It (no longer in). Worth- (1.3.4)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

My worth is inestimable, beyond compare!

I always know I have everything to give—thus, I may always give freely! I know my worth, I give it; I give freely, and I Know in the giving!

As I give, I learn, allowing Joy and Peace to lead and to guide me. I follow willingly for I know: Where there is Joy and Peace, there is Love; where there is Love, I Am; where I Am, I am giving my inestimable worth.

Reflection

I feel my mental space cluttered. I feel it. I felt it beginning to happen, starting yesterday around noon. I felt the thoughts begin to crowd my head. I am aware of this!

It’s kind of a new place for me. It’s very interesting. It’s like I am watching something happen from the beginning, that prior to now, I had only been able to be aware of when I was smack in the middle of it.

Here it is, in a nutshell:

Certain thoughts (let’s call them “fear”, “anxiety”, “turmoil”) bring about a corresponding experience.

During this time, I was as I described: smack in the middle of it. I could see nothing else, other than the need to shift my thoughts, to protect the sacred part of my mind. In other words, I got no relief. It was a constant effort to keep my mind consistent with Love, consistent with Good Will.

For about 6 years I worked (really worked) at shifting those thoughts as they pertained to one area of my life (spilling over into other areas as well). As I said, it was constant.

Then, something lifted.

For the past 10 months or so, I’ve been free of them, and my mental space opened up. For the past 10 months or so, I have been having a new mental experience. I smile more now. I am (even more) optimistic now. Heading those thoughts off changes my experience.

More than changing my experience, it changed my mental space.

I only know this now, because in the past 24 hours or so, I’ve been noticing some of the same thoughts that I fended off for 6 years. They’ve come back. Now that I have been without them for 10 months I can see them like never before. Instead of being in the thick of the thoughts. I have the perspective of clarity, of a mind without those thoughts. The mind without those thoughts is looking at those thoughts thinking, “Oh, No. You are not welcome here.” The Guiding Thought from Journey of Purpose has been rolling around in my head: Today, my only responsibility is to protect My Own Loving Presence from thoughts that block Its flow. If I feel uncertain, I remember my Source; if I feel weak, I remember my Inner Flow; if I feel doubt, I assure myself of my Inner Knowing and I am free.

Two things are interesting to me about all this. First, I’ve not handled my awareness of these imposing thoughts very well. I have not fended them off with the same ferocity and intensity that I did for 6 years. That has lead to them growing, becoming stronger–which is a whole ‘nother level of awareness.

Second, the reason that I have not fended them off as quickly, is because I feel like “I don’t know how” (yes, I know how crazy that sounds)…which has brought up feelings of helplessness, as though I am a victim of my own mind.

All the while, there is the part of my mind that has been clear for 10 months watching all this, and wondering what I am going to do to stop my mind from spiraling. It’s there simultaneously shaking its head in disbelief, while also saying, “c’mon, you can do it, you know how“.

I know it’s right. I just have to do it.