Journey of Worth (1.3.35)

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Guiding Thought

There is only one Will. That Will is Love: your Love, my Love, our Love, together. Only when I will in Love is the outcome assured in Love. Only when I will in Love do I know the results are truly beneficial to all, including myself. Only when I will with Love am I Free, and I affirm with certainty “All is as it should be”.


“Willing in Love” means aligning one’s mind-heart-desires-intention with the Will of Love, the One Will. Since there is only One Will, which is Love, It is the only thing that knows how to bring about love, peace, and joy for everyone.

This means letting go of attachments to lower, egoistic goals and desires. How can I will for myself, without knowing if the outcome is going to be beneficial for others? I can’t. There’s no way I can put the pieces together, with my limited vision, my sparse understanding.

It does not necessarily mean letting go of goals and desires. Its just letting go of the attachment to them. As long as I am willing to relinquish my goals to a higher good, brought about by the Will of Love, then I–and everyone else–will receive the highest good possible. In my experience, this is always better than anything I could have imgined or planned for myself.

This takes a lot of self-honesty. When do I cling to lower egoistic things because “its what I want”? I need to recognize these instances and be willing to let go of my “it’s all about me” syndrome.

Above all else, I want the Peace of God. I want a mind that can live in my body, experiencing my life knowing “all is well”. This is how I accomplish that.

Journey of Worth (1.3.34)

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Guiding Thought

My worth is inestimable, beyond compare!

I always know I have everything to give—thus, I may always give freely! I know my worth, I give it; I give freely, and I Know in the giving!

As I give, I learn, allowing Joy and Peace to lead and to guide me. I follow willingly for I know: Where there is Joy and Peace, there is Love; where there is Love, I Am; where I Am, I am giving my inestimable worth.


Bring your highest Self–your I AM presence, your Divine Self–to every interaction, to the best of your ability.

Because this is your Self of inestimable worth, your only self of inestimable worth.

This is the Self that is Love and Knows you as Love. This is the self that is infinite And Knows you as infinite.

This is why you can give Love infinitely when you know yourself as the Truth of who you are. That self is both Love and. Infinite, and that self is you.

Journey of Worth (1.3.33)

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Guiding Thought

I know my Self when I share my Self. As I give my Self, I see my Source returned to me. All that is Whole, all that is Beauty, all that is Holy, reflects back to me in the Joy of Being, in the brilliance of Life, in the Unity of Self. I choose to share only the Self of Beauty, Wholeness, and Joy, that I may Know my Self as Beauty, Wholeness, and Joy.


What I give, I get. This is the law of return, reaping what you sow. But, in todays’s Guiding Thought, it’s also more than this. it’s a learning tool, a method for seeing and experiencing who and what I truly am, so that the reality of “me” can be experienced, validated, and encouraged to shine.

My Self from Source is my only true reality. My Self from Source is my Self that is Holy, beautiful, filled with joy, and whole. In reality, this is all I Am. But in order to experience myself this way, I first need to give it.

This calls into question what I think about myself, what I believe about myself, and who I think I am.

This is why many people have a gap between the higher and lower self. Their belief systems and personal definitions are contrary to the reality of who they are. In order to express the Reality, they must UNlearn belief systems that have taught them they are only their lower-self, or a mixture of lower and higher.

Following this Guiding Thought–sharing “the Self of Beauty, Wholeness, and Joy” is part of that deconstruction, and then rebuilding. The more a person focuses on, and shares the Reality of who they are, the more quickly that reality is reflected, and thus replaces the belief systems that inhibit that reality.

Hold Fast– Worth (1.3.32)

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Guiding Thought

I love myself for the Truth within me. The Truth within me Knows me for who I am—Pure Love, Only Love, beyond all valuing of the world. In Love all are equal, for we are One. This is how Truth Knows me—Pure, One, and Free. This is my Truth; this is our Truth; this is the Self I love.


A friend wrote this to me in an email earlier today:

we both know only too well that while we are here things seem important to us, that ultimately we are doing not cos we have to, but just because we can, and when we stand back sometimes we can see that human life is mostly much ado about a meaningless nothing.

This is the key today: sifting the meaningless nothing from the Truth, and making human life about the Truth within.

People go through rough patches, but as my friend points out–it’s mostly of our own making “because we can”, and it’s also mostly meaningless nothing. Why then, oh why, do we do it to ourselves, and buy into it, and then not know how to get ourselves out of it?

I was reading a Christian blog on tithing also earlier today. The author referred several times to points in his life when he was “tested”, and when he went through a “crisis of faith”–and he was currently experiencing such a crisis.

Last weekend, I binge-watched several episodes of Naked and Afraid XL: All Stars, the shows from the Amazon, in which Chance, an Army Ranger, stayed with Russel because “you never leave a man behind”, then Russel turns around and leaves Chance because he was “only thinking of himself”, making for a (pretty severe) mental crisis for Chance.

Pretty much this whole Journey I’ve been in and out of my own crisis–which I’ve called “panic” and “anxiety”. From the two above examples, and my own experience, it seems like when these crises are happening, it’s not like there is anything specific to do, except to get through it. The Christian blogger prays, Chance repeated his military creed, and I’ve been doing mantra.

There’s an element of acceptance here, “there’s nothing to do, but to get through it”.

At the moment, I am thinking that acceptance is the key. But acceptance, to the mind, is difficult because it feels like what you’re accepting is something you don’t want i.e. panic and anxiety, or personal crisis, or betrayal. But this is the trick of the mind, right? The panic and anxiety are caused by not accepting–they are caused by resisting the Truth within.

The Truth within Knows the Truth of us.

In crisis, we remind ourselves of that Truth, however we can, and by doing so, align with It. When we align with Truth, we align with what is Real, not the meaningless nothingness our minds have constructed.

The Christian Blogger reminds himself of Truth through prayer. I use these Journeys, and mantra. Chance used the Ranger Creed (below). Any method that points you to your own highest ideal–the strength within, a higher cause, responsibility to be the best human being you can be–will increase the influence of that Ideal, and decrease the grip of the mind which presents us with meaninglessness.

Cling to the ideal. Cling to the highest vision for yourself. Do whatever you need to do to get through it, with the Truth of your Self intact. Hold fast. This too shall pass.

I am thankful for friends with wise words. I am thankful for friends who keep me afloat. I am thankful for friends who anchor me. I am thankful for friends who know when to tell me to breathe! By being their Truth, they remind me of mine.

Ranger Creed

Recognizing that I volunteered as a Ranger, fully knowing the hazards of my chosen profession, I will always endeavor to uphold the prestige, honor, and high esprit de corps of my Ranger Regiment.

Acknowledging the fact that a Ranger is a more elite soldier who arrives at the cutting edge of battle by land, sea, or air, I accept the fact that as a Ranger my country expects me to move further, faster, and fight harder than any other soldier.

Never shall I fail my comrades. I will always keep myself mentally alert, physically strong, and morally straight and I will shoulder more than my share of the task whatever it may be, one hundred percent and then some.

Gallantly will I show the world that I am a specially selected and well trained soldier. My courtesy to superior officers, neatness of dress, and care of equipment shall set the example for others to follow.

Energetically will I meet the enemies of my country. I shall defeat them on the field of battle for I am better trained and will fight with all my might. Surrender is not a Ranger word. I will never leave a fallen comrade to fall into the hands of the enemy and under no circumstances will I ever embarrass my country.

Readily will I display the intestinal fortitude required to fight on to the Ranger objective and complete the mission, though I be the lone survivor.

Rangers, lead the way.



Under the Surface– Worth (1.3.31)

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Welcome to Round 4!

Congratulations! There are only 10 days left! We’ve done so much these past 30 days; do you realize how far you’ve come? Can you feel it!? After all, it’s not everyone who can think in terms of Oneness and expansion for 30 days in a row (and by the time we’re finished…40!).

In the first round, you affirmed your Self using “me”, “my”, “mine”. In the second round, you affirmed someone else using “you” and “your”. In the the third round we all came together in unity (as we). Now in round 4, we come full circle and return to the Self as the subject, and repeat the Guiding Thought with “I”, “me”, and “mine”. Now that you have reached out to others to support their attainment in the second round, and united with others in the third round, the words “I”, “me” and “mine” will take on a new tint. With the infusion of the all perspectives—“I”, “you”, and “we”—you will now no longer see yourself as separate or apart from others. Now, in claiming your Self for yourself, your consciousness is attuned to claiming it for others as well. You will “see” others attaining their fulfillment with you. (See this page for more information on the rounds.)

Guiding Thought

I have forgotten my Self. I have forgotten who I am. I have forgotten that I was established in Love and by Love, which is infinite and eternal; therefore, my worth is infinite and eternal.

I seek to remember my Self. I choose to remember my Self.

I choose to remember who I am and my infinite worth in Love.

I choose to be aware, to understand, and to Know myself (my Self) as the Love I am.

I choose to share who I am with the world, giving my infinite worth, measured in infinite Love.


Thirty days ago, I balked at this Guiding Thought. I didn’t want “forgetting” to be part of my reality; i didn’t want to “affirm” the forgetting. Today I embrace it. In fact, I want to go after all that I have forgotten, and bring it to the surface.

There are (IMHO) two primary aspects to the Big Journey of Enlightenment. They are 1) releasing the ego, (also known as the lower-self, the selfish-self, etc.) 2) embracing (striving for, seeking) God (or Love, or light, or the Higher, Divine Self). These two things underpin every Journey, every day. The seeking/striving/embracing of Love and Light through the ideas in the Guiding Thoughts expose the areas of the mind that resist the Love and the Light–and it is these areas the require transformation/release.

I now understand forgetting and remembering in this same way. Seeking to remember shows me how much I have forgotten, and the places of forgetting are where I need to remember.

On day 25 I realized that despite all of my work, all of my remembering, I still forget things that I know I should remember (for example seeking the Kingdom of God–an idea that I have remembered and worked with for over 20 years, and yet… I still forget it sometimes, and am still learning it more deeply every time I remember it). With all my forgetting, I asked…what is there within me that I have not yet even begun to remember?

So now, as with digging and dredging up all of the aspects of my lower, selfish self to release them, I now am happily, readily digging and dredging all of the aspects of my Self that I have forgotten. Bring it.

Do Unto Others– Worth (1.3.30)

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Guiding Thought

If we are to be our Self in the world, we must be for others as well as ourselves. There is no other. We are willing to be receptive to the Infinite Love of All. We are willing to understand how we must rise above the struggles and pains of the world. We are willing to rise again and again with each call for help, each outstretched hand. We are willing to be the ones to choose to change. We offer our pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation, into the light of Love that we may see and give only the light of Love always.


I had an incredibly emotionally uneventful day. Such a welcome after the past four weeks! Maybe it’s the japa I’ve been doing; I can–by now–feel my mind sort of tighten, like it’s flexing after a session of strength-training, when I do a lot of japa. I am very thankful for japa. It’s one of those things that whenever I leave it alone for a period of time (as I have for the past 2 months or so, even though I’ve been doing other mantra practices), and then come back to it, I always wonder how I stopped, because it just feels so good.

My practices, my “little devotions” as I now like to call them, are often in flux. There are several that are my backbone practices– bathing, breathing, japa or mantra. Then, there are others that come and go and come again like the spiral dance, yoga, Sacred Geometry, Om meditation, Violet Flame meditation, sitting with fire, orthodox prayers, etc. I am hoping that the fire ceremonies become a backbone practice, but I have not been doing them long enough to know.

Sometimes I wonder why I don’t or can’t just stick to one practice, like all those folks who have been meditating for 20+ years. I used to worry about it. I used to have this definition about spiritual practices that said “you must choose practice; you must do that practice.”

But I decided that my practice–my devotion— is God. Seeking God. Living a life worthy of God. Doing what is pleasing to God. With this, everything can become a practice, or a devotion. Life is the devotion.

I felt good about this insight when I read this in A Course in Miracles:

Use all the little names and symbols which delineate the world of darkness. Yet accept them not as your reality. The Holy Spirit uses all of them, but He does not forget creation has one Name, one meaning, and a single Source which unifies all things within Itself. Use all the names the world bestows on them but for convenience, yet do not forget they share the Name of God along with you.

We live in this world together. Despite our different bodies, we are unified, sharing the name of God.

If we are to be our Self in the world, we must be for others as well as ourselves.There is no other.

We are willing to be receptive to the Infinite Love of All.

Our struggles and pain divide us; these things take our attention away from the Infinite Love of All, and “demand” that we focus on ourselves. This is why we must rise above the struggles and pains of the world.

This is why we must understand our worthiness, understand our unity, and offer our pain, suffering, guilt, and blame up for transformation (healing!).

Only then can we rise to aid those with outstretched hands. Only then can we love our brothers and sisters as ourselves. Only then can we truly do unto others as we would have them do unto us.

And life itself becomes devoted to seeing and giving only the light of Love always.


New Beginnings– Worth (1.3.29)

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Guiding Thought

We extend the Love that we are, for that is all we truly are. As we learn to be aware, to understand and to Know our own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, our life experiences become worthy of us. Expressing our Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile. It is the only thing that brings us satisfaction, the only choice that allows us to experience our Self—the Love that we are. My-your-our- freedom depends on our right choices, depends on our choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us.

Quick check-in: How are you doing? Have you had a smooth and steady Journey, or has it been a bit tumultuous, like mine, or somewhere in-between? What types of insights have you had? Do you have any themes that have popped up? What feels significant to you? Don’t worry if you have no answers right now. When I first started doing the Journeys, I did not have any insights or connections until day 38, 39, or 40, or even after the Journey was over. The main thing is to get through the Journey. 40 days is a long time (at first), but you’re worth it!


I really needed today’s Guiding Thought. While reading it, I just relaxed, and let out a huge sigh, thinking, “yes. yes. This is it. This is exactly what I want”.

I was also reminded of / reinvigorated with commitment. That is: my commitment to you.

This past month, I’ve really been in a haze of self-interested worry. “What about me?” “What am going to do?” “really need this >thing< to happen, so I feel better.” “How does this affect me?” and on and on.

And I owe you an apology. I’ve been self-absorbed (that’s the little self, the selfish self…), when I should have been Self-absorbed (in my higher Self, which universally cares for the highest good of every being). So, I apologize. My-your-our- freedom depends on our right choices, depends on our choosing what is worthy and what is not; it depends on me, depends on you, depends on us, and I have not done a good job being dependable for the past few weeks.

I do feel like I am back on track–especially today, after this Guiding Thought’s kick in the ass.

It was a gentle kick, reminding me exactly of why I am doing this Journey. This is exactly what I want:

As we learn to be aware, to understand and to Know our own will as Love, and make choices according to that will, our life experiences become worthy of us. Expressing our Self that is wholly Love and United with All is the only choice that is worthwhile.

I want to Know the Will of Love. As I’ve been doing my prayers over the past 48 hours, the subtext has been, “Thy Will be done”. And sometimes, I include, “Thy Will be done also in me, a sinner”. (Just a quick explanation: worthiness, or unworthiness, for me is tied up in feeling the guilt of having “fallen”. I mean this, “fallen”, as both in a Catholic sense, but also in a broader sense, of simply having forgotten who I am, and forgotten my divinity. I find that acknowledging this helps me move through/past it. You may read this  for more detail from earlier on this Journey.)

I want my life to be worthy of my Highest Divine Self, worthy of the Holy Spirit, worthy of God. It seems ironic, or a bit of a paradox that in order for “me” to have a life worthy of the Divine, “I” cannot do anything. I have to let the Divine operate in me, through me, as me. If “I” do something, invariably, I screw it up (I’ve been reflecting on this a lot lately, too.) Yet, “I” am the recipient of the results, that is, the “me” that experiences this life. It feels so counter-intuitive to do nothing, yet receive everything. I still don’t really understand…and yet…I do.

Finally, I do not often talk about astrology, mainly because I don’t really know that much. But I do pay attention, and think about “what’s going on out there” and “what’s going on in here” to see what kind of reflection/learning I can see.

Here is a short description about today’s New Moon:

May 15th 2018 is the big day. We have a New Moon in Taurus and just 3 hours later, Uranus enters Taurus! New Moon = new beginnings and Uranus changing signs = major new beginnings…just keep in mind that this is BIG. Something in your life will shift. If you have planets or angles in the first degrees of the fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius) you will feel the shift even stronger. (from

“New beginnings…and major new beginnings”. With this is mind, I dedicate today’s post to the new beginning of focusing, with renewed vigor, on making choices according to Divine Will, and creating life experiences that are worthy of US. I dedicate this to you, and your freedom in Divine Love.

Peace. Peace. Peace.