ACK! (Purpose 1.2.39)

Copyright Tam Black 2018
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Guiding Thought

I am. I am Love. I am kindness. I am filled-full. I have all I seek, for all I seek is within me. Now I can be who I know I am. I share my Self with all and hold nothing back; I give All Love. The Fullness of my Self returns to me as every form, person, situation, circumstance, and event that renews my fullness. I need not worry or think about what may be…my Self Knows and orders my life for my perfect fulfillment. All I need do is remember my Self.

Sharing

The winds of change are blowing; the Journey is my solid ground.

Do you know that feeling of expectation, of anticipation? When there is something you want and you’ve wanted it for a long time, and suddenly an opportunity comes up for you to –maybe– get it?

Most of the time, you’re not really thinking about it– it comes, it goes–the thoughts about it are more like, “wouldn’t it be nice if…..” but there’s no evidence that the “if” will become a “when”, so instead of excitement there’s more like a sigh.

Then something happens and the “if” becomes a “maybe this could happen“, turning the sigh into excitement. And all that mental energy that was thinking “wouldn’t it be nice if” suddenly turns into “OMG, OMG, OMG!”

The mental state that was at peace with wondering in one direction now anticipates the what could happen in this new direction, resulting in the chaos of imagining a future that may or may not ever come to pass.

This, my friend, is me, being blown about by the winds of change. Nothing has changed except a possibility, and with it comes a now-chaotic mental state that wants to move me into that possibility.

This is how I entered today’s Guiding Thought, trying to get a handle on my mind, as it flings itself into a future that may or may not ever come to pass.

I laughed at All I need do is remember my Self. All I need do? Easier said than done.

On the one had, this new possibility feels like it could be a fulfillment of my Self, in which case, the Guiding Thought is spot on, and I would be in a new mental/emotion/physical space where this —I am. I am Love. I am kindness. I am filled-full. I have all I seek, for all I seek is within me. Now I can be who I know I am– is even bigger than where I’m currently at.

On that same hand, this could be the Fullness of my Self returning to me as every form, person, situation, circumstance, and event that renews my fullness.

On the other hand….. geeze…… I’ve been working at this so long….and I’ve been disappointed before …. how do I know if this time it’s going to be real? How do I trust what is happening–especially with this mental chaos going on? How do I trust myself/my Self?

It is easier said than done. But I gotta do it. I have to trust and not worry or think about what may be…my Self Knows and orders my life for my perfect fulfillment. All I need do is remember my Self.

This is also a day to practice the sixth day: Today, my only responsibility is to protect My Own Loving Presence from thoughts that block Its flow.

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